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07/21/02 - I just touched up my nails, my fingernails. That’s because I did, in fact, wash the dishes. It chips away at the polish. I should use those rubber gloves. They help my hands in general. But, they are confining. See, I will always rebel against confining. I remember way back to when I was taking “baby” classes. They told us that if the baby got real cranky and wound up, we should wrap it very, very tightly in a receiving blanket. The more confinement the better. That would make them feel safe and secure, calm them down. And, it did work. But now I’m thinking I did mine a real disservice. There must have been a way to find that safe and secure spot without the confinement. How about the soft touch? Walking back and forth, seeing it through, gentle hugs ... safe, secure and free, all at the same time? There’s the balance thing in there somewhere. I’d love to be able to wear sandals year round. My toes don’t like to be confined either. In fact, I’d love to go bare foot all the time. Even weather permitting, this isn’t always practical. I’ve been working in my garage, sorting through a lifetime of memorabilia. I wish. It appears to be mostly junk. I’d already been working for some time when I realized I was barefoot. And, my feet were a dirty mess. However, it was pretty soothing feeling the cold concrete on my feet as the temperature around me was somewhere in the 90’s. I’m also a very tactile (great word) person. I like feeling, touching things. I swept the garage floor thoroughly, almost compulsively. I would take a bath when I was done with the sorting, that should take care of it. Dr. Phil, who I watched on Oprah last Tuesday, was talking about normalcy? Well, he covered a lot of different issues, as usual. Some of the behaviors that were addressed were obsessive (having to do with thinking) and some were compulsive (having to do with doing) and some were both. The topic of the show was ... Is this normal? The bottom line, according to Dr. Phil, was it’s normal as long as it isn’t costing anyone anything, and not creating negative results. I’m thinking there’s a lot of things about me that I didn’t feel were quite normal, but now I’m seeing don’t really hurt anyone. There’s another word that should probably be put in there along with obsessive and compulsive ... excessive. And to take you back to full circle (an expression I actually loathe), it’s all about balance. So, I guess as long as I’m not thinking about going barefoot all the time, and as long as I’m not taking 5 or 6 baths a day instead of wearing my sandals, then ... I’m normal. |