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Dream A Little Dream ...

09/02/02 -  Chaos ... perhaps a little less for September? Where’s that simple life I yearn
for? When I was in the middle of my move and almost ready to lose it, a friend
reminded me that moving was stressful for everyone. For some reason that
statement reassured me. I was starting to feel very disoriented. I had help with
the move, but I had no help with the sorting. All those years of baggage. Each
time I started to work I would get physically sick. I would shut down. All I would
want to do was sleep. Finally I just looked myself in the face and said alright, its
stressful, so what! Last week I watched a replay of Dr. Phil. The topic was
stressed out moms. Well, I got something out of that show, as usual, there’s
always something. Dr. Phil said men and women handle stress differently. Men
do a fight or flight thing, women do a tend or friend. Now that I know that I can
say, how true. Of course I was surrounded by men during the move and when
the stress got high ... everyone would split (flight). I hadn’t enough energy to do
the tending thing, I chose friend which unfortunately looked a lot like crying on a
shoulder. I’ve been in worse situations than this though. And as I was told,
moving is stressful for everyone. And actually, I had no choice. Tending was the
only option. And, I like the word “tend.” A harmless word, no bad vibes to it.
Tending to business seemed much more productive than taking care of
business. I’m tired of taking care of things. And now, I’m tending to be less
stressed. Well, the move wouldn't last forever, thank goodness.

Of course the move wasn’t the only thing going on. I can never do anything one
at a time, I always work in multiples, multi task, multi ... whatever. I had to say
goodbye to my doggie and two much to be missed pussy cats. And I also said
goodbye to The Jock, son number two who left for San Diego State. And then
more goodbyes and then hellos and even more goodbyes ... So much emotion. I
tend to be on the emotional side lately. But at least I’m tending ... and, though it
may only be in my overly optimistic mind, the stress is lessening.