12/08/02 - Did I say I was back? Well, I am … But, not back to normal. Back, but different. I’ve found a new pastime, splitting hairs. And, it has all to do with how I pass time, it seems. If you think being homeless is a dilemma, you ought to try having two homes. There is where the "split" issue comes into play. However, it’s not all that abnormal, just different. It appears that I’m rolling with the punches in yet another way. I’m getting so versatile, I’m quite taken back with myself. I think I’ve discovered something uniquely fulfilling with this dilemma. I’m satisfying my excitement level. What a bonus!.
A while back I felt I had to ask if it would be OK to keep a toothbrush there, there as opposed to here. The answer came in the form of a brand new Colgate battery operated toothbrush, a gift. I liked that answer. Well, that prompted me to convenience myself in other small ways, an extra hairbrush, a duplicate collection of makeup, a robe … all the essentials. That’s all I really needed to make there here, or vice versa. Today I was asked if I wanted some drawer space. I like how this is going, the way we acknowledge each others space. However, I’m not ready for a drawer.
Here and there is MY reality. Two things at a time isn’t too bad really, well three if you include my job. Women, in general, can juggle much more than that. For some reason I want to get this routine down before I take on the next level. I don’t think it has anything to do with there. I feel quite comfortable there. It has to do with here, The Kid, The Child. Not only is it impossible to integrate them into the there, I don’t even want to do that. They are fine where they are, here. I am fine where I am, here and there.
So, where’s the dilemma? Well, probably in another thing women, in general, are good at … guilt. Perhaps I will hope that being uniquely fulfilled can be shared? |
