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Btw, Have u met my Aunt Alice??? 

Monday, April 09, 2001  

Ya know, it's times like this that I wish this goddamned thing wasn't public. I have some things I need to get off my chest but not in a public forum. I haven't had enough time to sort through the issues with my life. I need some kind of outlet, or at least some boxing gloves and a seriously stupid volunteer. My mood is a rollercoaster, up and down...I think I need a pill or somethin' , shit...this is negative...life is too short for this bullshit.
Have you looked at the sky today? It's so blue and beautiful it will make you cry.

 

 

"It's a far, far better thing I do than I have ever done before. A far better resting place that I go to, than I have ever known."

Sunday, April 08, 2001

With the amount of time that has gone by, I guess I don't have to tell you something major has happened in my life. My father died on Tuesday, March 27th. The ALS had robbed him of his muscles so deeply, that on heavy morphine doses and I can only pray he knew I was there. Our cousin Nathan, who is the executor of Dads' estate, called the Sunday before he died to tell me to get down there (to Alabama.) We left on Monday right after I got off the air. We fought with the family on how we were going to get to Alabama, flight was a consideration but they thought it was too expensive, we finally drove, even though the car really didn't need to make the trip, and I wasn't exactly emotionally fit for the drive....so Ricki did it. Thank you baby. I saw Dad for only an hour that night, then we went to a hotel, Nathan called at 6:12am the next morning (I remember looking at my watch, don't think I will ever forget it.) to tell me Dad had died, sitting in his easy chair just two minutes before. I asked about my sister and brother, who had flown in earlier that day from Dallas. They had stayed at the apartment with Nathan and Dad, I had kids to consider....I couldn't. Nathan said he hadn't woken them up yet, I hoped he wouldn't until I arrived. I dressed quickly and hurried, why I have no idea, nothing would change what had just happened, but I hurried all the same to be at Dad, Matt and Jess's side. Matt was sitting across the room in a chair staring at Dad, Jess was sitting next to Dad if I remember right stoking his hand. I knelt in front of Dad and started crying, just 7 hours earlier I had done the same thing while he was alive....now it didn't matter. The rest of the story is long, and painful, and beautiful. My wives' loving caring and strength....my bond with my brother and sister strengthened....the loss of Dad.
Life is different now, too short, unfair, and ultimately too beautiful to waste. I'm still dealing with and sorting out how I feel about things...I know I'm different now. I don't act it very much, but it's inside....soon I think I'll explode. I want to sail the seas, explore ancient civilizations, walk the streets of Paris, run with the bulls in Spain. I want to KNOW I'm alive and not waste it. I want to feel loved and to love...to strengthen the relationship with Ricki....to hold friends close, and enemies not at all. I want to understand things and experience things....and to scream and cry in the floor with the lights off. Life resumed way too quickly...too much, too soon, too normal.
Too depressive....life is too short to be depressed.
In a positive...a new job offer has come my way, mornings at a classic rock station, the bad...it's over an hour away...one way. I may be able to work freelance for Fox Sports South in Atlanta...voice and/or camera work. Pretty cool...
I had to move this to it's new home at 8m....thanks to Ricki, Colleen, and Brian for your help. And to 8m for having the cool page transfer thingy. Beat the hell out of cut and pasting for hours.
Stay with me now,
I have so many wonderful things to show you.

 

Thursday, March 22, 2001

I was working out today listening to the Dave Matthews Band, Crash. The song came on and I really listened to the words.....while I did lat pull downs, heavy breathing and these words seem to go together.....

You've got your ball
you've got your chain
tied to me tight tie me up again
who's got their claws
in you my friend
Into your heart I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock
and sweet you roll
Lost for you I'm so lost for you

You come crash into me
And I come into you
I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream

Touch your lips just so I know
In your eyes, love, it glows so
I'm bare boned and crazy for you
When you come crash
into me, baby
And I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream

If I've gone overboard
Then I'm begging you
to forgive me
in my haste
When I'm holding you so girl
close to me

Oh and you come crash
into me, baby
And I come into you
Hike up your skirt a little more
and show the world to me
Hike up your skirt a little more
and show your world to me
In a boys dream.. In a boys dream

Oh I watch you there
through the window
And I stare at you
You wear nothing but you
wear it so well
tied up and twisted
the way i'd like to be
For you, for me, come crash
into me

Totally wicked, crazy cool lyrics.....sexy without audacity....hot, steamy dripping with suggestion.....
really made the workout.....erotic.

Monday, March 19, 2001

Hey, wazzzzzzzzzzup?!?!?!!!! Whatta day! Awesome, beautiful, gorgeous! It is a great day to be alive!!! I am, for the first time ever in the blogs history, writing this from work. Just hadda get my thoughts down...I guess I took that "new week, new beginning" stuff from last night seriously!!! I got up this morning with a vengeance, rested, ready....Put on a patch last night, smoking almost none today. Talked with one of our sales guys at the station over breakfast this morning about selling Ricklets' web site....cool! Made a sales call for her, pretty damn sure they are gonna do it! Score! (thanks Nick.) Feeling powerful, ready to take on the world....I've got the best lady (Goddess) in the world at my side, the sun is out, and nothin' could be finer! Well, I gots plenty to do so I'm off, just HAD TO get this outta me and onto this blog!!!! Love ya, love each other, hell, strip naked and dance around a fire in the moonlight then go skinny dipping together!!!! Hehehehehe~! Later!

Sunday, March 18, 2001

Another beautiful day....and I spent this one inside too. Hey, I got the closet cleaned out, managed to organize my drawers, threw out so clothes that didn't fit or were hopelessly out of style...much like myself. Not much has happened, except I find myself falling back into bad old habits I thought I had conquered. I'm smoking more than I was before, I'm making excuses not to work out, I'm eating a lot of shit, and not taking my protein....new week, new beginnings. Start over. Just a slip, etc.
Is it necessary to update every frickin' day? What if you don't have nothin' to say?
* A-hem * I DON'T HAVE ANY FRICKIN' THING EXCITING HAPPENING IN MY LIFE THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
There I feel better, I'm gonna take off the lenses, put the body under water, do other grungy things and sleep!, G'nite!

 

  Go look at the new Link....send in a cool name G'damn it!!!

 

Saturday, March 17, 2001

I've spent the better part of today working on a new section to my site. The morning started off beautifully, cuddling with Ricki in bed. Then helping Sean on his resume. Finally got the belt to the alternator on the Daytona, still haven't put it on....do that tomorrow. It's late now, and I finished the first chapter in my journal. I need a decent title though, The Journey, is kinda lame. If you have any ideas, send 'em in.
I hope to have the full story online soon, it will take a while. Bear with me.

Go check out this awesome site Ricki just built!!!  >>>>>

I am through for the day now. Need a brain break and to workout...

 

 

Ricklet made this for me....

she's extremely talented!!!

Thank u baby!

Thursday, March 15, 2001


Welllllllllllllllllllllllllll, I've been a busy beaver....I left last Friday for Birmingham on a jet, thank you Ricki for putting everything together for me! I spent four incredible days with my father. I was physically, emotionally, and mentally exhausting. I kept a journal and will post excerpts from it soon. I have to get my thoughts together first. I returned to Tennessee Tuesday afternoon....so glad to be home, yet I wanted to stay by my Dad's side. Life gets in the way of the "right" things sometimes. So I'm back....what to write about?
Hey did I tell ya that.....CELLTECH RULES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????
Celltech is a new supplement that I'm using, it's a mega dose of creatine, a cell volumizer. (look it up!) and by the way...My Dad has ALS, Lou Gerhigs Disease and they have found that Creatine can be twice as effective in treating the disease as the leading prescription medicine....I just found that!!!! Awesome!!!!! I had something that could help Dad with me the whole time I was there....SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I gotta make a phone call. Wait, I'll call Dr. Bynum tomorrow...Dad's doc....yeah.
Btw, my effects have been increased energy, larger muscle mass, greater strength, muscle tone...etc....everything my Dad's decreasing muscle tone needs!!!! Sorry, I'm like a kid with a new toy, this is great!

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This is Dale Price, and his goddaughter...he and I got mighty drunk on the beaches of Panama City after Graduation. Just found out where he was, he's one o' them hotshot lawyers and makes big money....cewl...just in case I get caught! 

 

 I call my dad Superman...cause they try to kill him, but they just can't do it.

Wednesday, March 07, 2001

Guess that last posting was a bummer...just needed to get that off my chest. Self-reflection can be a bitch. Life is a choice, how we react, how we act...well act or react....there is a difference. My Dad doesn't have a choice anymore. Death in 3 to 6 months. Shit.
I'm flying down to Alabama Friday...I have a lot to consider, what do I say to him? what questions do I want answered before he can't answer them anymore? Ricki and I have had our problems - what advice would he give? He and Mom didn't make it as long as we have...would it be good advice?
When I was 7 we lived in Ohatchee, Alabama. I was playing with a friend in the rundown abandoned part of downtown. We came across a row of old school lockers in front of a crumbling old gas station ...We both got in them and closed the doors. Then we opened them from the inside. Since there was more than one in the row, we tried another set....I got out, my friend couldn't...I went to try and open the locker from the outside but it wouldn't budge... she started kicking and banging and screaming! I froze...for the first time in my young life I truly knew fear. I didn't realize that she could breathe in there, neither did she. She screamed louder...I bolted for help. I found an old guy walking downtown, I grabbed his hand and drug him to where she was screaming the whole while "My friend needs help!!!" The old man walked up to the locker and reached up....jiggled the handle of the shaking locker (my friend was still kicking and screaming inside) ...and "pop" it opened. The little girl bolted from the locker, face red, tears pouring - she ran .... we never played together again...I guess that was my first real taste of fear and reality...I don't like this one. Maybe Dad will get well and everything else will straighten up and life will be perfect...maybe ...

Have you ever been so wrapped up in another person that you've lost yourself? Your life, your very existence is consumed with them? So much that every thought, every dream, every waking hour is built around them? It can be beautiful....or can lead to compulsion, obsession and desperation....even madness. You become dominative and controlling....destructive.
I find myself at a juxtaposition....a Rubicon of emotional entanglement. The proverbial, damned if u do, damned if u don't. It's a self-imposed exile....
Strange how we hold so tightly to things that we lose them.

 

By the way, Kelly ... I am NOT Pussy Whipped ... 

I am simply a cat lover.

Tuesday, March 06, 2001

Well hell, I received some pretty startling news tonite. My dad may have Lou Gerhig's Disease...I don't know what to think about it...he's been scheduled to die for almost 26 years now. Colitis, cancer, liver transplant...now this...I have a hard time believing it. I'm very tired right now, ice cold day, ice cold fist around my heart...a LOT is wrong right now and I don't know what to do about ANY of it...at least I got a second job today. Selling VCR's ... long story. More later...don't know what to write and I feel guilty taking time away from someone special who cut their conversation short for me....later.

 

 

Thursday, March 22, 2001

I was working out today listening to the Dave Matthews Band, Crash. The song came on and I really listened to the words.....while I did lat pull downs, heavy breathing and these words seem to go together.....

You've got your ball
you've got your chain
tied to me tight tie me up again
who's got their claws
in you my friend
Into your heart I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock
and sweet you roll
Lost for you I'm so lost for you

You come crash into me
And I come into you
I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream

Touch your lips just so I know
In your eyes, love, it glows so
I'm bare boned and crazy for you
When you come crash
into me, baby
And I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream

If I've gone overboard
Then I'm begging you
to forgive me
in my haste
When I'm holding you so girl
close to me

Oh and you come crash
into me, baby
And I come into you
Hike up your skirt a little more
and show the world to me
Hike up your skirt a little more
and show your world to me
In a boys dream.. In a boys dream

Oh I watch you there
through the window
And I stare at you
You wear nothing but you
wear it so well
tied up and twisted
the way i'd like to be
For you, for me, come crash
into me

Totally wicked, crazy cool lyrics.....sexy without audacity....hot, steamy dripping with suggestion.....
really made the workout.....erotic.

Monday, March 19, 2001

Hey, wazzzzzzzzzzup?!?!?!!!! Whatta day! Awesome, beautiful, gorgeous! It is a great day to be alive!!! I am, for the first time ever in the blogs history, writing this from work. Just hadda get my thoughts down...I guess I took that "new week, new beginning" stuff from last night seriously!!! I got up this morning with a vengeance, rested, ready....Put on a patch last night, smoking almost none today. Talked with one of our sales guys at the station over breakfast this morning about selling Ricklets' web site....cool! Made a sales call for her, pretty damn sure they are gonna do it! Score! (thanks Nick.) Feeling powerful, ready to take on the world....I've got the best lady (Goddess) in the world at my side, the sun is out, and nothin' could be finer! Well, I gots plenty to do so I'm off, just HAD TO get this outta me and onto this blog!!!! Love ya, love each other, hell, strip naked and dance around a fire in the moonlight then go skinny dipping together!!!! Hehehehehe~! Later!

Sunday, March 18, 2001

Another beautiful day....and I spent this one inside too. Hey, I got the closet cleaned out, managed to organize my drawers, threw out so clothes that didn't fit or were hopelessly out of style...much like myself. Not much has happened, except I find myself falling back into bad old habits I thought I had conquered. I'm smoking more than I was before, I'm making excuses not to work out, I'm eating a lot of shit, and not taking my protein....new week, new beginnings. Start over. Just a slip, etc.
Is it necessary to update every frickin' day? What if you don't have nothin' to say?
* A-hem * I DON'T HAVE ANY FRICKIN' THING EXCITING HAPPENING IN MY LIFE THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
There I feel better, I'm gonna take off the lenses, put the body under water, do other grungy things and sleep!, G'nite!

 

  Go look at the new Link....send in a cool name G'damn it!!!

 

Saturday, March 17, 2001

I've spent the better part of today working on a new section to my site. The morning started off beautifully, cuddling with Ricki in bed. Then helping Sean on his resume. Finally got the belt to the alternator on the Daytona, still haven't put it on....do that tomorrow. It's late now, and I finished the first chapter in my journal. I need a decent title though, The Journey, is kinda lame. If you have any ideas, send 'em in.
I hope to have the full story online soon, it will take a while. Bear with me.

Go check out this awesome site Ricki just built!!!  >>>>>

I am through for the day now. Need a brain break and to workout...

 

 

Ricklet made this for me....

she's extremely talented!!!

Thank u baby!

Thursday, March 15, 2001


Welllllllllllllllllllllllllll, I've been a busy beaver....I left last Friday for Birmingham on a jet, thank you Ricki for putting everything together for me! I spent four incredible days with my father. I was physically, emotionally, and mentally exhausting. I kept a journal and will post excerpts from it soon. I have to get my thoughts together first. I returned to Tennessee Tuesday afternoon....so glad to be home, yet I wanted to stay by my Dad's side. Life gets in the way of the "right" things sometimes. So I'm back....what to write about?
Hey did I tell ya that.....CELLTECH RULES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????
Celltech is a new supplement that I'm using, it's a mega dose of creatine, a cell volumizer. (look it up!) and by the way...My Dad has ALS, Lou Gerhigs Disease and they have found that Creatine can be twice as effective in treating the disease as the leading prescription medicine....I just found that!!!! Awesome!!!!! I had something that could help Dad with me the whole time I was there....SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I gotta make a phone call. Wait, I'll call Dr. Bynum tomorrow...Dad's doc....yeah.
Btw, my effects have been increased energy, larger muscle mass, greater strength, muscle tone...etc....everything my Dad's decreasing muscle tone needs!!!! Sorry, I'm like a kid with a new toy, this is great!

Dale and his Goddaughter.jpg (33671 bytes)

 

 

This is Dale Price, and his goddaughter...he and I got mighty drunk on the beaches of Panama City after Graduation. Just found out where he was, he's one o' them hotshot lawyers and makes big money....cewl...just in case I get caught! 

 

 I call my dad Superman...cause they try to kill him, but they just can't do it.

Wednesday, March 07, 2001

Guess that last posting was a bummer...just needed to get that off my chest. Self-reflection can be a bitch. Life is a choice, how we react, how we act...well act or react....there is a difference. My Dad doesn't have a choice anymore. Death in 3 to 6 months. Shit.
I'm flying down to Alabama Friday...I have a lot to consider, what do I say to him? what questions do I want answered before he can't answer them anymore? Ricki and I have had our problems - what advice would he give? He and Mom didn't make it as long as we have...would it be good advice?
When I was 7 we lived in Ohatchee, Alabama. I was playing with a friend in the rundown abandoned part of downtown. We came across a row of old school lockers in front of a crumbling old gas station ...We both got in them and closed the doors. Then we opened them from the inside. Since there was more than one in the row, we tried another set....I got out, my friend couldn't...I went to try and open the locker from the outside but it wouldn't budge... she started kicking and banging and screaming! I froze...for the first time in my young life I truly knew fear. I didn't realize that she could breathe in there, neither did she. She screamed louder...I bolted for help. I found an old guy walking downtown, I grabbed his hand and drug him to where she was screaming the whole while "My friend needs help!!!" The old man walked up to the locker and reached up....jiggled the handle of the shaking locker (my friend was still kicking and screaming inside) ...and "pop" it opened. The little girl bolted from the locker, face red, tears pouring - she ran .... we never played together again...I guess that was my first real taste of fear and reality...I don't like this one. Maybe Dad will get well and everything else will straighten up and life will be perfect...maybe ...

Have you ever been so wrapped up in another person that you've lost yourself? Your life, your very existence is consumed with them? So much that every thought, every dream, every waking hour is built around them? It can be beautiful....or can lead to compulsion, obsession and desperation....even madness. You become dominative and controlling....destructive.
I find myself at a juxtaposition....a Rubicon of emotional entanglement. The proverbial, damned if u do, damned if u don't. It's a self-imposed exile....
Strange how we hold so tightly to things that we lose them.

 

By the way, Kelly ... I am NOT Pussy Whipped ... 

I am simply a cat lover.

Tuesday, March 06, 2001

Well hell, I received some pretty startling news tonite. My dad may have Lou Gerhig's Disease...I don't know what to think about it...he's been scheduled to die for almost 26 years now. Colitis, cancer, liver transplant...now this...I have a hard time believing it. I'm very tired right now, ice cold day, ice cold fist around my heart...a LOT is wrong right now and I don't know what to do about ANY of it...at least I got a second job today. Selling VCR's ... long story. More later...don't know what to write and I feel guilty taking time away from someone special who cut their conversation short for me....later.

 

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Monday, March 05, 2001

BETTY'S PANTIES
It was a few days ago, when the Big Dawg, (that's Ron, he's one of the few good ones out there, more on him later.) and I were coming back from an appearance. I'm a morning dj, Ron is the mascot (big dog suit, very funny!) Our office manager and our traffic director (both in their 50's) were talking in the lobby. Betty is the office manager, her husband was there. Very nice people. Linda, the traffic manager, was wearing a pair of leopard skin tennis shoes...no I don't know where she got 'em and yes I thought they were kinda tacky. Betty commented that she had underwear just like Lindas' shoes....then she informed us all that she had them on...and proceeded to pull the panties up above her jeans. Please realize that this woman looks like a grandmother,k? And yeah, she did have on leopard skin granny panties....too damn funny, we all started rollin' in laughter, then she said she had the matching set, and pulled her shirt up to show her bra...I didn't see that, and I can't say that bothers me. I guess the irony of people that could be grandparents still trying to be sexy is strange to me at my age, course I'll probably be the first in the nursing home to show off my new leather thong.


Sunday, March 04, 2001

Well, I think I have pulled a muscle in my brain...but I feel ok with the new site. It's been a couple of days...lemme see... few new things to tell ya about. Saturday I had my right ear pierced. Got my left pierced when I was 19, so waiting 13 years ain't so bad. They didn't have any hoops...so I got the smallest diamond they had. I don't have a match...so I guess I'll have to wait 6 weeks until my ears will match. One hoop and a diamond is kinda sexy I guess?
Ricklet and I played with our new digital camera...took some mondo sexy shots of her...if you haven't guessed, she the "goddess" in mygoddess.bizland.com! Without a doubt she is the best thing that has or will ever happen to me. Period.
We watched Blood and Donuts last night...pretty cool, I'd like to watch it again and get all the humor. Ricki watched the Perfect Storm...I fell asleep. Tonite we have the spectacular epic, ROAD TRIP, with Tom Green...I hate Tom Green. Mostly because he gets to do what I wish I could...get paid for being stupid!

Friday, March 02, 2001

Cool...problem address and corrected, u may now go back to enjoying your regularly scheduled blogger, blahblahblah, fuckin' blah...jesus h christ , Ricki's right, I talk too much.... Ricki's always right.

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Did the time change or not....sorry just tryin to fix somethin' so mindyerown, k?

I found out an old lady in my office wears leopard skin granny panties today...it was an involuntary discovery...her husband, a great guy thought it was tooooooo funny...tell you about that tomorrow.

I went to a little greasy spoon called TIptons today. It's in downtown. Total throwback to the 1950's, shotgun style diner with a counter and barstools, u watch them cook your food, and it's greasy and damn good. The walls are lined with old cigarette ads and ancient pictures, all yellowed from age...a newspaper article from 1984 recants the history of the joint. The coffee is hot and tasty, the conversation leans towards the current news of the day, and most of the folks inside are over 50 and quite friendly. I hop on a seat and put in my order... 6 egg whites...gotta have my protein...growin' muscle ya know? An older gentleman walks in and orders a burger, Tipton's, I've learned, is famous for their burgers...he's a typical small town 50+ year old...5'8" , small rolling ponch squeezes against a check patterned button down shirt, blue jeans, and the ever present baseball cap...I think it said CAT I swear to God. He flirts with the lady cooking in a slow southern drawl, adept in the use of the word "Yuins"...I'll get into that word on another post...anywho...as he waits another man, easily in his 80's...still standing tall (at I'd say 5' 7") wearing a ball cap, jacket, and sansabelt slacks, walks up with his wife, white haired, white leather purse firmly on her arm, both wear glasses. The lady rings up their order and tells him the amount with a,
"that'll be 8.50 darlin'"
He grins a huge smile and quickly responds... " Better watch it with that "darlin" stuff, this is my live-in."
"Live-in?" the lady asks.
"Yup," he grins wider" has been for 60 years....they didn't have live-ins back then."
the place erupts in laughter....
u can't buy that kind of entertainment.

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Thursday, March 01, 2001

I'm lying in my bed at 11 pm, having no earthly idea why I'm still awake. I have to be up by 4:30am. I guess it's the hottie in bed with me. She keeps me up at night. At least tomorrow is Friday.