11/28/2003
mood:
Music: Trapt - still frame
I got this stuff off the net...i thought it was good stuff to share with people...
10 Reasons Punks are harassed
People, please dont get all pissy
with me about this, i am freely saying what i think, because i have the
right to. Yes, i consider myself a punk, in the dictionary, quoted from the
random house Webster’s college dictionary copyright 1991, it states that "a
style or movement characterized by the adoption of aggressively
unconventional and often bizzare or shocking clothing, hairstyles, etc., and
the defiance of social norms, usually associated with punk rock musicians
and fans." punk is a state of mind. its how you think. its only ASSOCIATED
with punk rock, because the music seems to fit with the lifestyle. truly
anyone can be a punk. believe it or not, bill gates is a punk, because he
thought outside the box which is what being punk means. Microsoft was some
thing that wasn’t considered normal. he believed in it. that was being punk
right there. i listen to what most "punks" would call poser punk. i am a
huge fan of good charlotte. they are punks no matter how much people say
that they are pop and they aren’t in it for the music. they went through a
horrible time when they were teenagers, and they realize that there are more
than a couple cases of outcasts (as they were) that are going through a hard
time and they write their songs about that. they try to reach those kids and
tell them that the reason they aren’t popular is because they are better
than that. i really dont see what the big deal about labels is any ways.
people are just people and there are people that think alike and have the
same ideas. yea they fit into a category but that doesn’t mean that you have
to harass people about being different than you. god created us different
for a reason. he wanted us to all have a life of our own. to live the way
that we wanted and not to ridicule someone that is different from you
because somewhere along the road of life, someone else is going to ridicule
you for being different. basically its a story of what goes around comes
around.
And what is with this because you are punk you’ll never amount to anything?
as i said b4 bill gates was a punk and he made a hell of a name for himself.
the only reason punks are harassed is because most people dont understand.
they would rather judge and walk away than to talk to them and find out
things. just because someone different and not understandable doesn’t mean
that they are a horrible person. they may have a past where they turned to
being a "punk" and it helped them through a tough time. it helped me to
overcome shyness. i used to be one to blush at a pindrop. i couldn’t talk to
no one. now after living a lifestyle that is "punk" i am able to overcome my
fears of social life and talk to people. mostly because of the eccentric
things i wear, people come up to me and either compliment me for having the
guts to do it, or judge me and be a prick about it.
reasons not to commit suicide
please read this..
and think about it..
Thinking about suicide? Think about this!
You've decided to do it. Life is impossible. Suicide is your way out.
Fine--but before you kill yourself consider these facts:
Suicide is not usually successful.
You think you know a way to guarantee
Ask the 25-year-old who tried to electrocute himself. He lived. But both his
arms are gone.
What about jumping?
Ask John. He used to be intelligent, with an engaging sense of humor. That
was before he leapt from a building. Now, he's brain-damaged and will always
need care. He staggers and has seizures. He lives in a fog. But, worst of
all, he KNOWS he used to be normal.
What about pills?
Ask the 12-year-old with extensive liver damage from an overdose. Have you
ever seen anyone die of liver damage? You turn yellow. It's a hard way to
go.
What about a gun?
Ask the 24-year-old who shot himself in the head. Now he drags one leg, has
a useless arm and has no vision or hearing on one side. He lived through his
"foolproof" suicide.
You might too.
But...
Who will clean your blood off the carpet or scrape your brains from the
ceiling? Commercial cleaning companies may refuse that job--but SOMEONE has
to do it. Who will have to cut you down from where you hung yourself or
identify your bloated body after you've drowned?
Your father?
Your mother?
Your wife?
Your son?
The carefully worded "loving" suicide note is of no help. Those who loved
you will NEVER completely recover. They'll feel regret and an unending pain.
Suicide is contagious. Look around your family. Look closely at the 4 year
old playing with his cars on the rug. Kill yourself tonight, and he may do
it ten years from now.
You DO have other choices. There are people who can help you through this
crisis. Call a hotline. Call a friend. Call your minister or priest. Call a
doctor or hospital. Call the police.
They will tell you that there's hope. Maybe you'll find it in the mail
tomorrow. Or in a phone call this weekend. But what you're seeking could be
just a minute, a month, or a day away.
You say you don't want to be stopped? Still want to do it?
Well, then, I may see you in the psychiatric ward later.
And we'll work with whatever you have left.
Remember:
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
If your reading this, steal it, please..
11/12/2003
mood:
Music: da band: my life
Today kinda sucked. even though its my birthday it sure as hell didnt feel like it. man everyone was actin all stank, but u know what i dont even care anymore. same ol' shit, just a different day. anyways last week, my step-sis nicole got arrested for fightin with a teacher, so she's been home for two weeks. and my brother sounded like he was gonna kill this one dude, cause the dude kept messin with him and stuff. and honestly i dont blame him. i kinda feel bad for him when people walk all over him.
10/25/2003
mood: angry
music: creed: one last breath
10/07/2003
mood: sleepy
music: counting crows: colorblind
10/06/2003
Mood: mellow
music: the white stripes: seven nation army
10/05/2003
Mood:
music: three days grace - i hate everything about you
i cant feel it
i wont feel it
I've cut off all of me
no face, no name, no entity
so set my ass on fire
cause i cant feel it
i wont feel it
take a razor to my wrist
I've done it before
to try and end this
but i cant feel it
i wont feel it
you can try to drop pills in my cup
but it wont work
cause i drank 20 of em up
i cant feel it
i wont feel it
no matter how hard you try to tear me down with your lies
just remember
i cant feel it
i wont feel it
09/30/2003
mood: mellow
music: smile empty soul - I want my life
09/28/2003
mood: pissed
music: Papa Roach - last resort
09/27/2003
mood: Bleh
music: Dropline - way away
09/08/2003
mood: ?
music: creed - inside us all
09/04/2003
mood: bored
music: simple plan - perfect