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Our friendship didn’t last past the wedding. She couldn’t understand why I would want to marry a guy that hurt me like he did. She tried to talk me out of it but I gave her some crap and bull story about my religion forcing me to forgive him. I must admit that at the time I wasn’t to broken up about the end of our friendship. I was to busy basking in the fact that all my hard work paid off. I finally had his love.

I see the tears
I caused you to cry
Now I know it was a mistake
When I lied

After graduation we lost touch. She went away to college in Florida. I stayed in Roswell with my husband and child. Our friendship was over and all I could think was so what. I had what I had always wanted, his love and a child.

Not a day goes by
I don't wish to see your eyes
I wish I could bring you back my way

I became the perfect housewife. Always there to greet him at the door when he came home from work. Always there to have his dinner prepared for when he stepped out of the shower. I cleaned for him, raised his child. Washed his dirty clothes, loved him as no other woman could.

Everyday for your love I pray
For your love baby
For your love
I would do anything baby

Ten years after graduation I heard that she was returning to Roswell. She was a big time model looking good as hell. Every day I saw her picture flashed across one magazine or another. I even found out that he had a few of the magazines hidden away on his side of the closet. I didn’t confront him about it though because he was mine. No way in the world would he ditch me for her. I was his wife. Right?

For your love
I would go anywhere honey
And just for your love, I would do anything
It's been awhile
Since I felt your embrace
Things are so sad in my dreams
All I see is your face

I was living in the land of delusion. Oblivious to the fact that not only did she worm her way back into Roswell but she also wormed her way back into my husband’s heart. When I ran into her at the grocery store I could tell that she had changed. I just didn’t realize how much. However, seeing her still did not bring me out of the land of denial. No way in hell would my husband leave me.

I dream about the day you said goodbye
For you your love I'll climb any mountain
It doesn't matter how high baby
For your love
I would do anything baby
For your love
I would go anywhere honey

I visited another close friend that day and he said some things that made me fearful. His words began to crack the walls of delusion that surrounded me. As I left his house over and over the words ‘My husband loves me’ ran through my mind. I would do anything for him and he knows that. He would never willingly give up what we shared together. I am the mother of his child. I love him. He loves me. She has no stock in his life. She can never love him the way that I can.

And just for you love, I would do anything
Anywhere
Anything
Just name the song baby I'll sing
There is nothing I wouldn't do for you

I left work early the next day. I couldn’t take the office gossip that was going around about her purpose in Roswell. I didn’t want to hear her name uttered anymore in my presence. When I reached my home and walked in the front door, I immediately knew that my life was about to get worse. I walked into our bedroom and the walls of delusion exploded with one mighty boom.

I dream about the day you said goodbye
For you your love I'll climb any mountain
It doesn't matter how high baby
For your love
I would do anything baby
For your love