blessing

Trial A Blessing

Through coming to terms with the abuse that I had suffered as a child, and the effect that it had on my life afterwards, I have come to realise a few things, and there are also many things that I still question, but I am slowly starting to accept, that, hey, I can't have all the answers to my questions. But I do know that when this life ends, and I come into an eternal life with Christ in Heaven that my answers will be answered and all my pain and tears will be wipped away ( Revelation 21:4 'He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more pain, death, sadness, or crying, because all the old ways are gone') I read that and wow, what an awesome promise from God. All that we have ever felt, all the pain that we have ever experienced will be wiped away.
Even though the majority of the pain that I have felt has gone, there is still a little bit there, and that that God doesn't heal now, I know that He will in eternity. That is a promise from Him that I really hold on to, and that keeps me going when the pain that I feel really hurts.
This trial that I have been through has been such a blessing to me..hard to understand?..yes of course, me saying that now, I find hard to believe at times, but when I truly look at it and see what I have learnt and all, I truly do see that this is a blessing to me.
For one, my relationship with my 'Heaven Father' is so much stronger. I could never relate to God as my father, as it was a father figure of mine that abused me. I could relate to the Jesus in Him, but not father. I can now call upon Him and cry 'Abba Father'. I have learnt to climb into his lap and allow Him to hold me in His loving arms.
I have also gained many strenghts through this. In the many times that I have wanted to give up and just quit on the seemingly endless battle, God was right beside me, He picked me up when I fell, and held me when I hurt. He truly gave me the courage and the strenght to carry on. I have gained my self respect and worth back and have gained some confidence in myself. I would never of imagined seeing myself in front of my church preaching a yr ago, or even 3 mths ago, but by the grace of God, I was able to.
This trial I have been through, truly has been a blessing to me, and I know that God is preparing a ministry for me.
I just want to encourage all of you to keep on keeping on. When the mountain that you are facing seems to steap, instead of looking to the mountain, perhaps look to the mountain mover. You can't do it, He can, you just need to let him.
As I write this, I think of a song that has been a real encouragment to me
God will make this trial a blessing
I just come into a valley
one like I've never seen before
I keep searching for a way out
seems like pad locks on the doors
O there must be another sunrise
another sunset that I'll see
God will make this trial a blessing
thats the love He has for me.

God will make this trial a blessing
though it brings me to my knees
thou my tears flow like a river
yet in Him there is sweet relief
theres no need to get discouraged
theres no need to talk defeat
God will make this trial a blessing
and the whole wide world will see
I was not the first one
to come into this place
you see every child of god
this test they must face
it is here that God will mold you
and make you what you ought to be
God will make this trial a blessing
Just be patient you will see
Now I'm standing on the mountain
looking back and I can see
when I was in that lowest valley
His strong hand was leading me
O its Good to see the sunshine
and to taste sweet victory
God has made this trial a blessing
O the Grace He has for me.
God can and will make your trial a blessing as well, as long as you allow Him access to your heart and allow Him to work in your life. I am so thankful for what He has done in my life and I pray that you all come to know the peace and love that He has for each of you.
love Aly
(written by Aly)