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Monday, April 29 2002 Ok,
I’m guilty as charged. I’m so sorry for not updating in so long, life has
just been soooo hectic it’s not even funny. I’ve had a hard time organizing
my schedule but somehow managed to get my workouts in. Oh, by the way, I
measured and weighed myself, you can see the results here. Basically I lost 1 lb. and my size stayed exactly the same. This is
actually good, I don’t care anymore, as long as ANY number is moving down I’m
happy :) I’ve
been doing an hour of biking every third day, at first I felt tired and my
legs felt “strange”. No pain, but weird, kind of wobbly and a bit soar but
now I feel great ! On
Friday at Walmart I went to the video section (I’m a video collector, a bad
one :)) and as I was looking through them I came across an exercise video,
kick boxing, looked at it for a bit and thought to myself “Nah, you don’t
need another exercise video. You’ve got more than enough, and it’s kick
boxing, you already have one of those. Put it down and get moving !” So I
did. I have been obsessively thinking about it all weekend !! Geez, I think I
even had a dream about it (not sure because I don’t remember clearly but I’m
pretty sure I did) so today I’m
heading back to good old Walmart and buying it. There, confessed my
sin. So now I’m going to have 7 different exercise videos and not enough days
in a week to do them :) I wish all problems in the world were as simple as
that. Hope
you all have a great week and I promise I won’t be gone for so long :)
Wednesday, April 24 3002 I’m
feeling great since I changed my routine around, there is one small situation
that’s bothering me though, my knees. When I was a child I always fell on
them, really bad, I guess I must have hurt them or something because now that
I’m older they snap, crackle, pop and ache some. I try to do exercises that
are not really tough on the knees but unfortunately everything has some
extent of impact on them. Biking is one of the better things I can do for
them, it keeps them lubricated and strong but I must confess I’m terrified of
goofing them up ! I’ve heard so many horror stories about bad knees. I’m just
not going to do anything that slightly hints a possible problem, for example,
yesterday I did the “Slide Reebok” tape, low impact, good workout but
definitely bad on my knees, specially the left one. By the time I started
doing my crunches I was afraid to bend my knees because of how weird they
felt. I guess I just won’t do that tape anymore, that sucks because I really
enjoyed doing it. I’ve
been dying to weigh and measure myself since I added more cardio to my
routine, I know there’s a significant loss, I can feel it but I’ve decided to
wait until Thursday (my official weekly weigh in) to see the results. My
abs are getting toned up with “The Firm” 5 day abs, really. I remember the
first week I did the video, I felt like I had broken my ribs or something,
now while I do them they still “burn” but not as bad and I can usually whirl
through the routine without to much of a hassle. I’m going to take some
pictures soon, I promise, just after I get my weigh in results. I don’t know
if I’ll show my bear stomach (I’m still not comfortable with it) but
hopefully there will be some visible results. Have
a great week :)
Sunday, April 21 2002 After
giving it some long hard thinking I decided to do more cardio and cut down a
bit on the weight lifting. Ever since I started doing “THE FIRM” tapes I
automatically increased the lifting (unintended), they do have a lot of
cardio work but it’s basically weights, added to that I was lifting every
other day, I think this has had something to do with the increase of my
weight and to the fact that I’m at a plateau. So on Wednesday I decided to do 1 hr. on my bike instead of30
mins. and an hour of weights. I don’t know how this ios going to work out,
I’ve only done it twice and I can’t see or feel any changes yet but hopefully
I’ll start seeing results soon. I
missed out exercising twice this week, on Thursday we bought a mattress, king
size, and we live on the 4th floor. When the delivery guys showed
up I knew there was going to be problems, one of the guys was REALLY big and
the other one REALLY small. I almost burst out laughing. There was NO WAY
they were going to be able to drag the mattress all the way to my place by
themselves, so I helped, pulled, pushed, etc... Needless to say by the end of
that adventure every single part of my body was in severe pain, specially my
arms and even though I REALLY wanted to exercise there was no way I was going
to be able to do it, I just figured that hauling a mattress up 4 flights of
stairs could be considered my workout for the day. Friday I was feeling a lot
better but it was my honey’s birthday and I just couldn’t squeeze a workout
in. I did really well with my food though and on Saturday I got right back on
my bike and pedaled away :) I don’t think I did too much damage. Have
a great Sunday :)
Tuesday, April 16 2002 I’ve
come to terms with myself after some serious thinking. As it turns out I love
myself and my life just as things are. No, this doesn’t mean that I’m not going
to continue with my weight loss, nope, not at all, what it means is that I’m
going to truly enjoy every minute of everyday. Where does this come from you
ask, well, as I was working out today I was overcome by a sense of joy
(borderline psycho, huh ?) but I mean JOY !!! The kind that makes you want to
run out the door screaming at the top of your lungs “I’M SO HAPPY!!”. As a
matter of fact, at a couple of moments I burst out laughing out loud (my cat
was highly amused by me today). This happened while I was doing “THE
FIRM”-Standing legs which in my own personal opinion is THE HARDEST EXERCISE
I’VE EVER DONE IN MY ENTIRE LIFE !!! After a while I caught myself laughing,
I kinda’ freaked out at first wondering if it was maybe time to call the
funny farm, I mean, come on, WHAT WAS I LAUGHING ABOUT ? What should’ve been
happening is me screaming in pain almost passed out on the floor. Hmm...I was
actually enjoying my workout, almost felt as if I was hanging out with a good
friend. So I
think I learned something today, I really like this new me, it’s not about
weight or measurements, it’s not about diets, no, it’s all about FEELING GOOD
WITH YOURSELF. And let me tell you all, I had a mighty fine time with myself
today :) rom
this day on I’m just going to sit back, close my eyes and relax and enjoy the
ride !
Sunday, April 14 2002 I
finally posted my measurements, I hadn’t done it because as you can tell here there has been NO change at all !!!! One of the reasons I’m calm is
because I just got my period and I’m VERY bloated (I feel it and look it !)
so I’m hoping against hope that when this ordeal is over I’ll have lost at
least one miserable cm. I’ve
been facing this plateau from hell for the past months and I’m kind of
getting used to it, I’m trying to be positive here because I could easily go
into a depression and lament myself about how everything sucks and how unfair
it is to do all the exercise I do and eat right to see NO changes at all, but
I won’t. Somewhere along the line I decided that this change was for life,
who cares if I take FOREVER to lose the weight, I’m the healthiest I’ve ever
been, my body looks toned, I wear a smaller size, I look really good and
healthy and I guess that in the end that’s what counts. I’m
not as focused on the weight as I was when I first started, how am I supposed
to know what my ideal weight is when I’ve never exercised this hard before in
my life ! I know what I weighed when I thought I looked ideal but all of that
was NOT muscle weight and plus I hardly ate back then so, was that ideal ? Every
step I take in this journey I learn something new, this is a whole new,
different me, I have nothing to do with who I was way back then, before to
lose weight I’d go into these starvation diets which did NOTHING but add more
pounds to my already overweight body, this is the first time I’ve committed
to exercise so intensely and I’m hooked. I don’t expect immediate results, I
enjoy every step of my journey, I look forward to exercising everyday, to the
rush I get after a long hard workout. Am I crazy? I don’t know. I’m learning
as I go.
Friday, April 12 2002 Boy,
when it rains, it pours ! Everything happened to me over the last few days.
My workload became almost unbearable and I had to really push myself to get
things done. On Wednesday I wasn’t able to exercise because that’s when it
all started but thankfully everything is back to normal today :) I’m
in a superb mood today and about ready to go do some shopping. I went through
my whole exercise routine yesterday without a problem. I don’t know if it was
because I had rested a whole day or because I’m getting stronger but I didn’t
feel so exhausted yesterday after doing my 45 min. cardio video. I remember
the last time I did it, phew, I thought my heart was going to pound out of my
chest, another thing I noticed is that even though it was a lot hotter
yesterday than the last time I did this same video I didn’t get as exhausted. I
guess this is what getting healthier must mean :) Today I’m really hyped
about riding my bike. It’s been a while since I was so enthusiastic about
riding it, as a matter of fact it was getting kind of boring but for the past
week I’m really enjoying myself while I pedal away, go figure. Well,
have to go spend some hard earned money :) Have an incredible weekend !
Tuesday, April 9 2002 I
looked at myself in the mirror yesterday and although there are significant
changes in my weight loss I still have sooooo far to go. I wondered if I’ll
ever make it to my goal. Why is it so hard to get past this exact point ?
It’s as if I’ve been stuck at this weight forever. Then I remembered
something someone said about a set point. I don’t remember exactly what was
said but it was something like we get to a weight that we’ve had for a long
time and our body has a really hard time losing that weight because it
defends itself (thinks we’re starving it or something) until we break that
moment. I
don’t know if this is right (sure would like to believe it) but in any case
I’m stuck. I’m not going to throw my hands in the air in dispair and say
“forget this”, I’m not going to go into an eating frenzy because “what’s the
point anyway?”, I’m not going to stop exercising. On the contrary, this has
become personal, I have to beat this. Not
all is bad though, I’m sitting here typing this in my size 13 shorts that are
a bit to big (did I just say that ?)
when a year ago I was a VERY TIGHT 16, looking at my now smooth and
muscular legs (instead of the fatty cellulite filled ones I had a year ago).
Not all is bad. I know for sure that if I keep on trying eventually this set
point has to budge and then I’ll be the happiest person on the face of this
earth !
Sunday, April 7 2002 I had
a perfect exercise week, yesterday I came close to not finishing my workout
(I was very tired) but I pushed myself and was able to finish. Afterwards I
felt so good with myself, a sense of accomplishment. I haven’t noticed any
major changes because of my fiber intake, the only thing that’s worth
mentioning is that my stomach is flatter, which is always good news ! I
finally feel like I regained control again, order is slowly but surely coming
back into my life and I’m willing to bet that this will directly influence my
weight. The
weather is beautiful makes you want to go out for a long walk but I can’t
today because it’s my turn to work, I’ll try to fit it in to tomorrow’s
workout. I
don’t have a lot to say today so I’ll let you all go. Have
a great weekend.
Thursday. April 4 2002 Last
night I was in exercise hell, literally. First of all I’d like to leave
perfectly clear that I’m not a wimp, at all. I’ve been exercising for over a
year now and I do pretty intense workouts, a lot of cardio, a lot of weights
and lately some really good stretching through yoga, or so I thought. I know
I’ve talked about “The Firm” tapes and it might even sound like a commercial
but I really have NEVER tried anything like them ! I remember when I first
did kick-boxing, yes I felt drained and yes I felt like I could pass out any
minute but as I kept doing the exercise it stopped being so tough. Last night
I did “The Firm” (standing legs). I’ve done it a few times already and
incredible as it may seem it gets harder and harder every time. Actually last
night I almost didn’t finish the whole tape because my legs were shaking so
bad I didn’t think I could move another inch and my heart was pounding like
mad. Of
course I did finish it because I want to have standing legs but to me it
seemed like the longest workout I have ever had. By this I don’t mean that I
was bored to death and asking the exercise Gods to end my routine pronto, no,
on the contrary, I was amused wondering how far I could go, challenging
myself every single minute and the very best part feeling EVERY single muscle
in my body. I love these tapes !
Wednesday, April 3 2002 Ok,
I’m officially freaked out. I gained weight again but still lost size. I went
to the doctor on Monday an weighed 168 lbs. there, 2 days later it turns out
I weigh 2 more lbs !!! I went right back to my doc today and told him about
my weight situation, how I’ve been basically “stuck” at this same weight and
either gain or lose aprox. 2 lbs. I told him I was getting desperate and I
had NO idea what was going on. After asking me a couple of questions he had
the answer, “your digestive system is very slow”. Humm....what does that mean
? Well basically depending on what I eat I take 2 or 3 times more to digest
that food completely and since it takes so long it crosses over with my other
meals slowing it down even more. Ok, so that sounds really bad, what can I do
? Fiber is the answer. A lot. So I had to go and buy some fiber that you
dissolve in water every morning, I start with one tbsp and work myself up to
3 a day. I started taking it this morning and I haven’t felt anything strange
yet, the doctor promised me that I’d see and feel results almost immediately,
now I’m wondering what his concept of immediate is. Well, I’m actually lying,
there is something. Usually about this time (2:00 pm) I start feeling hungry
(even though I eat a really good breakfest around 10:00 am) and since it’s
not my meal time yet I always snack on something (usually not healthy food)
and today I’m surprised, I don’t feel hungry at all, I can easily last until
4:00 (my regulat meal time) so that is something different :) Have
a great day all.
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