|
Wednesday, February 27 2002 Wow,
I’ve really been away from my journal :( I’m just checking in really quick
with everybody just so you all know I haven’t given up on weight loss, I’ve
been very busy getting ready for my little vacation (I’m leaving tomorrow)
and I’ll be back March 14 so even though you don’t know about me I’ll still
be putting my best effort into this weight loss journey. I
can’t wait to leave, it’s a long awaited time off ! I’ll
see you all when I get back :)
Sunday, February 24 2002 It
must all be in my head but now that I know I’m going on vacation I feel dog
tired ! If I could sleep all day today I’d be a happy person, unfortunately I
can’t, I work on Sunday’s so I’m here at the grind stone. I’ve put a lot of
effort into exercise these past days, mostly because I want my dad to be very
impressed when he sees me but also because I know that I’m going to miss out
on a lot of workouts while I’m away, I’m going to try but let’s be real here,
I’m going to be partying almost every night so I hardly think I’ll have
enough energy left to invest it in a 60 min. kick-boxing session ! I will
commit to healthy eating. My dad always stocks up on healthy food when I go
visit so that’s not a problem at all. I feel
icky today, not only am I really tired my stomach is also feeling kind of
iffy, oh, and to top all of this off I haven’t drank all the water I should
of (I bet that’s part of the problem) my hands feel dry and I know I need
more water. I’m chugging it down as I speak. So
here I am on a Sunday afternoon, feeling like shit and just wishing the clock
would advance to 9:00 pm already so I could leave. I’m going to go download
some MP3’s, that always gets me in a good mood :) Have a
great weekend.
Thursday, February 20 2002 In
exactly one week from today I’ll be on a plane to Chicago. I need a vacation.
I was
taking a long hard look at my life last night and I came to the conclusion
that I don’t know how I coped with my life the way it was before. For the
past year I’ve taken the road less traveled, the one where you have to put in
a lot of work and sacrifice to regain self respect and now it’s turned into a
habit, something that I can’t stop doing because I’d go bonkers without it.
What am I basically talking about ? Exercise. It’s become such a basic part
of me and my new life that I’d be lost without it. It’s therapeutic, takes my
stress away, keeps my head clear and my body pumping. It’s helped me with my
food obsession, see, I’ve never been good at dieting, ever. If I know I can’t
have cake or cookies or ice cream or whatever that’s when ALL I want to eat
is that and so I start obsessing over food. With exercise I don’t diet, I eat
anything I want (obviously in regular portions) and I know it’s going to be
burned and then some. I
don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow or the day after, I’m just happy
that today I made the choices that I did because today I feel good, I look
good and if you sum up a lot of good today’s you’ll end up with an incredible
tomorrow :) Have a
good day.
Tuesday, February 19 2002 There
is no feeling compared to the one you get after a strenuous workout. Last
night for the first time ever I was able to finish the whole Silk
Manning-Khai Bai (I think it’s called that) tape which is kick-boxing . Other
times I’ve done it I’ve gone through most of it (beginners/intermediate) but
close to the end my heart would be pounding so hard that I would just stop.
Yesterday I put the video in and I finished it up, no pauses, no heart attack
:) This must mean my condition is getting better and better. I have also
noticed that I’m still losing inches and again my weight is stuck at 75 kilos
or 166 lbs., you can see here. I don’t mind the weight because I don’t “feel” heavy, you know the
feeling when you’re going up the stairs and you seem to feel a lot of weight
on you, have a hard time breathing, etc... As long as I keep losing sizes I’m
happy with whatever weight I have. You
can actually see my abs outlined on my stomach (believe it or not), don’t
think I have a beautiful flat belly by now, nope, just a smaller tummy with
outlined abs :) I owe
you that progress picture, my camera has been acting up so it’s at the shop
now, as soon as I get it back the picture will be taken and posted. Today
for cardio I do 30 mins. on my stationary bike and about 1:30 hrs of weight
lifting. Doing weights every other day was the best decision I could have
made, I see so much progress now plus I’m not tired all the time and I don’t
hurt every day. It’s important to give your muscles a rest. I knew this but
for some reason (let’s say obsession) I figured that I’d lose faster if I
lifted everyday ! I was burning out and I’m happy I got some sense into my
thick skull, I love my routine as it is. Ok,
have to go, have a great day everyone :)
Monday, February 18 2002 I LOVE
Monday’s :) I was too lazy on Saturday to exercise and by last night I was on
such a guilt trip that I dragged my bike out at 11:30 pm and started pedaling
away, I finished with my whole routine by 1:30 am, all the while thinking I
was crazy. Then I gave it some thought, when I used to smoke and I ran out of
cigarettes I would just have to go to the store and buy more, no matter what
time it was, did I think I was crazy then ? Absolutely not. As soon as I
finished working out I felt relaxed and happy. I’ve been under a lot of
stress these past few days, I’m going to go to a concert on March 2nd
and my dad is paying for the whole trip and also buying the concert tickets
(what an awesome dad !), I’m supposed to go with my 2 beautiful cousins and
my dad wants to come along too so that’ll be 4 concert tickets. Somewhere
along the line the communication broke down and everybody started going nuts,
nobody knew for sure who was going to buy the tickets, I was on the phone ALL
weekend with them arguing (I’m in México and they’re in Chicago) and trying
to make sense out of all the confusion, then they wouldn’t confirm the plane
ticket and I had to also call the travel agency up and fight with them. By
Sunday night I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown and thinking all the
time “How freakin’ complicated can buying 4 concert tickets be ??????” That’s
my family folks, we have the ability to turn even the simplest things into a
3 ring circus and somehow manage at the very end to get everything under
control. Of course by then you feel like you just came out of the ring after
fighting Mike Tyson, some stubborn people ! So
that’s pretty much been my weekend. Apparently everything is set and ready,
all I have to do is get on the plane and PARTY ! Let’s just hope everyone leaves
things as they are and hopefully there will be no more family outbursts :) Have a
wonderful weekend.
Friday, February 15 2002 I’ve
been away for a while and I apologize. Life caught up with me, fortunately
it’s all good news. The most important thing is that I’m going to see my dad
on February 28 and I’m very nervous. Last time my dad saw me was in May 2001
(I started my weight loss program on March 26 2001). I had lost some weight
by May but nothing compared to how much I’ve lost now. Basically this is the
first time my dad is going to see the new and improved me. And since I want
to impress him even more I’ve decided to spike up my weight loss a bit, and
I’m going to do kick-boxing every other day. Hopefully I’ll lose a couple
more inches by the 28th ! I
weighed myself again today and I’m happy to report that I’m still the same
weight, what makes me happy, you ask, well just the fact that I have my
period now (water retention, etc...) so that means that I might have even
lost a pound or two but can’t notice it until my period is gone. I’m
the worst mood ever today, I’m like a mean dog, hopefully the day will go by
without any “issues or incidents” and that’ll be that. The
first day is the bad one because from that point on all is well. I’ll
be back tomorrow.
Tuesday, February 12 2002 I
measured myself and even though I haven’t lost any weight I’m still losing
inches :) I know this for a fact, I’m fitting into a lot of clothes that
didn’t fit before and I do seem to look “lighter”. My muscles must be getting
bigger and that explains staying at the same weight even though I’m losing
sizes. As long as I’m going down all is well. It’s
been freezing cold over here, and I’m sick again. Yesterday as I was working
out I started feeling really bad, I almost didn’t finish my workout, I
started shivering and felt as if all my energy had been drained. I hate being
sick. This
morning I woke up and my throat was completely swollen and dry, my body hurt
and I felt icky all over. I’m going to try and finish my workout today,
should be no problem because I am feeling better right now. Nothing
much happening over here. I have
to weigh myself tomorrow and I’ll see if there was a significant change in
the past week. I haven’t bought the film for the camera (an update picture is
overdue) but I’ll try to get to that sometime over the weekend and possibly
post on Monday.
Saturday, February 9 2002 Today
I have to go to a wedding. I was very nervous because I only have 1 formal
evening gown and thruth be told it didn’t fit anymore. Last time I tried it
on there were a good 6 inches missing for me to be able to pull the zipper
up. I’ve lost a lot of inches but I wasn’t absolutely sure I’d be able to
wear the dress. Last night I went and got it off the hanger and put it on,
here was the test of all tests. Would I have failed or succeded in this quest
to lose fat ? I
wasn’t sure I wanted to pull the zipper up, what if it was all my
imagination, or if I was measuring myself incorrectly and I really hadn’t
lost anything at all ? I
called my husband in and told him to pull the zipper up, I closed my eyes and
expected the worst. It
zipped up without a problem, I couldn’t believe it. I stood there in front of
my mirror and stared at my image for a long time. I couldn’t believe I had
made it this far. Now I
know I’m going to make it to my final goal. Nothing is impossible.
Thursday, February 7 2002 I have
to weigh myself tomorrow and I think I might have a gain. I blame my lack of
water directly, I’ve been terrible with my water and I feel bloated and icky,
just bad. My eating is the same and my exercise is great, actually I think
I’m seeing more results now because I’m letting my muscles rest between
lifting sessions. That’s why I know the water is the cause. Since I’m not
drinking enough water my body retains liquids, thus making me feel bloated
and sluggish. The funny part is that I know this, I’m writing it down on my
journal and yet I’m still having a hard time drinking the stuff, arg !!! I wish
it were as easy as knowing what you have to do to make it happen. No
discipline, that’s the problem. I always try to cut corners and outsmart
myself, hehe, “I won’t even notice if I only drink half of my water today”,
yeah, right, I notice and it sucks. Sitting here being pissed off at myself
is NOT going to make anything change so I’m going to get off my ass, grab a
water bottle and start drinking. That’s all that can be done and I will try
to be better at it everyday. It’s
as if there were 2 people fighting to gain control of my body, the old me and
the new me. The old one is a lazy person, who prefers to not deal with
things, be it cooking, emotions, exercise, whatever and the new me is someone
that stares life right in the face and deals with it, sometimes life beats
the crap out of her but none the less she gets up and keeps fighting. Some
days (like the past weeks) the old me slowly creeps back and starts regaining
control of some things, the new me has been so busy dealing with other things
that she didn’t even notice, but now she knows, and she will show NO MERCY
against the old me. So, let’s go kick some “old me” ass :) Have a
great day.
Tuesday, February 5 2002 I’ve
changed my exercise routine again. I realized that I was overworking and that
if I kept that up I was going to hurt myself. Now I’ve decided to do weights
every other day instead of daily and cardio everyday. It all came about
because I’ve incorporated kick-boxing into my cardio routine, I do 60 mins.
of it and when I’m finished I feel my muscles trembling. So I said, hey,
you’re doing this for life, how long do you think you can keep this pace up ?
My
body has come to a point where even though I still have fat on me you can
basically see my muscles defined clearly, specially on my legs. Yesterday I
caught a glance of myself in the mirror, I was standing on my toes trying to
reach something and I looked at myself in the mirror, I was shocked at what I
saw, I look a lot thinner than before. What I didn’t like is that my calf muscles
seem to be bloating. As I mentioned before, I have nothing against women who
like to build muscle, if that’s your thing more power to you, but I don’t
want that kind of body. I just want some muscle tone and zero fat. By looking at my flexed
calves you’d think I was body building. That’s another important reason why
I’m only lifting every other day now, just imagine, if this has happened in a
year what will happen throughout my life ? hehehe :) I’m
feeling really good and energized today and hopefully this change in my
routine will spice up my workouts. It’s always good to move your workouts
around, that way you don’t let your body get used to them. I’ve
started drinking water again and I have to pee every 2 seconds but if that’s
what I gotta’ do I’ll do it :)
Sunday, February 3 2002 A
brand new month ! I love it, really. Every time a month starts there’s a
feeling of opportunity in the air, anything is possible. I’m going to aim for
a good exercise month. I am feeling a lot better from my cold and hopefully
that won’t happen again for a while. Today
I have to work and I took a while getting all my pages ready for February, so
I have to go for now, but I will be back :) Have a
wonderful Sunday !
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
GRAPHICS
BY: COUNTRY
CLIPART