That day seemed like all otheres. Getting ready for work to start my normal routine that had sadly become my life. I opened the door from my room, there before me was that beautiful face that had touched me so deeply those five months earlier. She was sitting at the table so shyly unaware of what she had done to the darkness I had inside. Her eyes met mine, I was caught by her shy unrealized power over me. At that very moment I fell in Love. I could not stop my heart from completely taking her in. At that point I didn't care if she loved me back I just wanted to be near her, to listen to her voice, to see her smile, to watch her eyes. I fell in love. She replaced all the hurt, pain, anger, and hate that I had felt prior to that one moment in time. Even if she only wanted to be friends. I could touch her, kiss her, and hold her in my dreams. She was that, a dream. I couldn't believe she was sitting before me. This beautiful heaven sent creature was looking at me. My heart stopped for a second then I felt like it was going to pound out of my chest. I got it slowed down enough to say hello.
That evening I was a clown to cover my uncontrolable nervousness. I told jokes, I made faces, and I acted goofy. When it was time for bed, for a lack of a better place she slept on the side of my bed that no woman so special had occupied for many years. I laid there wondering what she was dreaming, wondering if I had touched her at all, and looking at her beautiful sleeping face. She looked so angelic and innocent. The next morning I awoke to a dream that I had to pinch myself to awaken from. I pinched myself and it hurt. I was awake and there she was asleep in my bed. My angel finally arrived.
She opened her eyes to mine. I could feel it in my heart, she somehow felt what I wanted so much to say. But, I wasn't sure if she truly knew. That day and night we spent talking. Later that night while we were lying in bed I held her. She looked like a beautiful sunset and felt like a feather pillow. The softness, the warmth and the comfort we all long for. She was here in my arms. She fell asleep there in my embrace. The next morning I woke up with a smile on my face and a light in my heart. In that moment I decided I could no longer let my feelings go unknown or not shown. I had to find a way to let her know how I felt. I thought all day trying to find the perfect words or the perfect thing to show her my love. I decided on a song that asked a question. That evening, while on the way to the store, I put the tape in and played the song. She listened as my heart raced. I could see the answer and the question in her eyes. When the song was done she turned to say, "Is that what you've been wanting to say?" I couldn't speak for a minute, then said, "Yes." That minute seemed like an eternity. Then she asked, "Is that how you feel?" I said, "Yes." Her words then became as rose pedals gently touching my ears. She said, "I was hoping you felt the same way." Those words were the sweetest words that I had ever heard. She had felt my love even without words.
The next few days we talked a lot, made love, and marveled at the feelings we had discovered together. Then only a week after that night of goofiness I decided I had a life changing question for her but didn't quite know how to ask it. All day she felt something was wrong but there was nothing wrong, besides my feelings of past rejection. I loved her so much I wanted it to be perfect. Finally, after telling myself al day she would say yes, I decided to ask my question. I had her close her eyes, wait and wonder while I did what I thought would be perfect. I put on my tux and cowboy boots, then it was time. I got down on one knee by the bed and told her to open her eyes. When she did open them there I was in a tux and on one knee. The question was simple, but it didn't come out the way I had planed. My words came out, I would like the chance to make you happy for the rest of your life. I want you to be my wife." She did not speak for a few minutes. Then she said, "I don't know what to say." My words came, "You can think about it and give me an answer later." Then she spoke the most wonderful words I had ever heard, "I didn't say I needed to think about it." "Yes." I could have died. She said yes. That was the happiest moment in my whole life. My angel was really going to be mine forever. I could wake up to her beauty everyday for the rest of my life. My angel finally arrived.
Everyday that we have spent since that question has been so very sweet. Every moment I can touch her and feel her, I am in heaven. She is all my dreams come true. For the first time in my life I am getting what I've always wanted. She says she's not perfect but in my eyes she is the up most example of perfection. When I looked into her eyes and she into mine we share a light that could brighten the world. Our love has no limits and knows no boundaries. We will share a lifetime of love. We will share each other in up times and down. She will light up my life for eternity. A life lived with her will be a life lived in heaven. Therefore, I truly believe my angel has arrived.
Copyright by Hayden Gates 2/27/99
