Unknown to what the world had to offer
At a time when I was vulnerable
Slowly matured from the heartbreak
Perplexed In a puzzle of my thoughts where I stumbled at the missing pieces
Some to be lost forever some to be later found
My life was turning
My heart was burning
Rapids of regret and misery hit me
To extinguish the inferno inside
When I realized I should have begun
Desperately seeking and searching for an identity
To distinguish myself from the others who seem the same
Didn’t work so I broke down
Total system failure
We’ve all had that happen, to look
Straight into someone’s eyes when you’re in love
To cry when you realize it’s the end
He left me deformed inside aching terribly
To jump into an ocean of his arms
Opened wide waiting for me to take my dive at the edge
Only pushed one step closer to the brink of my fall did I realize
That his arms were not there at all nonexistent and imaginary
A chaotic part of my dream
Unreal and never to come true
A secret locked behind my lips that is unknown to even those close to me
Is the identity of this metamorphous mysterious lover
There was a quest for me a journey full of uncertainty
In life it’s all that I have to make the best of myself
Needed an antidote from the poison he must have slipped me
So many nights full of tears that shed like diamonds and pearls
Upon my face but he wasn’t there to claim the jewels that were once precious to him
Slowly the wounds torn open started to heal leaving scars
Of the ache that only submerged deeper
Hidden I can feel still - more and more errors I needed an eraser
Meant I was still learning contemplating analyzing my decisions
Realizing that it’s all a part of life that we have no control over
Now separated miles apart with different lives never to be reunited
Lying down I looked up at the black night
Aware that darkness can envelope pain
Disguising with the brightness glare of the stars
Just like a smile can hide a night’s worth of tear shed
The stars cry too you know
I find myself feel like I can only crawl on the ground
Stumbling till I crawl
The grass is wet against my neck
I feel the green hear the wind
With my insides out and the air breathing back on me
