Deep inside I was nothing
But a lost soul with no shelter
My mind was everything
So hard to follow with mazes, twisted pathways
I tried so hard to understand deep
Inside the depths of my mind
And even now I’m not going to struggle
To try to explain and convey
The hurt that I feel can be compared to many things
It can’t be put into words
Words can’t describe it anymore
It’s healed like a knife wound to the stomach
This isn’t a song anymore it’s a ballad
Paths in my forest and I chose some that led to dead ends
The breathtaking, earth quaking, heart beating kind of person he was
He entered so quickly but left my heart as well
I opened up to him believed him
It started with love ended with hate
In the end I saw his face with every punch I took
Every bone of his I wanted to break
Many arrive in my life only to leave footprints in my heart
When they leave I feel so broken
Though time passed he became a friend
But I won’t forget the moments I loved him
He led to another problem of mine
Can’t trust boys too well anymore
I think they’re just there so I can fall to pieces
I see a broken smile
There’s darkness behind my eyes a haze you cannot see through
I might be moody and mysterious
You cant look into my eyes there is no color simply black
As I still stare I draw away in shock I’ve changed so much from when I was thirteen
I’ve changed for the better I’ve changed for the worse
Trust is what I lacked
Began to believe that love’s only for fools
Full of doubt all the time, lying to get away from the truth
My interior consisted of locks and chains
Making me so cold and harsh so uptight
Writhing in doubt to release my shackles
The keys were not yet ready to be found
Down in the depths lay the real me
The insecure girl who put on masks of different faces to cover up
All the pain, confusion, and the mystery that only she knows
To everything around me
In the corner you could find me
Crying just let me cry I would choke
Breaking down because of all bottled in me
Shake me and I’ll explode
All over and into your face and your heart
Surgeon General Warning is what I am
Harmful substances within but I can be an addiction
I come with a warning label on out the outside
Caution I would read Handle Carefully
People –so hard to trust covered up with motives
Although I had those close to me
Doubt of their love clouded my head
Like fog rolling in hazing my thoughts
I’m paranoid so what?
I feel such rage in me sometimes
Lift up trucks and throw them at those who betrayed me
Punching walls with holes in the bathroom
You can call me psycho you can call me crazy
But everyone feels like that every now and then
So outraged at the world and all its infidelities
