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I am always with you.

Patrick is here. (don't worry- he's not bothering me). He seems worried that you think he is not around. He wants to reassure you that he is ALWAYS with you. I knew he was here because I all of a sudden heard "CHRISTINE" really loudly. LOL! I really don't know why he keeps referring to you as Christine but anyhow.......He's not bothering me- so don't worry about that. He's just standing here impressing me with this information. He seems a bit sad that you think he may have left or is not around you the past couple days. He really wants you to know that he would never leave you ever- even for a second. He's always, always there. I think I ALMOST heard his voice too- and you were right- it does sound very deep. I just asked him if there was anything else he wanted me to tell you since he is here but I'm not getting anything else so I guess he just wanted to re-assure you that he is always around. I got the feeling from him that you may have been feeling a bit disappointed the past couple of days because you were wondering if he was still around. I also keep seeing this picture in my head of a scene with 2 swans in a little pond enclosed with big grey stones. And there is a castle in the background- a big castle made of grey stone and beside the little man-made pond with the swans in it, is a stone walkway leading towards the castle. I don't know if that is a message for you, but that is what I am seeing. The swans are both white though and there's 2 of them. Interesting. I get the feeling that it is HIS castle. It seems secluded- like there is no other homes or castles around. It's very pretty actually. I can see green grass here and there too. There's a black iron gate when you go down the stone path leading to the castle and there's flowers around the pathway and gate. I'm actually trying to get into this scene and walk around to see what I can see. The surroundings seem very quaint- not grand like you would think would be surrounding a castle. It looks very homey and cute actually. I got a

glimpse of the inside of the castle and everything looked like it was made of the same grey stone (the walls, and floors). It doesn't look very homey inside though- looks large and spacey inside with lots of light coming in from the outside. It does look like it would be cold inside. I can see a large body of water way behind the castle- I am not sure if that is the ocean or a lake or something. There are roses intertwined around the black iron gate I mentioned before. Very pretty and quaint. The entrance into the castle looks to be a big wooden door. Look very solid and heavy. The pathway that leads to the castle slopes down- like the yard in front of the castle is higher up than the castle itself.

Ok, well anyhow, that was pretty cool. All that was as clear as day. I felt like I was actually there walking all around. That was very interesting. I would love to hear your thoughts on that, to see if it might resemble any of the visions you've had.

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I do think he's fine now. He certainly isn't hanging around here, so maybe he's learning more about communicating. Either that, or he's resting. Lol!

Sure he's there- like I said above, I think he is just resting. OMG- this is too funny - as I was thinking about why you might not be feeling him around you and wondering if I am right in thinking that he is just resting, all of a sudden I heard on the TV "I am worn out!" . LOL!!! I was not listening to the TV at all but that phrase stuck out to me all of a sudden! LOL!

Patrick here again

Ok, Patrick is still here. I get the strong feeling that there is something else he wants me to tell you. I keep hearing that the swans were for you- everything was for you. That whole scene I described earlier- I keep hearing "It was all for her". I think he means he built that castle and everything there for you. It was all for you. He's feeling sad for some reason and I can't figure out why but I just keep sensing a sadness. I keep asking him what he wants me to tell you and I just keep hearing "That I love her". I just saw a diamond engagement ring and I think I heard that you 2 were supposed to be married in your PL. The courts wouldn't allow it. His position was too high. He was called "to duty". I think the 2 of you planned to run away together. I keep seeing a picture of you alone in the castle I described earlier looking very sad and lonely. Like you are waiting for him to come back or something. I don't think he ever returned or if he did it was years later. There's something about Easter that is important I think because I keep seeing all kinds of things related to Easter. I have no idea what that might be. You will forever be his true love. He loves you more than life itself. I also saw a white persian cat with you in the castle, when I saw you alone and sad. I think he also said that the name you received for his horse, was correct because I saw a white horse in my mind's eye and then heard the word "Hooker". He also just said that he is waiting for you. I just asked him what his position was in that life and I heard "King-something", like "Kingsman". I have no idea what that is and I could be hearing it wrong. (UPDATE July 07: I think she was hearing "KINSMAN." That took me an entire year to figure out. Lol!)

He’s still here

Ok, Patrick is still here. I was wondering why he is not leaving but I know why now. I keep feeling the STRONG urge to write. He is trying to get me to do automatic writing so I can give you that poem or some kind of letter from him. Well, I can't do that right now because I am very busy- I need to get my boys bathed, etc, etc. So I told him to go back to you. I hope he listens this time! LOL!

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He seems a bit sad that you think he may have left or is not around you the past couple days. He really wants you to know that he would never leave you ever- even for a second. He's always, always there.

Well, I did get 3 of Swords (such a depressing card with those 3 swords thrust into that red heart) for him again last night. Also 4 of Cups, which said he felt stuck in a rut but didn’t have the energy to break free. And isn’t this interesting? It mentioned “Longing for something – OR SOMEONE – that is UNAVAILABLE.” The rest said this: