| February 2, 2005 It's been a loooong time since I updated. I am just over 21 months post op and struggling like you wouldn't believe! I ended 2004 by eating pizza, getting drunk on screwdrivers, and stuffing dove chocolates into my face. Lovely picture, isn't it? But on Jan 1st, I did liquids all day, and most of Jan 2nd. I lasted until 4:20 pm Jan 2nd, and by that time, my body was TOTALLY craving protein! so I had a 1/2 cup of cottage cheese with dill & onion powder. YUM! I haven't been exercising. Why bother? I take in more calories than I burn, so what good will it do? I read about these people who exercise incessantly after surgery, and why? Do you REALLY lose more weight that way? Maybe my cynicism comes from my DH who also believes that exercise is a waste of time. So...why I am entertaining the idea of joining Curves AGAIN? Well, Curves is the ONLY exercise regiment that I can see actually HELPING to lose weight, because you burn like 3,000 calories in one 30 min. session. That's what the owner of the Hales Corners, WI Curves told me. And when I was a member there, back in 2001, I ate normal food, even fast food at times, worked out 3-5 times a week at Curves, and lost 80 lbs in 6 mos! And that was WITHOUT the surgery. So maybe I CAN get my fat ass off the couch & get under 200 by my birthday, August 3rd. What a wonderful 35th birthday gift to myself. Hell, Mike was 197 on his 40th bday, this past January 23rd! So why can't I be under 200 for MY birthday? And according to fitday.com, that goal is TOTALLY within my grasp! So why do I still sit and do nothing, while waiting the two weeks for money to join? Hmm....dunno! I just get sick of seeing people on Spotlight post that think they know everything about this surgery. Everyone is different! Sure, we should still follow the basic rules, but every surgeon is different. If someone is allowed to drink pop, for instance, then no one else has the right to tell them they can't! That's what pisses me off most about SL. The know it alls. They scare away the newbies by making them think that their way is the ONLY way. Eat this, do that...blah blah friggin BLAH! Hey, what works for you may not work for others! Think about that before you give unsolicited advice. I'm becoming crankier and less tolerant in my old age. LOL! People need to find their OWN way to lead their WLS journey. Maybe in their own AH way, they're trying to help, but it can be destructive if someone takes offense. I offer no advice. Hey, if exercising 7 days a week works for you, then DO IT! It does NOT, however, work for me! Your muscles need time to recooperate, and if you're working out every day, when do they recooperate? IMHO, every other day is the trick, but I'm not offering advice. This is just what works for me. I get frustrated & disgusted when one person contradicts all the advice others give. Like they're the be all & end all of gastric bypass. PUH-LEEZE! Get over yourself! It's hard for me to see others who started off at my weight of 350 and are now at goal. Should I have taken full advantage of my "window"? SURE! Why didn't I? Because I am a food addict, and like any other addiction, it is hard to shake. I am human, I make mistakes, and I allow myself to cheat. I also have started to teach myself when to pull in the reigns on bad habits. And I hate, hate, HATE when people criticize me for what I eat or that I drink booze every so often. Before you pick the spec out of someone else's eye, remove the log from your own. That's in the Bible. I try not to criticize. Sometimes I get angry when someone tells me not to eat something that THEY can't handle and I can. I appreciate the concern, but please keep your advice to yourself. I know you mean well, but it just makes me angry. Wow, this is the most honest I think I've been here. I always pussyfoot around because I don't want to piss people off, or whatever...but ya know? If they can't deal with it, don't read my journal! Right? Well, it is now bedtime. Later! |
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