| more of neil |
| well one day i got into an arugument with my teacher.and i was just now coming around to start hanging out with my friends more.i started liking this one guy named david and i was wanting do date him.we danced alot.and i was gonna ask him out.but then one day i got into a fight with my teacher that works for janitoral services got into a fight and i was putting away the buffer while i was getting ready to put the extension cord up in the closet.she came by and saw the cord in the hallway and we got into it and i got pissed and took off.she told my counsler about it.and then i met this guy named rick farmer.we started dating.( which im not going there on that freak,lmao ).somehow he found me where i lived.but anyways my counsler had kicked me out of the rehab center.and that was around my b-day on march 26th when i turned 21.since then i was living with my mom.i caused alot of pain with my family with me feeling deppressed cause i was missing neil so much and i would always stay in bed all day.i would not answer the phone.i would always let it ring.then rick came into my life causing more and more problems.then one day i got news that my best friend she is in a wheelchair and cant move nothing but her head and her arms.she was pregnant was going to have a baby and she wanted me to come and live with her and help her take care of her and clean the place up till the baby was born.well rick found out i was living there and he was livingin in princeton,wv.and he got pissed over cause i was getting her a glass of water cause she couldnt reach the sink.he got pissed and took me out of that apartment and i called my sister.and my grandpa was sick at the same time i was getting kicked out of rehab.rick took me home to see my grandpa cause i had asked him too.and we saw my grandpa on may 3rd of 1998.i saw him and he couldnt talk and he was so sick.he had cancer in his stomache.and my sister said that if u wanna tell him something u can if u want but he cant talk.if u cant tell him anything i can tell him for u.i went in the bedroom and saw him in the bed.and missy told grandpa that i was here and he opened his eyes up and missy told him that i loved him and miss him and wants him to get better.he saw me and he reached up his arms and stretched them out acting like he wanted me to hold him.later that night he died.now he is finally with my grandma that he had missed so much.well after that had happened i had starting feelingmore and more depressed.i started wanting to kill myself and my family put me in the hospital cause i was more and more worse.i hit my niece cause i was that bad. i cant rember the rest after that.but i do rember is that i have been in the hospital alot of times after the tragidy of losing my fiance,neil was a sweet,caring handsome young man.he was always there for anyone who needed help with.no matter if ur short he would always reach something for you.lol.i know that neil is gone.but i know in my heart he will always be in my heart and i have learned alot that everyone is always in mourning. |
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| updated on may 30th 2002 |