| MORE OF NEIL |
| i started crying when i got at work.everyone wanted to know what was going on.my friends came and hugged me and said im sorry for what had happened.and then my co worker saw me crying and wanted to know what was going on and i couldnt say and they told him and he took me back to his office and i told him what happened and i couldnt stop crying cause i kept wanting to know was neil dead.we called the station that i had heard on.and we talked about how i was happy with neil and all.to calm me down.well my co worker said that three people were shot but he wouldnt tell me if neil was dead.i kept saying is neil dead?he wouldnt tell me.he just told me and said that i needed to go back to rehab and see some counsler's.right then and there i knew something happended.i got back at rehab.and i went to the women's dorm and checked the mail list to see if i had any mail and i saw neils name on there.i cried.then went to the womens dorm's office and told em what had happened.and they took me to the nurses station.i saw a counsler and some woman i cant rember.and they told me and said before we tell u anything we want u to know that we are here for u and can do anything u want us to do for u.and i kept saying is neil dead.that was all in my head was neil dead?no one wouldnt answer me.then i started crying more.and looking at neils classring and kept playing with the classring.and they told me and said that neil shot and killed his dad,his uncle and his grandma.and then they told me and said that neil is dead and that someone shot and killed him.i cried hard and almost screamed.they got a wet paper towl for me to whipe my face off from crying. |
| UPDATED ON MAY 16,2000 |
| they said is there anything u want us to do anybody u want us to call for?i said my sister please i wanna call my sister.at first they couldnt call and i got mad and i said i want my sister!and they let me call my sister and i said hi missy that's my sister's name for short.and i asked her what ya doing?she said oh nothing just watchin tv.and i said that's cool.and i said missy,she said yes?i said theres something i need to tell u,she said ok what is it?i said u know about me and neil that is dating right?she goes yes i do know.i said neil's been shot.she goes what omg!are you ok?i said no im not.then i said missy,neil is dead.she got scared,and felt bad.and said im so sorry and we both cried over the phone and i said missy i wanna come home.she said ok.let me call omie my step mom and we will come and get u.my feild counsler came in.and we talked.i had talked with my other friends and told them how i felt.some came up to me and said they were sorry and they hugged me.one girl was deaf and she told me she was sorry in sign language and she started crying and she hugged me.then i saw my friend here that lives here in webster she saw me and we both cried more.and i hugged her.then we went back and talked with some of the counslers while missy was on her way.and we went to go and eat lunch and everyone looked at me right when i walked in.cause during the day i started walking by myself and looking down on the sidewalk back and worth looking unhappy.and then i walked into the lunchroom. |