What is in a name
I dont play the sue me game
If it is me you want to blame
Remember I dont have money cus I'm lame
This a fic I wrote years ago. Self-torture warning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NCS, Torture, Angst, and Violence
NC-17
1x2, 1x3, 1x4, 3x4 1x?
Plot: This is a really dark fic about Heero raping Quatre while he was drunk.
What will Trowa and Duo do when or if they find out?
“Talk”
‘Thoughts’
//Flashbacks//
So Innocent Part 5
by Markanovanlink
The blackness of the world fades away as the windows to the soul of Quatre open. A mixed swirl of lights and colors give Quatre a nauseous feeling. "Quatre can you here me?" The voice sounded so angelic to him. Quatre had dreamt of that voice. He had always dreamt of that voice. He felt his chest ache as if his soul had been ripped from him because he knew he was unworthy of that voice. "Quatre say something to me."
"T...t...row..a?"
"Yes, it's me. Can you see me?" Quatre opened his eyes wider and tried to focus on Trowa's face. Trowa seemed like a big brown and peach blob. He squinted his eyes until he could see the round outline of Trowa's face. Quatre ran his eyes across Trowa's face until he came across his eyes. Quatre didn't want him to see the shame in his eyes so he closed them and turned his face from Trowa.
"Y..y..es."
"How do you feel?"
"Sore." Trowa used his hand to wipe the fallen locks of golden hair out of Quatre's face while his eyes scanned every detail of the small golden boy's body. Quatre's face and body was a bright red color due to the scolding water. On his face was a large hand print. The hand print was a dull purple color. The doctors said that Quatre had suffered 1st, 2nd, and 3rd degree burns. The burns that would scar would be the ones on his arms. Quatre arms were wrapped in bandages that had to be changed almost 7 times a day. The bandages seem to take on a brownish color when they were left on his arms to long. Trowa sighed and turned Quatre's face to his.
"What happened?"
"The mission."
"What went wrong?"
"Everything."
"Like what?"
"Not your concern."
'What!?! Not my concern. Quatre, when it comes to you I am always concerned. Why won't you tell me what happened?' Trowa had stood up after Quatre said that and started to walk out of the room until he heard Wufei's voice.
"Quatre you sound like Trowa. It is bad enough I have to hold a conversion with him while he only uses three words, but not you too. If you keep this up Duo will run out of people to talk to and I will be his next victim." Quatre had a weak smile on his face until he turned his head away from the other two boys.
"Where am I."
"A hospital." The voice came from a nurse with short curly brown hair. "I am sorry, but your visitors will have to leave." Trowa and Wufei both nodded and walked out of the room. After the nurse closed the door behind them, she took a seat next to Quatre's bed. "Hello, I am nurse Banks. I need to ask you some questions Mr. Barton." Quatre had turned to face the nurse after she called him Mr. Barton. "I want to let you know that you are recovering quite quickly. The bandages on your arms have to be changed frequently. There is a medicated lotion that has to be placed there every time you change them. One of your friends has the medication."
"So I can leave today."
"Not quite. We want to run some more tests on you."
"What kind?"
"Mr. Barton we have reason to believe that you might have been sexual assaulted, and we want to make..."
"I was not!!!" The nurse was shocked by the loud and angry tone of the young boy. "Since I have confirmed to YOU that I was not assaulted, I will take my leave. I believe I can leave since there are no other tests to be taken." Quatre got up from the bed and called for Wufei and Trowa. As they walked in, Quatre asked them where was the vehicle that they used to get to the hospital. The other two boys watched as Quatre wrapped a sheet around his hospital grown covered body while he yelled at the rest of the hospital staff to get out of his way. The two boys had never seen Quatre so mad before. They just followed Quatre outside of the hospital.
Once outside, the three boys got into the truck. The truck wasn't that big. There were only two seats. Wufei got into the driver's seat while Trowa got into the passenger seat. Quatre would have to sit on Trowa's lap because of the lack of space in the truck. Quatre stood outside of the truck and looked lost. He lost his what ever I say goes look. Now he looked very afraid.
"Quatre, come on before you caught cold." Quatre froze as Trowa picked him up and laid him across his lap and closed the truck door. Quatre tensed his whole body up. Trowa felt uncomfortable too. He could tell by Quatre's body language that something had happened to him. Trowa didn't move so Quatre wouldn't be any more frighten than he already was. 'Whoever hurt you will pay dearly. Death is to good for them. I will make them regret the day their mother gave birth.'
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//Are you a virgin?
So innocent.
So sweet.
Tonight I fuck an angel.
Tonight you will atone for your sins by giving up the very thing that keeps you from being damned.
Which is your sweet innocence.//
Heero woke up in a cold sweat. He and Duo where on their way back to the safehouse. The mission was a success. All they had to do was go and blow up an OZ base. They didn't need to get any information. It was a real easy mission but Heero was very tired. "It looks like you where having a nightmare. Want to talk about it?"
"No."
"Come on. I have been driving for 5 hours straight. I need some kind of entertainment. All you have been doing is sleeping. We are 15 minutes from the safehouse, and I don't want to have an accident because I was bored out of my mind. So tell me what your dream was about."
"I don't remember." 'Did I really do something to Quatre. Why can't I remember. Shit.'
"Heero?"
"What?"
"I know what we can do." Duo pulled the jeep off the side of the rode and turned off the engine. It was dark outside. "We can have some fun." Before Heero could respond, Duo was on top of him. Duo let Heero's seat back as far as it would go. "Heero I want you now." Duo started to kiss and suck Heero's neck. Heero let out a small moan. "You like that don't you?" Heero could only moan in response. Duo had some how pulled Heero's biker shorts down to his ankles. The cold night air hit Heero's skin causing him to wiggle under Duo. "It seems like my baby is cold. Let me warm you up." Duo kissed his way from Heero's neck to his navel. As Duo dipped his tongue in Heero's navel, Heero put his hands in Duo's hair and started to push his head down further. Duo snapped his head up and looked into Heero's eyes. "Do you want me?"
"Y...ye..es."
"Okay, but we do it my way." Duo twisted his body so that he was sitting in Heero's lap. Duo was wearing black jogging pants and those pants easily slid down his long legs. With his back to Heero, Duo positioned himself in Heero's lap.
"Duo we can't. We don't have..."
"Shh. I want it like this." Duo lowered himself onto Heero. Both bit their lips as the pain hit them. Duo continued to lower himself very slowly until all of Heero was deep inside him. Heero's couldn't control his breathing. Duo was so tight that Heero thought he would pass out. Duo leaned forward against the dash broad of the jeep when Heero thrusted up. When Heero grabbed Duo's hips, a flash of light blinded him. Instead of seeing Duo he was seeing a bloody Quatre. Heero was still thrusting into Duo when he screamed out Quatre's name. When Duo heard Quatre's name he screamed at Heero to stop. Duo disengaged himself from Heero and hopped into the driver's seat. He pulled his pants up and started the engine.
As Heero pulled up his shorts, he looked at Duo and said, "I don't know what to say. It was like..."
"I don't give a shit!" Duo had a deranged look on his face as he sped down the road. Heero sunk in his seat. The sound of the engine was all that was heard as they pulled up infront of the cabin. Duo turned off the car and stared at the pickup truck that was infront of the cabin. "Do you like Quatre?"
"Not like that. Duo you know who I like."
"No, I don't. I always tell you how I feel. You never share any of your damn feelings. Talking to you is like talking to a brick wall. Now I know why. All this time and you liked Quatre."
"That's not true."
"Oh really. Tell me why you would call out Quatre name while... you cheating shit. You slept with him didn't you?"
"..."
"You...you piece of shit." Duo got out of the jeep and slammed the door. Duo paid no attention to whatever it was Heero was trying to say as he flew open the door to the cabin. Before Duo could get any further into the house, he was met by the tip of a long sword.
"Why the hell are you barging in here like some crazy fool?"
"Move out of my way Wufei! I need to talk to Quatre. Now!"
Wufei lowered his sword and bowed his head saying, "You can not. He is sleeping."
"I don't give a damn! Wake his royal ass up!"
"If you do not keep your voice down I will rip your vocal cords out." Duo turned to see Trowa standing in the hallway with his hands over his chest. "Quatre has just gotten out of the hospital and he needs his rest." Duo facial expressions change from mad to worried.
"What! What happened to him?" Before Trowa could say another word Heero barged in the door yelling out Duo's name. "Would shut up so I can find out what happened to Quatre."
"Something happened to Quatre. What? When?"
"I'm not really sure Heero. Trowa knows more than me. All I know is that he has suffered really bad burns. We took him to the hospital yesterday morning."
"Yesterday morning. Me and Heero left yesterday morning. He was fine the night before. How did he get burned? Heero you slept in the house that night Quatre came home. I know we both were drunk, but did Quatre look okay to you?"
"I don't remember." Trowa eyed Heero with a serious look that made the perfect solider shiver.
"You two were drunk that night?"
"Yeah, Tro. I was so drunk I slept in the jeep the whole night." Before Trowa could say another word, he heard Quatre screaming. He left the room and ran to Quatre's bed side. Wufei and Duo followed him, but Heero stood in place with his head facing the floor.
'Quatre what did I do to you? What did I do?'