The only problem that i have is the question of my "dramatics". Am i really that dramatic?..*sighs*..not trying to be dramatic..just trying to be myself..am i really that bitchy, dramatic,and even worst mean?,,,,but when emotions are high, and when i am upset is it not true to express yourself?
been thinking alot about myself,about how others view me..and i realised..it must be true...i mean..i have potentential for doing so much..haveing so much love devotion to offer...but yet..i close myself off to everyone with unpenatrable walls..but it was only the few who actually did penetrate those barriers and it come crashing down. i dont think that is making one bit of sense what i just said is it?..*giggles*..well not going to worry about it... as for me in general..which i would suggest for you too..do one special thing for yourself..and only yourself a day..no matter what it is..something small, something that only you can have, and will make youfeel special. ANd try not to be bothered with the garbage in the rooms. I am not saying leave them for good, and not even telling you what to do. What i am saying is to find a room where you can relax,talk..and not stare at the scroll worrying about who is upset or not...just go there and have fun..that is what i have been doing..well trying to do.. as for ...keeping it..and dont care if they know me as light or not...i realised i cant start all over no matter how much i try..for someone somewhere always knows me..so my cure is simple..go to other rooms....i have been going to the rooms i havent been to..sure many of them are troll rooms, or posers..but you know something..they can actually have some great conversations if everyonew asnt on there case..posers, fakes trolls are people too...*shrugs*..i know i am being a hypocrite..but cant stand yahell anymore..so just going to enjoy myself..whenever i can.
So to finish off..i wonder am i truly too dramatic at times. Is what i do nothing more then a show, an act, a series of melodramatic phrases..that people pity on?