sarah speaks - propaganda - my worldview '98

    The most profitable industry in the United States is entertainment. We, as a people, pay to sit and watch other make believe people do everything we wish we could, instead of doing it in our own lives. Why not? Why can’t we just have the fun we dream about instead of hoping that it will happen before we pass away? Because someone tells us that it’s wrong. Someone tells us that it’s weird, tacky, moronic, or morally and ethically inconceivable. But in reality it is one’s own conscience, not the guidelines of others, that truly determines what is right and what is wrong. Are people really sorry when they cross a line set by some rule… or are they only sorry for the consequences that it entails? Everything people do, they do in full capacity. And while they may be sorry it didn't work, when they are in the process of doing something that crosses a certain line, they know what they are doing. Therefore, they are only sorry for what it may have caused. Freedom of choice is something everyone is given, but not everyone takes. People have the freedom to do what they want and to live as they want. It is the inhibitions of self-consciousness and the piety of society that drive people to strip themselves of their inborn right.
     Living “the good life” is living life for oneself. Disregarding all social conformities and being an individual. The world is comprised of billions of people. People have to realize that being themselves won’t cause any great disturbance on the population. Being able to laugh and cry, live and love, these are the things that truly make life worthwhile. Everything material becomes insignificant. Pure emotion—happiness, sadness, anger, love—are the things that leave lasting impressions in one’s mind. Now, as I mature, it is clear to me that being myself is not so bad. Not trying to live my life in the image of some standardized ideal has allowed me some personal freedom.
With this freedom and this enlightenment, I make my expedition into the adult world. I plan to go to college for four years and after that attend graduate school for my doctorate in some prosperous field (which at this point happens to be Chemical Engineering). I hope to find my soulmate, my true love, within my time at school and marry when I have established myself, regarding stability in my career and in my self-identity, to the point where I know who I am and that I am strong enough to support myself. I would love to have children, two or three, and hope to be able to share my knowledge and communicate my love with them. I plan on working for about twenty to twenty-five years, so that I may retire early and continue on my trek to self-discovery… because though one never really discovers every facet of his or her being, I intend to unearth the most I can.
     I want to remain healthy and live a long life. I want to live a long life so I can experience all the things that life has to offer—love, strife, hope, etc. I want to live long enough to travel around the world and still have time to tell my grandchildren about it. I want to live long enough to get so accustomed to my spouse that I can predict his every move. I want to be so healthy that my children can still depend on me in my old age, instead of I on them.
     When I die, I don’t plan on leaving any historical impression on the world. I only ask to live a happy life and die a graceful death. If I can look back on my life without any worries, then my life is complete.

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