Chapter 4
"Ohaya ne Ryui-chan..." Stroking Sugi's hair gently, Ryu return with his kawaii smile...
"Breakfast??"
"Hmmm...English breakfast..."
"Hai!"
Without the slightest embarrassment, Sugi just flip the bed sheet aside and walk to the kitchen butt naked.
Looking at Sugi's butt, Ryu couldn't help but smile to the thought of its function...
<<See there you go again...lusting after a man which you shouldn't even be thinking about...call yourself human...>>
<<No...I love that man and it just natural that I love his body too...>>
<<Natural!! You call this natural!! You are so kidding...>>
<<Shut up!! Just shut up!!>>
<<Okay whatever you say...but you knew the truth...you know the consequence...>>
The dumb voice is back again...turning back his attention to Sugi, he couldn't help but remebers the voice.
<<Natural!! You are so kidding>>
But isn't this natural...Love...isn't love natural. With this world, this is unnatural but with him this is. The attraction is so simple and so natural. It's not something pervert or sinful or even unnatural...why is the world so against it!
"Breakfast is ready dear..."
Breaking apart from his thought, Ryu too joined Sugi in his birthday suit. "Here try my cooking!" Like a teenage girl in love, Sugi sited himself on Ryu's lap and began to feed Ryu with his masterpieces.
"Wow...your cooking have improved! This is delicious!"
"How I wish we could do this everyday..."
Although Sugi knew this would spoil the mood between them but he couldn't care less. This is what he had been dreaming of day and night, and he is not going to give up without a fight. And inside Ryu's mind a war is breaking out between his heart and his mind...between the world's thinking and his own thinking.
"Sugi...I'm sorry..."
Gently, he pushed Sugi aside and went back to the room to get dressed, while Sugi stand there dazed. As he watch Ryu walks out of the door without even saying goodbye, his heart was smashed into pieces.
<<This is over...it's really over...>>
The door closes between them and officially declares their separation...
<<What have I done wrong!!!! What have I done wrong!!!!! RYU!!!!!!>>
Everything was too fast...way to fast for Sugi to register. Just a moment aga, he was still preparing breakfast for Ryu and now... Ryu was no where in slight...
He didn't even say goodbye...he just left...
Slowly Ryu walk down the stairs and across the road towards his car, although a lot of people were looking at him but he couldn't care less.
Inside him...nothing is alive. His heart hates himself...truly hates himself. He knew he shouldn't have come, he should have control himself. But all was too late now...the harm has already been done.
Ryu couldn't help but thought about how Sugi is reacting to all this...But reality is so much cruel to Ryu than he ever could imagine, and soon encough he knows why...