Now comes the time of question and reflection? Now I am to question my next thoughts and actions, my previous thoughts and actions, and how I feel. I now have to reflect upon myself and think about myself and think about you. I need to confront my doubts, my suspicions, and my feelings. I don’t know how to make these life-effecting decisions. I don’t know what I should do. I need to talk to you, but I am afraid that you will leave me angry. I know that I don’t want that. I know that I need you to be here for me but I don’t know how close. I know that inevitably our lives go in completely different directions. I want to invest, but I don’t want to say goodbye forever to someone I love. I don’t want to end the love that we have. I just want to make it change. I don’t know about you, and you don’t know about me, so what should we do? How beneficial to either of us is a relationship that is going to stop immediately in a few months? Even if we don’t want it to, it will. That the way it’s going to happen.
