Xxxxxx: just hate my body i guess
MrSelfDevelopmnt: yeah..that’s
the problem right there
MrSelfDevelopmnt: that you do not accept
yourself
Xxxxxx: i was a model
Xxxxxx: and so i guess they kinda pushed be to be how i am now
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you are a human
being for crying out loud
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I understand
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you were put into a
certain mold and trying to fit it
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and now you compare
yourself to that
Xxxxxx: i still am trying to fit it
MrSelfDevelopmnt: it's kinda sad
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you should have fun and be
happy with what you have
Xxxxxx: and the stuff im wearing now is what
they made me wear when i was modeling
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and be good to
yourself
Xxxxxx: me be good to myself?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: dang...how old
were you when you first began modeling
Xxxxxx: ive done alot of bad things to my
self
Xxxxxx: mm 12
MrSelfDevelopmnt: yeah..be good
to yoursrelf....I mean...not you...who else is gonna be good to yourself if not
you..?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: if not you*
MrSelfDevelopmnt: be your own best friend
Xxxxxx: that would be amazing
Xxxxxx: that will never happen
MrSelfDevelopmnt: yeah..and that
is how I think it should be
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well.that is all up to you
MrSelfDevelopmnt: it can happen...if you
want it to happen
Xxxxxx: to hard
MrSelfDevelopmnt: so..you rather
do bad things to yourself
MrSelfDevelopmnt: ok then
Xxxxxx: ive done that for the past 3 years
Xxxxxx: its a habit
MrSelfDevelopmnt: so..
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you are soooo young
Xxxxxx: mmm not that young
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you have your
whole life ahead of you
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and how that will be
MrSelfDevelopmnt: depends on the choices you
make right now
Xxxxxx: maybe a whole life
MrSelfDevelopmnt: are your
parents strict?
Xxxxxx: uhh yea
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I see
Xxxxxx: really strict
MrSelfDevelopmnt: no wonder then
that you are soo hard on yourself
MrSelfDevelopmnt: but still
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you have total control
over your thoughts
Xxxxxx: i don't sleep eat and i work out a
lot
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and how you
view yourself
MrSelfDevelopmnt: dang
Xxxxxx: want to get skinny
MrSelfDevelopmnt: are you having
any fun in life?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: are you happy
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well
MrSelfDevelopmnt: maybe not from what you
said
Xxxxxx: yea
Xxxxxx: kinda
Xxxxxx: get mad at myself alot
MrSelfDevelopmnt: makes me prety
sad
MrSelfDevelopmnt: kids who are soo hard on themselves
Xxxxxx: all i have to say is i don't want n e one to be like me
MrSelfDevelopmnt: guess what
MrSelfDevelopmnt: nobody is
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and that is not because
they do not look like you
MrSelfDevelopmnt: but because nobody is like
the way you are on the inside
Xxxxxx: i know someone kinda like me but she
eats
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and that is
what truly matters
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you are one in a kind
Xxxxxx: im not to worried about it as long as
i live to be 21 im kool
MrSelfDevelopmnt: dang
Xxxxxx: yea
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well...
MrSelfDevelopmnt: what can I say
Xxxxxx: i dunno
MrSelfDevelopmnt: othere than.....I
feel for you
MrSelfDevelopmnt: must be tough
Xxxxxx: it is
Xxxxxx: its hard living like this
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I bet
MrSelfDevelopmnt: but you might not believe
me when I say this............
MrSelfDevelopmnt: but it is your choice
Xxxxxx: ive been living it for the past 3
years
Xxxxxx: sometimes im just like i want to kill myself
MrSelfDevelopmnt: how
sad.........
MrSelfDevelopmnt: life is soooo great
Xxxxxx: mm maybe urs
MrSelfDevelopmnt: no no
MrSelfDevelopmnt: that is not what I meant
MrSelfDevelopmnt: it is not about the life
you are living
MrSelfDevelopmnt: my life sucks
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you have no clue
MrSelfDevelopmnt: but life....you know
Xxxxxx: same with mine
MrSelfDevelopmnt: life is grand
Xxxxxx: i don't even care to live
MrSelfDevelopmnt: it is great to
be alive...if you know how to live
MrSelfDevelopmnt: people like you I would
love to help and talk to more
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I think it is a shame to
think this way
Xxxxxx: well i guess i don't know how to live
MrSelfDevelopmnt: but I can
understand I guess
MrSelfDevelopmnt: yeah....
MrSelfDevelopmnt: we never really learn that
MrSelfDevelopmnt: how to live
Xxxxxx: when my lifes over that will be the best day
MrSelfDevelopmnt: don’t say that
MrSelfDevelopmnt: please
Xxxxxx: but its true
MrSelfDevelopmnt: that is how it
seems to you
MrSelfDevelopmnt: because life seems to suck
MrSelfDevelopmnt: but..this can get better
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I know they can
MrSelfDevelopmnt: if you want them to
Xxxxxx: mm kinda late
MrSelfDevelopmnt: never
MrSelfDevelopmnt: ever
MrSelfDevelopmnt: is it too late
Xxxxxx: yea it is
MrSelfDevelopmnt: if you have
lived 50 years in depression and having being suicidal
MrSelfDevelopmnt: it is still not too late
Xxxxxx: its to late
MrSelfDevelopmnt: so.is that your
response to everything
MrSelfDevelopmnt: to give up
Xxxxxx: no
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you sounded
this way
MrSelfDevelopmnt: saying it is too late
MrSelfDevelopmnt: again..........it is your
choice
MrSelfDevelopmnt: if you want help..you can
get it
MrSelfDevelopmnt: but if you say it is too
late..nothing ever will change
Xxxxxx: i don't think i need it but peple
think i do
MrSelfDevelopmnt: saying you do
not care
MrSelfDevelopmnt: that's sad
Xxxxxx: im tired of caring
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and when your
life is over that is the best day
MrSelfDevelopmnt: it all beings with that carin
MrSelfDevelopmnt: if you do not care
MrSelfDevelopmnt: might as well be dead
Xxxxxx: u don't know me
MrSelfDevelopmnt: that is all I
have to say about that
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I have heard enough to say
what I said
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I can understand that you had it rough
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and I do feel for you....but that you stop caring because
maybe life is just too damn hard..that is not good
Xxxxxx: o it ok
MrSelfDevelopmnt: anyway,..I do
not wanna take up your time
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I know I hate to waste
mine
MrSelfDevelopmnt: so..I wish you the best of
luck
Xxxxxx: ok so ur saying talking to me was a
waste of time fine
MrSelfDevelopmnt: oh no
MrSelfDevelopmnt: not at all
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I am saying that you
should do a lot of thinking
Xxxxxx: o ok
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and after you
do that..we might be able to talk again
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I said what I had to say
Xxxxxx: ok i dunno when well talk next
MrSelfDevelopmnt: when the time
is right
MrSelfDevelopmnt: we will
Xxxxxx: ok
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