XXXXXX: hey
MrSelfDevelopmnt: hello
XXXXXX: nice profile
XXXXXX: you sound like a decent person
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well thank you
XXXXXX: sooooo
XXXXXX: you’re a self-improvement kinda guy
MrSelfDevelopmnt: yessssss
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you got that right
XXXXXX: lol
MrSelfDevelopmnt: ;-)
XXXXXX: you sound so enthused about it
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well..I sure am
MrSelfDevelopmnt: life is a great thing
MrSelfDevelopmnt: just many people don;t realize that
XXXXXX: very true
XXXXXX: well, i have a problem
XXXXXX: *problem
MrSelfDevelopmnt: ok
XXXXXX: i cant type
XXXXXX: lol, kj
XXXXXX: ok
MrSelfDevelopmnt: wanna tell me
XXXXXX: *jk
MrSelfDevelopmnt: it's alright
XXXXXX: sure
XXXXXX: im a faggot
MrSelfDevelopmnt: ok
MrSelfDevelopmnt: garsh...you gotta hate labels
XXXXXX: oh yes
XXXXXX: i hate it
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I bet you do
MrSelfDevelopmnt: so...people don’t accept you
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you have hard time with that I am sure
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I mean..so what..the heck with them
XXXXXX: well, yeah
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well...you gotta be real
XXXXXX: i mean, its not so immediate...there aren’t people like, "fuck you dyke!"
XXXXXX: its more of a worldly pressure
MrSelfDevelopmnt: right
MrSelfDevelopmnt: tell me specifics
XXXXXX: i hate the fact that so many people discriminate
XXXXXX: i mean, ok
XXXXXX: im not obvious about it at all, cuz im so shameful
MrSelfDevelopmnt: but you should not
MrSelfDevelopmnt: just don’t let your life revolve around it
XXXXXX: so, right in front of me, people will joke about it or talk about it in a condescending way
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I mean..,there is more to you than your sexual preference
XXXXXX: of course
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well..it's a challenge
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I know
MrSelfDevelopmnt: stilll..what ya gonna do..you can't change ignorant people
XXXXXX: yeah
MrSelfDevelopmnt: all you can do is to learn to deal with it better
XXXXXX: yeah
MrSelfDevelopmnt: just let them talk
XXXXXX: but its so hard to find someone
XXXXXX: cuz i dont wanna be obvious
XXXXXX: so no one knows
MrSelfDevelopmnt: aah
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I see
XXXXXX: and then, if i like a girl, i have to guess if they’re "that way"
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well...you gotta be true to yourself
XXXXXX: and i dont want to offend them, or push them back
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and I guess in your case...that will get people to talk
XXXXXX: AND i dont want it getting around school...you know how people talk
MrSelfDevelopmnt: yeah..I understand that it must be hard
MrSelfDevelopmnt: ooh...I know

MrSelfDevelopmnt: may I ask how old you are
XXXXXX: 17
MrSelfDevelopmnt: ok
MrSelfDevelopmnt: dang
MrSelfDevelopmnt: not easy
XXXXXX: what was your idea?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you gotta do what you gotta do
MrSelfDevelopmnt: what can I tell you
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and if people, talk..that is the price you have to pay
XXXXXX: yeah
XXXXXX: maybe itll get a little easier when im 18 and i can go to clubs and shit
MrSelfDevelopmnt: right
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you ever had a g/f
XXXXXX: no
XXXXXX: im so inexperienced
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well..you will
XXXXXX: ive had one bf
XXXXXX: what a joke...
MrSelfDevelopmnt: just probably try less hard
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and it will come to you
XXXXXX: yeah
MrSelfDevelopmnt: all good things come to those who wait
XXXXXX: ill take that advice
MrSelfDevelopmnt: ok
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I hope I could help a little
XXXXXX: how about the whole poor self-image thing?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: sorry..it can't be easy for you
XXXXXX: lol
XXXXXX: nah, no pity
XXXXXX: its ok
MrSelfDevelopmnt: no pity
MrSelfDevelopmnt: just understanding
XXXXXX: im just frustrated right now
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I hear that
MrSelfDevelopmnt: frustrated over people being so ignorant?
XXXXXX: yeah
XXXXXX: well, just over not being "normal"
MrSelfDevelopmnt: why the poor self image?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: normal
MrSelfDevelopmnt: lol
MrSelfDevelopmnt: what is that
XXXXXX: you know, its so much easier being boy crazy...it fits so easily into girltalk conversations
MrSelfDevelopmnt: come on now..we are all unique
XXXXXX: yeah
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and different
XXXXXX: but normal as in the majority
MrSelfDevelopmnt: right
MrSelfDevelopmnt: but you know about the mainstream
MrSelfDevelopmnt: just look at it
XXXXXX: lol
MrSelfDevelopmnt: not that great
XXXXXX: lol
MrSelfDevelopmnt: right
XXXXXX: well, my poor self image lies in how i look
XXXXXX: I’m not happy with it
MrSelfDevelopmnt: just you be yourself
XXXXXX: you wanna see a picture of me?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: do you love yourself
MrSelfDevelopmnt: sure
XXXXXX: i dont think so, lol
XXXXXX >sent me her pic<
MrSelfDevelopmnt: hey...
MrSelfDevelopmnt: it's cool
MrSelfDevelopmnt: ok..you are no cindy crawford
MrSelfDevelopmnt: so what
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you are you..and that is great
MrSelfDevelopmnt: stop worrying so much about how you look..and be yourself
XXXXXX: how do you learn to love yourself?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: focus on the person you are on the inside
MrSelfDevelopmnt: accept yourself first
XXXXXX: but theres so much i need to fix

MrSelfDevelopmnt: I mean..this is kinda what you are stuck with for the rest of your life
MrSelfDevelopmnt: neah
MrSelfDevelopmnt: fix how you look at yourself and not your looks
MrSelfDevelopmnt: be happy with who your are
MrSelfDevelopmnt: or ..more importantly..that you are alive
XXXXXX: thats what i was talking about..theres so much about my personality i need to fix
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and be alive
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well...you will
MrSelfDevelopmnt: eventually
MrSelfDevelopmnt: lol
XXXXXX: i wanna work on it, yknow
XXXXXX: but i get so discouraged sometimes...
MrSelfDevelopmnt: hey..that great
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I know...it can be tough
MrSelfDevelopmnt: what are your plans for the future?
XXXXXX: what do you mean specifically?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well
MrSelfDevelopmnt: what are your interests
MrSelfDevelopmnt: dreams
MrSelfDevelopmnt: talents
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I am sure you have those
XXXXXX: um
XXXXXX: well, i want to work with apes
XXXXXX: to communicate with them
MrSelfDevelopmnt: with apes?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: how come
XXXXXX: yes
XXXXXX: i love animals, but apes even more becuase theyre so closely related to us
MrSelfDevelopmnt: right
XXXXXX: id like to improve on my art skills
MrSelfDevelopmnt: ok
XXXXXX: find someone i like
XXXXXX: like a gf
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you will
MrSelfDevelopmnt: in due time
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you know...you can't rush a good thing
XXXXXX: i guess
XXXXXX: but i mean, i know this asking a lot
XXXXXX: but i want someone amazing, yknow?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: hey..I bet
MrSelfDevelopmnt: don;t we all
XXXXXX: not just some girl who likes me or some girl i like
MrSelfDevelopmnt: buy you know how to find them
MrSelfDevelopmnt: by becoming amazing yourself
XXXXXX: i want someone to open my eyes and be impulsive and spontaneous and set me free
XXXXXX: oooooh
XXXXXX: that sounds good
MrSelfDevelopmnt: by bringing that out in yourself what you are looking for
XXXXXX: howso?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well...you wil find love by becoming loving yourself
MrSelfDevelopmnt: look at my site.and the links in it
XXXXXX: i did
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and maybe you understand what I am saying
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you looked at my website of just the profile
XXXXXX: i want to trust myself and just be more fun and spontaneous
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well..it's all there
MrSelfDevelopmnt: what is keeping you
XXXXXX: very good question
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I know
MrSelfDevelopmnt: that is why I asked it
XXXXXX: i think worrying about the way i look in front of people
MrSelfDevelopmnt: right
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well..you can drop that
XXXXXX: how?
XXXXXX: we can all say "i dont care about what anyone thinks of me" but how do you truly convince yourself?
XXXXXX: sorry, am i bothering you
MrSelfDevelopmnt: ok
MrSelfDevelopmnt: first thing
MrSelfDevelopmnt: totally and unconditionally accept yourself
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I know it can be hard..but what else are you gonna do
MrSelfDevelopmnt: this is what you are stuck with
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and..it aint that bad
XXXXXX: right
MrSelfDevelopmnt: lol
MrSelfDevelopmnt: second, begin to develop yourself from the inside out
XXXXXX: thanks, but as we all know, its not what others think of us, its how we feel about ourselves...there are some gorgeous people out there with no self esteem
MrSelfDevelopmnt: be more spontaneous
MrSelfDevelopmnt: right..but we are talking about you here
XXXXXX: right
XXXXXX: ok
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and nobody esle
XXXXXX: ok
MrSelfDevelopmnt: no comparisons allowed

XXXXXX: alright
XXXXXX: i dig it
MrSelfDevelopmnt: ok
MrSelfDevelopmnt: then..have some fun..stop worrying so much about what other people think and be more real
XXXXXX: ok
XXXXXX: good advice
XXXXXX: i really want to play basketball
MrSelfDevelopmnt: do it
XXXXXX: im pretty good
MrSelfDevelopmnt: just like the nike slogan
XXXXXX: but, the thing holding me back is that i get really red when i get physical
MrSelfDevelopmnt: lol
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I get red ears when I get excited
MrSelfDevelopmnt: so what
MrSelfDevelopmnt: another thing that distinguishes you form the rest
XXXXXX: o man, so do i
MrSelfDevelopmnt: lol
MrSelfDevelopmnt: it's all good
XXXXXX: lol
XXXXXX: i wish i was as positive as you
XXXXXX: but i guess i should stop wishing
MrSelfDevelopmnt: you will
XXXXXX: and just do it
MrSelfDevelopmnt: it takes time
MrSelfDevelopmnt: right..you gotta overcome those inhibitions
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and that takes time
MrSelfDevelopmnt: baby steps
XXXXXX: right
MrSelfDevelopmnt: ;-)
XXXXXX: well, when people say things about my cheeks
XXXXXX: like in a bad way
XXXXXX: i usually just give them a comeback
XXXXXX: is that ok?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: yeah..but see..that is the challenge
MrSelfDevelopmnt: instead of getting them to stop because it hurts you
MrSelfDevelopmnt: which aint gonna happen
XXXXXX: you know, its something like, "hey, why the hell are you so red?" me: cuz im emarassed for your mother
XXXXXX: ok, go on
MrSelfDevelopmnt: learn to be more like...so,...you don’t like my cheeks...so what
MrSelfDevelopmnt: bite me
MrSelfDevelopmnt: but don’t say that,
MrSelfDevelopmnt: lol
XXXXXX: lol
MrSelfDevelopmnt: there you go
MrSelfDevelopmnt: Im mean..whatever people say or do..you are always the way you are
XXXXXX: yeah
MrSelfDevelopmnt: let them make fun...so.,...I always feel sorry for those people..I mean..what the f.. do they know
MrSelfDevelopmnt: they must have some insecurity issues about themselves
XXXXXX: very true
XXXXXX: i gotta go in a min
MrSelfDevelopmnt: see..that's the attitude
MrSelfDevelopmnt: ok
XXXXXX: i hope i havent bothered you too much
MrSelfDevelopmnt: no way
MrSelfDevelopmnt: I love talking to people
XXXXXX: so, is there any final advice?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and you sound like a very nice young lady
XXXXXX: that i can keep in my head
XXXXXX: lol
MrSelfDevelopmnt: well..just always keep it real
MrSelfDevelopmnt: nobody can take that away from you
XXXXXX: you would never say anything negative about anyone, anyway
MrSelfDevelopmnt: so..don;t give it away
XXXXXX: what do you mean by keep it real?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: be yourself...
MrSelfDevelopmnt: be true to yourself
MrSelfDevelopmnt: and be happy
XXXXXX: thank you
MrSelfDevelopmnt: sure thang
XXXXXX: im putting you on my bl, is that alright?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: please do
XXXXXX: so, you sure i can ask you if i have any problems?
MrSelfDevelopmnt: of course
XXXXXX: alright man
XXXXXX: thanks a bunch
MrSelfDevelopmnt: later
XXXXXX: your'e a cool cat
MrSelfDevelopmnt: thanks
MrSelfDevelopmnt: bye sista

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