__for that means I came to an end.
Not really but it sounds good...........
Now at work I am getting lots of projects to work on so I will have to make my time here worth while. I was not able to add anything yesterday because the program was very slow and I did not have the time to wait for it. On Tuesday, my friend at work read my thrid journal page and found lots of errors for me to go back and fix. I will do my best to get it right some day.
When reading this please realize I am not uneduicated I just miss my typos and I am not the greatest speller. If you have kept up with this journal I am sure you know that my now. Unfortunantly I don't have a lot to say today, perhaps the weekend will inspire me. :)
Nothing really all that exciting has happened. My dad called me last night and he will be comming down for a few days in November for the American La Mans racing series that will have a race here in San Diego. I will be going with him of course and I am looking forward to it. I grew up at the race track (auto racing ) and it has been a while since I have been in that atmosphere it will bring me back to my childhood, the question is do I want to go back. ahahahha I am looking forward to it. I know I will have a great time.
May 17, 1999
I have not been able to write anything the past few days. But you are not really missing anything either. This weekend was not as exciting as last, but I enjoyed my self none the less. Work has been very busy, and I am trying to get a handle on all I have to do. One intresting thing, I went out Friday night with my friend and she wanted to go out Saturday night also, but I did not feel like it. Well it turns out that where we would have gone that night actually had a shooting and a couple of people got shot. She and I heard about it on the news and we said... maybe it is a good thing we did not go out. Even if we were not in the area of the shooting per sa, we would have to deal with all of the resulting traffic and it would have been a nightmare. So I am glad I did not let her talk me into it.
May 18,1999
Well this morning when I got to work and checked my e-mail there was this thing from Pimpincupid and it said that some one I know likes me and wants to go out on a date. I am thinking to myself this is strange. Very few people actually know my e-mail address espically the one for work. My e-mail address for here is easy. So in anycase I went to the site and was going to try and figure out who it was. Well I have to know thier e-mail address. That is all this is, if someone knows your e-mail address and signs you up you get the same type of e-mail I got. It seems like a good idea, but I don't know the address of anyone that I am really intrested in dating. I will have to do some more exploration on the matter. If any of you have any ideas let me know ahahahahha. Like you even know me. :)
May 19, 1999
Today has been very busy, I have not had much of a chance to write. The builder has been kind of busy. I am on my lunch and I know that I am not going to really be able to say anything of substance here. I don't really have a lot to say other than, my trip to Africa is being planned and those plans are going quite well. I am currently looking around for flights to England and then form there to Nairobi. I really can't wait. Socially I have had more luck with E-mail and people I have never meet than with people I have actually meet.
I keep thinking about that Pimpin Cupid thing. I still can't think of anyone who has meet me, knows my E-Mail, and I know their's. So as a reault I am completely in the dark. You know what, I kind of like it here. It is nice believing that you are liked by someone and they are too shy to just tell you.
May 20, 1999
For the past few days I have been thinking a lot about these pages. I fear that they might have truned into a brag session. I really do not want it to appear that way. I have only taken the time to write everything out because it keeps me occupied during the mornings at work and when and if I decide to chuck it all some day. I will be able to print it all up and have it for my memories which was my purpose to begin with. It is funny to me I write like I am talking to someone. Even in my diary at home I do the same thing. yet if someone were to read my diary I am not sure how I would feel about it. I think the most important thing to keep in mind is, a diary is a collection of thoughts and feelings that the author is putting down on paper as a way to think about the subject matter. Keep in mind this is my opinion, if it isn ot the way you write the so be it. When I write about problems this is most deffintantly the case. I am able to get a clearer picture of what is going on when I can read what is going on. I have the ability to view my life/situation as a story and we all know that you the reader always knows what is best for the charater. So with all that said I will leave you for the day and wish you and me the best.
May 24, 1999
Monday is here again and I have to say it does not really bother me. I had a great weekend. I went out on a date and it went well. I did a home improvement job and I felt accomplished and best of all I was able to realx. I am going to keep this shorter than normal because I need to get to work and I have to write an couple of e-mails before I can to that. If I get a chance I will try to come back and write more, like you care. Who ever "you" are. I think I am going to try and write more supstance in the future and less filler, so if you make it here and there is no new news perhaps that is because nothing really happened and I do not want to waste your time reading random thoughts. We shall see.
May 25,1999
Last night I was in a very strange mood. I watched the season finale of Alley Mc Beal and I have to say it was kind of depressing. So after that I took a hot bath with candles and listened to Portishead. I felt like I was out side myself and yet I was not even intrested in looking in. It was nice to be away. ahhaa Now that is pretty nurotic isn't it? Well what can I say, this is me. I am getting to the point in my life where I want it set. I want to know what I have and be able to appreciate it. I am getting tired of not knowing what the next day will have in store for me. Sometimes it is nice to know what to expect, there is comfort in that.
May 26, 1999
I am amazed at how little I konw about current events. I recently had a friend call me whom I had not heard from in about 6 weeks. I figured he was probably sent to Kosovo, but I did not know for sure. Well it truns out that he was, and the only reason he is back this early, is because he was injured. I was not aware that his job for the Navy was so dangerous. I feel guilty now that I have not keep more on top of those types of events. I never knew some one who was actually in a war before. Sure my grandfathers were, but I was so young I never realized exactly what that meant. So he is the first. I have a feeling this will make me pay more attention to what is going on in the world around me. This is a very intresting world we live in, both good and bad. I now realize to let it slip by would be a shame. I also heard yesterday that some families for Kosovo are going to be living in San Diego. I wonder what it is like for them, it is very difficult to imagine how I would feel if I were in that situation.
May 28, 1999
I am amazed at how selfish some people are. I have this friend, who seems to think that everything is only about her and everyone should be concerend whether she is happy or not. I am trying cooridinate a group of us getting together, and she is not making it easy. I am at my wits end. She has to have everything her way. I am venting this frustration because I need to get it out. I can not tell you how long I will continue to be her friend. I can handle it if she is selfish with me, but when she is inflexable towards other people whom she does not even know. I think that is just plain rude. I could go on about this far too long so I will just leave it at that and let you know how it all works out.
