Rachel Young

tuesday, august 7, 2001

The humidity factor is currently 71%. Feeling extremely sticky and hot, I can`t fall asleep.

So everyone keeps asking me why I moved to New York. OMT was out with mutual friends from college about a week ago and told them I was relocating up north. They asked her why I was leaving, and she said she didn’t know why. She’s been staying with me the entire summer while I’ve been planning this move, and even she doesn’t clearly know what the reasons are.

I wish I could explain it better, but bottom line is I had to get away. I was becoming complacent where I was and I didn’t like it. In more dramatic yet frank terms, I felt I was withering away and began to lose sense of who I was and what I wanted. I began to feel glimmerless.

Do I expect to find that glimmer here in New York City? No, not really. But I do expect to be challenged and stretched beyond the comfort zone I’ve somehow got stuck in the past year. I’ll tap into whatever talent I have, shape it, master it, and push it to its limits. I’ll get in touch with the deepest part of my soul, and discover both the things that make me cringe and the things that make me beam about myself.

I want to make things happen, and for me, there’s no better place than New York for it.

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