History of my Poetry and Music

 

I've been writing poetry and music for as long as I can remember. My earliest memories of it have to have been writing songs like the original version of "45 Minutes" and "Wish" when I was probably 9 or 10 years old. I used to write some stuff with my cousin, Jessica, and we sort of formulated a fake little band called "Kelloblue."

After a while, I decided to start my own band with friends from the surrounding neighborhood. It consisted of myself and my 3 friends; BJ, David (known as Scooter by his friends,) and Brett. We called ourselves "Missing Link."

After we kind of outgrew that idea, and after we realized that none of us could play instruments or whatever, the idea was abandoned. When I hit age 13 (I believe), I received the gift of guitar lessons, so I began to do that. Once I had learned a few chords, I wrote my first songs with music. The first two songs I wrote were "The Vocal Point," which was based very much on Green Day's "Time of Your Life (Good Riddance)" but was different enough that I wouldn't get sued over it, and also the song "Your Eyes."

I began writing other things, at the suggestion of my sister, and I came up with such songs as "Krystle's Song" (written about a friend who tried to commit suicide) and "Return to Happiness," based on my friend, Alec and the stories he told about the boxes of photographs in his basement, how they reflected his once-happy childhood. At that point, he and I were both going through some rough times. Alec and I decided to start our own band, and he volunteered to be the group's drummer. We soon recruited Mike as a bassist (although he didn't play.) We called ourselves "Flux" and we wrote a song together called "False Freedom."

After we realized there was a band from the area named "Fluxx," we abandoned the idea of our band name. During this time, we toyed with the idea of starting an Irish rock band. We decided to call ourselves "Green With Envy" and wrote a couple songs like "Manhattan" (which mentions Galway Bay and Dublin.) We (or more so myself) also toyed with the idea of a Christian Contemporary band, and called it "Fayth."

Shortly thereafter, I got involved with Crystal, which is when I wrote the song "Something Special." She responded with a poem called "More Than Words Can Say." When I found out she was a pathological liar and we broke up (as the story is very well documented in other portions of my website) it sparked a whole slew of poems and songs, such as "Falling Silent" and "Odd Man Out" which also had a bit of basis in the unfairness that I felt my family was dealing out to me at the time. Also, I met a friend online who helped me through a bunch of my problems, but who always sort of made me nervous, so I wrote the song "Michael" in response to him. My friends (Alec, Lyticia, Elliott) and I took to calling ourselves "Icharus" and planned on creating an album called "Where Songs Don't Sing," to which I wrote the title track.

"Icharus" was abandoned after a while due to simple disinterest in the project, but not before I wrote the song "I Don't Know Why" with the help of Alec's input. After Crystal, I didn't have a girlfriend for a while, but I wrote a song called "Anna's Lullaby" for a friend of mine from Canada. I also wrote a rebuttal to Crystal's poem with the song "More Than Words Can Say?"

I had had an interest in Techno for a few years because of my uncle, and around that time I began to do some techno mixes. Under the name of Infinite Nothing, I threw together a few songs like "Last Lap," "Midnight," and "Amazon."

In early 2003, I hooked up with Allison, and I wrote poems like "Fairy Tale" in lieu of this. She responded with a poem of her own, which I appreciated immensely. After a while, she and I just split up due to reasons I didn't understand at the time, and I felt (since it was the most serious relationship I had ever had) very betrayed by her, so I began to write some things like "Seven-Hundred-Thousand," "Poem 5," and "Loving Your Leaving Me."

In my senior year of high school, I hooked up with a guy named Christian and his friend Ant, and we started a punk band that we called "Corporate Decoy." That is when we wrote the songs "Corporate Frolic" which was instrumental, and "Tortured" which about the discrimination of those who don't go with the grain and people who are just generally different.

I also wrote some songs that year, inclucing one about Elliott and Mandi (now broken up) called "Until Our Forever Ends," and another about Elliott, which tells all about how he takes everything for granted. This one I called "Standing Here (Hollering Your Name)."

While in college in Millersville, I wrote a song about missing Allison called "My Hat." I also re-wrote my childhood song "45 Minutes," which I played the same day at an open mic night they held at college. I also wrote "Waxen Wings" while I was at college.

I wrote a song in November of 2003 half with Contemporary Christian music in mind, and half with the love I wished I had in mind, which I feel is probably one of my best works to date.

Allison and I got back together in December of 2003, and it sparked some poems such as "This Year" and "If I Should Die Tonight."

Corporate Decoy eventually broke up when Ant got involved with another band called Mass Destruction. The other recording project I was doing with my friends Bill and Jason was sort-of discarded as well.

At this point, I am the lead singer/guitarist for a band called Fatboy Overthrow with my 3 friends Brandy (guitarist), Bill (bassist), and Jay (drummer). I'm also working on a solo project album with Bill called "Half of Nothing."