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SUMMARY: Willow loses her memory, Spike fills in a few blanks!

PAIRING: W/S

RATING: R (Oh yeah I found that smut muse, ok she not totally back but a little is better than none!! Oh and Tienco, I'm grilling her about you smut muse as I speak!!! J )

NOTES: This was a challenge set on reds_big_bad list. Willow had to loose her memory and Spike creates a new life for her.

DEDICATION: Tienco, hope it helps with your smut muse!! To Vampie for being Vampie and creating a new group for me.....Pssst.....Everyone join, it's called Gruesome4Goddesses. You know you want to.....

MAKE BELIEVE!

PART THREE

"You ok luv?" Spike looked to the window where Willow stood looking out into the sunshine.

"Why don't we ever go out during the day?"

"Well perhaps the night before always tires us out?" He said smiling.

"Maybe." She looked at him, his shirt was draped over the chair and his boots thrown in a corner, he only wore his black pants as he lay on the bed with the tv on in the background.

"Let's go out now. Before it gets dark. We always go out in the dark."

"Umm, I don't really feel like it pet." Frantically he tried to think of a reason.

"Oh come on Spikey." She teased as she seductively sauntered over to him, her hips swaying, her hair hanging over her face. She knew that he wasn't listening to her but transfixed by her moving body. "I wanna go out in the sun baby." She pouted looking at him. She saw something that she had never seen in his face before. Playfully she knelt on the bed and straddled him. "Please?"

"Maybe later baby." He smiled at her. "Wouldn't you rather stay in and let me entertain you?" She growled playfully at him as her fingers gripped his arms.

"Did you just growl at me?" He chuckled.

"I guess I did mister." She smiled at him, then stopped, her fingers loosened around his arms and she sat back. "I growled. What else growls?"

"Dogs?" He offered.

"Yes, but what else?" Suddenly she stood up and looked at him. "Vampires."

"What?" Spike tried his best to sound amused.

"Yes Vampires. Oh my God they're real, I've seen one."

"You're making things up. Vampires aren't real."

"Yes they are. I have seen one. I...I've killed one. They only come out at night." Spike was standing now; she grabbed his arms again. "Spike we've been going out at night, and we could have been hurt. Its not safe to go out after dark. This is the Hellmouth you know?"

"Pet, it's ok."

"Don't. Just don't." She shouted at him. "I may not know many things, but I am sure about this. I *have* seen a vampire, I have killed a vampire." She looked at him. "There's some one that is called to do this."

"The slayer?"

"Yes. See you do know." She hugged him. "You don't have to hide nasty things from me you know. I mean I will remember eventually." Lightly she kissed his cheek. "So can we go out now? Celebrate my new knowledge of the hellmouth and my life?" She began to drag him towards the door picking his shirt up along the way.

"Red." He pulled his arm away from her and looked at her startled face.

"What's the matter?"

"I...I can't." Swallowing hard he turned away from her running his hand through his blonde hair. "There's more that you don't know."

"Like what? You sure you just don't have an aversion to the sun?" She laughed softly.

"Yes I do, I can't go in the sun."

"Spike, I'm sorry I didn't know." She went to step forward, but he held his hand up for her to stop.

"Don't. There's more. I'm not all I seem baby. You see. I...I'm..." He searched for an easy way to say it, a way to say it and keep her, to keep the love they had. He knew that over the last few days she had grown to love him, he had spun many tales of their past and she had enjoyed them. They had made love over and over again and he never wanted to loose that, but he knew that as soon as he told what he was about to say she would go, she would leave him.

"What is it. Please tell me. You know I love you right?"

"That's just it, you don't." He turned to look at her. "You don't love me. I tricked you. I bloody well lied about everything." He saw the tears in her eyes as he looked quickly to her face.

"So you...we...we're not married?"

"It's not that I wouldn't pet, I would, *I* do love you. But you see you could never love me."

"But I do." She protested.

"No, I told you you did. But you could never love me because&because I am a vampire." He looked at her now. She was staring back at him. Disbelief was written all over her face. "You don't believe me do you?" She didn't move. Sighing he ran his hand through his hair again. "I didn't want to do this, I don't want to scare you, but you have to believe me. I'm gonna do something now, and I don't want you to run away screaming ok?" She nodded slightly, her eyes widening as he changed his face. Her hand went to her mouth as she stood rooted to the spot and stared at him. "I'm sorry baby, but it's true."

"Buffy." She whispered, her eyes meeting his for a brief second. Smiling he stepped forward glad that she had remember something. When he saw her backing away from him, he realised that he hadn't changed his face back.

"You remember luv, that's great. Look I know all about you, the real you. I can take you to the watchers house and theyll take care of you."

"No."

"No what?" He blinked his now blue eyes at her as she looked at him.

"No, you won't take me there."

"You need to be safe."

"Safe? Is that what I've been these past days with you?"

"I never hurt you Willow."

"No you didn't." She reasoned. "But you lied to me."

"I'm truly sorry about that luv. I just...."

"You love me, I know, I heard you." She sighed. "Spike, You don't know me."

"I know you better than you know yourself at the minute."

"No you don't. I...I remember stuff, ok, not lots of stuff, but stuff, and you know there is no way you can know what I know."
"And what's that?"

"That I don't want to back to Giles' I want to stay with you. I love you."

"No you don't."

"Don't tell me who I love and who I dont." She looked at him and saw his smirk. "What?"

"I love your fire pet."

"And I love yours. I mean I know I'm still new to the re-emerging memory thing but I know I love you." She held her hand up to silence him. "I love you now and l loved you before. That is if you're William the Bloody, cos if you're not then I have the wrong person."

"You love me? I'm a vampire, you do realize that don't you?"

"Yes Spike, I do. And hey, I know what outfit you were talking about." She added wagging a finger at her. "That was my Halloween costume. I was a ghost."

"You were gorgeous pet. You can haunt me any time." He laughed.

"Don't say that cos I may take you up on that." She stepped closer to him. "So you gonna let me stay and love you?"

"Only if you want to."

"I want to." She placed her hands on his chest and leaned up and kissed him. "We can let the others know I'm ok later ok?" She kissed him before he could say anything, her fingers pulling his head closer to hers, her lips crushing his. She got her answer from him as his arms encircled her waist as his tongue duelled with hers. Playfully Willow growled again as she pushed him toward the bed. Pulling his mouth away from hers Spike smiled as he looked into her eyes.

"This is a growl pet." He picked her up, and growled, his vampire face falling into place. Willow tentatively reached up and stroked it, and the growl turned into a purr. Nipping at her neck Spike began to show her the love he truly did possess for her. Their happy moans filled the room as they reached their ecstasy together over and over again.

THE END

I want my life to make more sense to me!

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