Untitled # 10

I ponder at times
what I have done
in return for all this strife
and to this day I have
not figured that much
from my life
You see, the sand of time
they're closing in
and coming to a slow
as the avalanches cease
to exist- I will surely not
be aware of what I knew
as I ascend this last trip
April 27th 1999
Fall

My love for you is that of life
The more I can have of this the more
I can experiance it all.
Though when faced without
you love my heart trembles
and the walls of this world come
crashing down.
Have you ever wondered why
I kept coming back to see you?
Couldn't you tell there was
no place i'd rather be than
near you!?
Even in your lovely cave
for when I visited you
things seemed to change for the better.
And all those promises
through all those days
they never once came true.
I would never let myself
see the lies on your face.
So what do I do?
Who can I be?
To get away from
all that I see?
What do you see?
Could you see all this as I do?
Or do you not give a @#$& now
As i figured you would?
All I wanta say-
This will be last of all-
is that, truthfully, before you
I figured
I'd never fall.
May 3rd, 1999
Untitled # 11

Karma Cup
expresso shake
delicious
good
nice
pretty
better
having
wanting
loving
[an ex's name]
May 5th, 1999
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