| September 6th, 2003*12:11am No one could have prepared me for the way motherhood feels... its a curious thing. I never thought that a mere word could move me so... okies okies lets get to the beginning of this thought that i'm randomly spitting out! 3 days ago i truly heard "ma ma" and knew that i would never feel the same way again... Skylar, in a hasty attempt to prevent me from tending to my Zoey-sitting duties while Jessie was in class, called out to me from the playpen while i was fixing "Zo-zo"(Zoey's nickname)a bottle for lunch... My heart stopped! I cried and couldn't understand myself. This is what i had waited for soo long to hear... *dreamy sigh* It was a moment i will never forget for a millenia! For a zillion millenias! There was a time i thought i'd have to wait til his first birthday... Aug. 29th he said "da da" on the car ride home from Coffee Call... i cried(as usual)! I was shocked and amazed and hurt all at once. Of course, i know that his first words have no reflection on my abilities as a mother and that saying "da da" was an easier task than "ma ma" at his age. So i assumed that when he said "da da" that he'd be stuck on that word for a while and not move on so quickly-thank god i was wrong!!!!! *grin* I am truly blessed, though my friends might think that i nitch way too much and that i dont appreciate jackshit! Hah! I do! I appreciate my son... f**k everyone else! Mishi |
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