| The Innocence of Children... |
| Honestly sometimes, no matter how much I hate kids, I still think that they are somewhat special in the fact that they're so innocent and how they have all these hopes and dreams, and the funny thing is that they actually BELIEVE in themselves, that they CAN do what they want. Just, when you get older...your confidence goes down, and you start badgering yourself, and don't do work that is of your highest potential...I just don't know how that works out...Like if we have more energy when we are kids, or are not put down as much..When you're a little kid, your parents think when you go take a crap that it's some HUGE accomplishment. But when you get older, they expect more and more from you. Aside from that, your friends expect more from you as well. Those hopes and dreams that once were just die down... You can't focus on them too much, or your friends will think you're some kind of dork...And Heaven forbid. When I was a kid, I always wanted to be famous. Hell, I still do. Except now, I honestly believe I won't make it, yet I am now trying for it... I wanted to be an actress. For years I thought that that was silly, until this year where I now believe it is something I may seriously consider, along with advertising. I'd either like to go into film or advertising, but I'd like to go to an Art college... When I was young, I was so crazy...Well, I still am. I would pretend I was a cat named Catty, but not like a real cat, but a fake cartoonish cat. And my brother cat was named Shadow, and something like we were half brothers, and my parents were poor, and his were rich. Either that or we were both brothers (yes Catty was a boy) and our parents hated me but loved him. So they sent me away to a crappy boarding school and sent him away to an expensive one. I would act out both characters.. I'd act out everybody...I have a bar in my house. I'd act out the bartender cleaning the wine glasses, while standing behind the bar. I'd have all kinds of adventures. I would also play with my toys, like figurines from Aladin, Lion King, just random stuff, as well, and make movies out of them...Except they weren't really movies, because I wasn't filming it, but they would have little episodes...It was kind of like a soap opera kind of thing... My character was the Princess Jasmine figure, named Nicole. Nicole's friends were Shenzi from Lion King, this kangaroo from Mighty Mouse who I named Kangar, and this Donosaurus, named Don. I think I started playing with all of them since I was eight. I'd play with them outside and in the house. Each room would be a land or country of some kind. My bedroom was called "Beddy Bye Land," which was the "main" area, probably the richest of all countries, and the most well known, I guess...Then the patio, "Patio land" (Yes, I was really creative) and Patio land was also kind of famous as well, but not as much as Beddy bye land. Then my bathroom would be "Water world" where I would have "bath tub adventures" with my toys, letting them swim.. I remember I used to use those white stryofoam things that TVs and VCRs and stuff are packed in, in boxes, as boats. If you ever look at one of them, they're really cool, like a boat. How there's different "rooms" and stuff.. So Id put that in my tub, pretending it was a boat, and have the characters on the boat, having all kinds of adventures. My grandparents' house was Japan, and the guest house was China....Part of Japan was the "land of the horses," because my grandparents have a lot of horse figurines, lol.. And as for the outside? Very rarely would I go out, but it was cool, cuz some of the toys would live in plants, which would be like tree houses for them. I wouldn't play with my toys in a normal way, though. Then again, I'm not really sure of what the "normal way to play with toys" is. But I really don't think I did play with them the normal way. Seriously, I'd get all into it. I built a castle for my toys out of cardboard, paper, tons of milk cartons, chopsticks, made a portcullus, painted it, looked real cool. I'd also make tapestries... lol.. I still have them up.. in my bedroom, they're small, so toy-size, but yeah.. Heh..It's cute.. I don't really get them though... One of them has a picture of a door on it and it says "DOOR" and the other one has a huge sword on it and it says "GIANT"... I really don't know...I think maybe because.. during that time was when I had a bunkbed and on the top of the bunkbed were all these stuffed animals which are "giant" compared to the little toys, and the door was the sign of entrance or exit to beddy bye land...I was trying to do some kind of United Nations thing there with the "flags" or something...Even though they look like tapestries...They're "hung" like them, anyway... Anyway, my plots were really cool... A lot of it was about romance, deceit, betrayal, and of course, sex. Wait, WHAT?? SEX?? Yes, sex. I was about 10 or so, and already I was having episodes of sex. I mean, I wouldn't really play it out with my toys..I'd be close, I guess... I'd just "show" some parts in my episode, and have it in there when Nicole would try to get information out of someone but could only do so by tempting the bad guy... |