Still, things about you remain confusing.
The ways you act, the things you do.
At times it's hard, but I must keep refusing
my strong feelings for you.
I thought they were gone;
Never to be seen again.
But I see they're still there.
Once again, like a thief in the night
You've stolen my heart and given meaning to life.
I really wish this didn't happen again,
'cause I know something this time
that I didn't know before; That something
that brings my heart great pain.
I know this time around that
there's no chance to make you mine.
What to do now, I'm really not sure.
I'm afraid that if I get too close
I might lose control.
The control over the feelings I have for you,
But until I figure it out I'll just be your friend.
Keyon M. Smith
03/10/1995
If... I told you how I feel;
Would you (like others of the past)
play with my feelings as if they weren't real?
If... I shared with you my very essence;
Would you (like the others) build up my hopes,
then destroy them along with my self-confidence?
If... I asked you that certain question;
Would you (like somebody else)
call it obsession?
If... I expressed my feelings for you;
Would you lead me on (like someone else did)
then all of a sudden break my heart in two?
If... I asked you a month in advance;
Would you (like her) tell me two weeks before
to find someone else to take to the dance?
If... I shared my feelings for you;
Would you, (like none of the others)
just tell me the truth?
Keyon M. Smith
11/05/1995
I know how much I care for you,
but I wonder; Do you feel that way too?
I would like to imagine so,
but that I just can't do.
If I think that, and it's not true
I'll most likely experience deja vu.
That's why I can't let my imagination go.
For I fear I may fall in love with you.
Not that I wouldn't want to,
but you'd have to feel the same way too.
That's something that I seriously doubt.
Nothing in my life seems to work out.
As I think back, I've felt something
for you when we first exchanged words
that day in November while raining.
Then, I was too blind to see what that was.
But now my mind is somewhat free.
Free to realize my feelings for thee.
Those feelings which I no longer could hide.
I couldn't hide them from your eyes.
That first day you noticed something wrong.
Until you found out you kept asking all along.
I really wanted to tell you that night.
Until you told me who you like.
That really hurt deep within my heart.
Then you asked me again, but "Where to start?"
I told you half of it later on that eve.
Then the hard part right before you had to leave.
I felt like a punk after you had gone.
I had realized that I shouldn't have waited so long
to tell you; It was you I was thinking about.
If not for a promise, you wouldn't have found out.
I still want to discuss that evening.
'Cause there are many questions we are leaving
unanswered. And now that you know;
I wonder, from here where do we go?
Keyon M. Smith
04/06/1995
Just for you
I'd do anything.
I'd climb the highest mountain,
swim the deepest sea.
Just for you
There's nothing I wouldn't do.
I'd go anywhere,
even the ends of the earth to find you.
Just for you
I'd give up my life,
just to end your simple
troubles, worries, and strife.
Just for you
All of my words would be true.
I'd start and end every day,
saying "I love you".
Keyon M. Smith
02/03/1996
¿Por qué te amo?
Yo no sé.
¿Tu belleza? ¿Tu personalidad?
Sí, pero eso no es todo.
La causa verdadera, yo no sé.
Yo sólo sé que
hay algo especial de tí.
Algo que hace que mis emociones
sean difícil para controlar.
Algo que te mantiene en mis pensamientos
cada minuto de cada día.
Cuando yo te miro,
Veo alguien que gustaría proteger.
Te amo.
Keyon M. Smith
02/10/1996
Just now I realize how I feel about you
and I ask myself why before now I never knew.
I know I felt something, but wasn't assured
and most of the time to others was I lured.
Just now I see that I was blind
and missed the chance to maybe make you mine.
Before you were just a friend who I could talk to
when life was a mess, but now it's different.
Now I have all these feelings for you.
Just now I find myself thinking all the time
what it would be like if I was yours and you were mine.
I see now that the feelings I have are true.
Just now I wonder; What do I do?
Keyon M. Smith
09/25/1995
If we were together...
I'd hold you tight;
In my arms throughout the night.
Si estuvieramos juntos...
Te diría que te amo.
Y besarte en tus labios.
If we were together...
I'd give you all of my love
And even that wouldn't be enough.
Si estuvieramos juntos...
Te diría que soy tuyo
Y suavemente, acaricaría tu mejilla.
If we were together...
My wounded heart you'd mend.
And for that, my love for you will never end.
Keyon M. Smith
05/06/1996