Across the miles if only you could read my thoughts,
I would feel your tear drops fall across my still face.
My heart would find its beat and once again I would experience that joy
of life that died inside me so long ago when I lost you.
What has taken the space of your absence I'll simply tell you this:
Memories of moments I'd only wish I could have frozen.
Love so painful, yet so necessary to go on living.
I have longed for you endlessly and the desire of wanting you
has left me so empty walking a darken path that sheds no light,
but instead it shows me the reflection of my darken soul.
My pleas continue to go unanswered
leaving me to battle with my inner spiritual-self to content.
I know you are the one that was meant to compliment my soul
and although people tell me to let go,
my heart can't free itself from the rapture of your love.
I'll Never Forget the Love That I Shared with You
I know that someday I'll get used to the fact that we're not together any more. And that maybe we won't be... ever again. Time will tell. In the meantime, though, you may be away from my arms, but you will never be very far from my heart. I know the love will never leave. There are too many memories; there were so many precious moments and wonderful times to ever try to forget... And I just want you to know that I will remember for the rest of my days, how you helped me find some happiness and some truths and how you opened some beautiful doors. I'll never forget how good it was to share a part of my life with yours. Poem by Collin McCarty
Death on a snowy night: It was a snowy night And I should have known you didn't want to come out.
But I begged you over the phone Please I want to see you
And you finally gave in So happy that you agreed
But something felt wrong within Felt it all the way to your house Even has we laughed out loud Grasping each other as we slipped On the icy ground.
I remember the way you smiled
And pleaded with me
Asking me where we were going
And I replied "you'll see"
I knew how much I loved you
Want to spend my life with you
All the time we've spent together
Look at how much we grew
Staring at your face
The bright lights blinding me
Wasn't ready for what happened next
Yet It's all still clear to me
The impact of the car
Ramming into the side
Throwing my head into the glass
Some teenagers on a joyride
I woke later that night
Your scream ringing in my ear
Laying in a hospital bed
Suddenly remembering why I'm here
Dashed out of the door
And headed down the hall
Spotted your family standing there
Lose of breath caused me to fall
They lead me into the room
Still unable to believe
You promised me forever
Why did you have to leave
Kissed your pale forehead
And said a final goodbye
Then quickly went from the room
A single tear fell from my eye
Walked out into the snow
And across the street
I lost a part of my soul
And my life was incomplete
Pulled the gun from my pocket
And put it to my head
In a minute I'd be with you
Laying in our death bed
Closed my eyes tight
And pulled the trigger slow
Didn't even feel the pain Of the bullets blow
I Woke from my slumber with a start
My breath heavy and quick
My head still pounding
Like I'd been hit with a brick
Then all the memories came back
Still haunted by your face
I told you it was forever
These times will never erase
Dream of you every night
Even though you don't know me
Maybe someday I'll find you
In this new life that's come to be
Until the day I die
And even after death
I will love you forever
Even after my final breath
SAD SUICIDE: She cut her wrist at school today
She sliced across then turned away
It happened during Math around nine o five
She watched her blood drip to make sure she was alive
All alone in her stall
She hears that devils call
The one that will lead to her death
The one that will take her last breath
She slices quickly down her vein
Thoughts of dying race through her brain
She doesn't notice a teacher walk in
She doesn't notice her heart fill with sin
Her blood drips quickly to the floor
Her mind saying i want more
She keeps up drawing with her knife
She keeps up ending her life
In a bathroom stall she slowly dies
In her soul are all those lies
She neatly puts down her suicide note
Words saying I could never cope
She lays her delicate head on the floor
Her suicidal mind saying i need no more
Gracefully she closes her eyes
Bleeding away all her lies
Like an angel her soul flies away
A young girl took her life today
So many times:
You've cause tears
Forming beihnd my eyes
I try so hard to hide my fears
For if I grow so weak
And fall apart letting them show
you'll use your mind tricks and games
Calling me out to play
The way you play
It's just not fair
So when your calling my name and the father isn't here
you know you've caught me now
You know these fears are free'd
You've found my weaknesses
You've found those fears
For when the father isn't here
My hearts too weak
My minds not clear
Once you've grasped me in your hand
You think it's time
You think I'm yours
Beginnning to play with me
I'm now just your toy
I've fallen hard
I can't get up
Why is the father not here
Why can't he hear my plea
Temptation has come
I can't escape
Let me go I hate this place
I don't want to cry
I don't want to die
I don't want to hate myself
Yet temptation has come
I can't be safe
Kicking an screaming
I'm fighting back
But I'm just too weak
It's God I lack
Yet temptaion has come
I can't see clear
My vision is blurred
By the tight grip of this game
Let me go now
I'm not your little toy
I don't want to play
Yet temptation has come
I can't stay away
(This poem..if you don't understand by now is about being drawn in by the temptation and game that the devil plays, and how much I wanna get away but I lack my Lord and Savior. So right now I feel that until I have found him again in my heart the temptations by the devil will stay.)
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IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME: It should have been me not her
but everything now comes as
a blur
I stepped in for only a minute
and because of that my
sisters life is finished
I looked outside and she was there
I looked again and i was scared
I saw the white car slam on the break
I ran out and said please god let this be fake
At that moment i knew her life was in danger
And i sat there holding her and out of the car stepped a stranger
When i looked up at the car it looked splashed with red paint
At that moment i felt faint
He just looked down and said in a sad voice I'm sorry
We were at the hospital until the sky went starry
At 2am she came in a pronounced her dead
I cried no! And mom just kissed my head
At the funeral we said our goodbyes
I saw all the sadness I heard
all the cries
But I look now and theres an extra
star in the sky...And i close my
eyes
I will never have said my full goodbyes
NO ONE KNOWS:
No one knows
Anything but what they see
But they don't know
About the true life of me.
I try to look happy
And content with my life
But inside I'm upset
Thinking of all of the strife.
My heart breaks
Every time my parents fight
I pull the headphones over my ears
Ready to face another horrible night.
I'm struggling with depression
A drowning sadness in my heart
It hurts me to think
That my parents are growing apart.
What happened to our simple life
When we all got along?
Was it because of me?
Was there something I did wrong?
I can't take this much longer
I don't know how much I can stand
Arguments and hateful words
Dismiss any comfort at hand.
I cling to the few happy things in my life
Like the warmth of a friend's loving word
Or the welcoming arms of my one and only
And the people who listen when I want to be heard.
But no one knows
They believe only what they see
They wouldn't understand
The true life of me.
Lost my best friend: As I sit and think about me and you
and about the things we used to do
We used to talk on and on everyday
never used to bother what the others say
We spent hours talking on the phone
whenever we felt we were alone
We did favours and helped each other
now it seems you chose another
You said our friendship is never ending
But it seems it needs some mending
Never thought of loosing a best friend
I hate to know that it is the end
Thought you would be with me here
by my side through all the years
Now you have left me torn apart
with tears in my eyes and a broken heart
Looked like our friendship would last
but it looks like a thing of the past
You hate me and I don't know why
I just don't wanna say goodbye
Maybe its because I'm bad
or thought of me make you mad
You an leave me or you can lie
but I will never say goodbye
You walk close to me
but u pass me by
and you pretend that
our freindship was lie
I wipe the tears of my eyes
and try to forget all your lies
Never knew this is how it would end
loosing my best friend !
DEAR MOTHER: Dear Mother
All my life you've worked so hard
Always kept me under your guard
Everything negative you taught me to discard
For all you've done you deserve a reward
Dear Mother Not only have you been my mother but you've been my father too
Because of the kind of woman you are I look up to you
No matter what happened you always pushed through
I know the love you have for our family is so true
Dear Mother
You've made me who I am today
You stayed right by my side when skies were gray
Never once did you give up and walk away
I hope that one day the love and dedication you have I can somehow portray
Dear Mother
I appreciate everything you have ever done for me
You've been my guiding light since I was just a baby
You've made us the type of family that people envy
I would do anything for you, even die, I hope that you can see
Dear Mother
I promise to always take care of you because you are such a rare find
You always kept me close and never were unkind
Your motherly love has always shined
For all that you are I love you Dear Mother on mine
The day we met: I'm finally happy
I have you to thank
cuz I'm just so lucky
you weren't really that great.
I'm finally smiling
and I just can't stop,
and you've made it so easy
by not being so hot.
I'm finally happy
you don't have to ask why
but thank you for leaving
now I no longer must lie.
I lied many times
when I said that I cared.
I lied to your face
when I said I wanted you there.
I felt so guilty,
all of the time
because every I love you
was only a lie.
So thank you for "loving"
and thank you for leaving
you made my life hell
until the day you left!
Now I'm finally happy...
without a single regret...
except for maybe,...
THE DAY WE MET?!?!
MY ANGEL :: Flew down from above,
To teach me a lesson
About the powers of love.
She whispers to me,
Take a hold of my hand,
There are so many things
I wish you to understand.
About the powers of love,
And all it can do,
To someone who needs
To share it with you.
A pat on the back,
A kind smile on your face,
Can make someone's life,
A much brighter place.
It doesn't take much,
To show someone you care,
To give them the love,
God gave you to share.
So please keep in mind,
All the powers you possess,
To grace someone's life,
When they're in distress.
You've been put on this earth
To bestow the powers of love,
And with those final words,
She disappeared up above.
When bad things happen people always blame them on God.
And then people think oh yeah everything, "Happens for a reason" but why this why now.
Some people wish that they could of said something, but now it is to late.
And even though they know something can happen just like that *snap*,
They don't tell the ones they care about just how much they love them.
Some people also start saying they hate god,
How can you hate God?
He brings and makes so many miracles that cause joy.
He made you, giving you a chance to live.
He brings love ones together,
He's always there to help you though,
He can give you courage and strength, all you have to do is ask.
Yes he also brings violence and death, things people wish wouldn't happen.
But if nothing bad ever happened no one would enjoy the good.
And when ever God takes someone away from us,
either young or old you just have to remember,
he only takes the very Best!
Dear Friend:
How are you? I just had to send you this letter to tell you how much I love
and care about you. I saw you yesterday as you were walking with your
friends. I waited all day, hoping you would talk to Me also.
As evening drew near, I gave you a sunset to close your day and a cool
breeze to rest you, and I waited. You never came. Oh yes, it hurt Me, but I
still love you because I am your friend.
I saw you fall asleep last night, and I longed to touch your brow, so I
spilled moonlight upon your pillow and face. Again I waited, wanting to rush
down so we could talk. I have so many gifts for you.
You awakened late and rushed off for the day... My tears were in the rain.
Today you looked so sad, so alone. It makes my heart ache because I
understand. My friends let Me down and hurt Me many times too, but I love
you. I try to tell you in the quiet green grass; I
shout it to you in the colors of the flowers. I shout it to you in the
mountain streams, and give the birds love songs to sing.
I clothe you with warm sunshine and perfume the air. My love for you is
deeper than oceans and bigger than the biggest want or need you have.
We will spend eternity together in heaven. I know how hard it is on
earth, I really know (because I was there), and I want to help you. My Father
wants to help you too. He's that way, you know. Just call Me, ask Me, talk
to Me. It is your decision. I have chosen you, and because of this I will
wait... Because I love you.
Don’t Take The Girl
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Johnny’s daddy was taking him fishing
When he was eight years old.
A little girl came through the front gate
Holding a fishing pole.
His dad looked down and smiled,
Said, "We can’t leave her behind.
Son, I know you don’t want her to go
But someday you'll change your mind."
And Johnny said,
"Take Jimmy Johnson.
Take Tommy Thompson.
Take my best friend Bo.
Take anybody that you want, as
Long as she don’t go.
Take any boy in the world.
Daddy please- don't take the girl."
Same old boy,
Same sweet girl,
Ten years down the road.
He held her tight and kissed her lips
In front of the picture show.
Stranger came and pulled a gun,
Grabbed her by the arm,
Said, "If you do what I tell you to do
There won't be any harm."
And Johnny said,
"Take my money.
Take my wallet.
Take my credit cards.
Here’s the watch that my grandpa gave me.
Here’s the keys to my car,
Mister give it a whirl,
But please-don't take the girl."
Same old boy,
Same sweet girl,
Five years down the road.
There’s gonna be a little one
And she says it’s time to go.
Doctor says, "…the baby’s fine,
But, you’ll have to leave
‘Cause his momma’s fading fast."
And Johnny hit his knees
And there he prayed.
"Take the very breath you gave me.
Take the heart from my chest.
I’ll gladly take her place
If you'll let me
Make this my last request.
Take me out of this world,
God please-don’t take the gIRL
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