| Untitled my head is swollen i'm falling deeper down and down i fall i look up to see your light, your face i haven't seen you in so long i was getting worried i wake up with my pillow soaked i can almost feel your hands on my face but it wasn't even love i'm sure it seemed like so at the moment the pain i mistook for compassion i thought the more i hurt the more i loved and things i tried to tell myself to stupify my own identity and these reoccurying dreams that haunt me night to night and i wake up 4 am remembering how you used to calm me down when crying but there is no one here to wrap themselves around this bed is unbearably large and i am freezing maybe i should leave this town and forget all about the people, places, run-down coffee shops where i seem to see too many familiar faces and expressions that i'm better off without i should just get out and run away while i still can it's too cold and quiet here no soft words spoken to keep me intact and no one cares if anyone else dissapears from here so maybe i'll take off and find myself somewhere else on a train to new destinations and start over wiping my slate clean of all the past concerns and one night stands |
| Change and he tries to tell me that times are always changing and i'm getting terrified of being here all alone he says you're better off without it and i can't stop crying he tries to comfort me with words i say i don't want things to change and i want us back to where we began those complicated messes cloud our minds to think we must stop caring but that can't be true because you still catch me when i fall you're still crying if i'm leaving i wake up early in the morning just so i can hear you breathing i try to change it all myself to keep things where they were but it's not even working and it's scaring to me to say i think we're gone now watercolored smiles withered away sugar coated kisses dulling out the light of day i am not myself i do not know where i belong i keep on crying till i hear the door close when you're gone |
| Untitled sweet was day but nightfall is coming my way and i can't win without you i'm falling apart can't save again what we keep leaving behind if you can't see everything you mean to me and i get home the silence is welcoming me your words will still keep echoing throughout this house i sleep alone just want to exsist by myself my mind lets go because i can't cling to you anymore |
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| Grains of Sand let me in then let me go can't hold on to the past no more i hate every single grain of sand and every single memory closing in on me everything turning a deeper shade of blue i feel your mouth swallow me deep into what i'm stuggling so hard to get out of |