The rain outside my window,
all the tears, humanities sorrow.
The crack of the lightning as it strikes,
the harsh words said, that one so dislikes.
The darkness fills the once bright skies,
life hidden beneath your blanket of lies.
The color removed, it's gone black and white,
please give me the strength to remove this fright.
You watch the rain fall, washing away your dreams,
is this the reality you choose, or only as it seems.
The darkness of clouds slowly starts to part,
are you willing to take a chance, to trust your heart.
The sun shines through, amidst the storm, a rainbow appears,
will this help you to trust yourself and to calm your fears.
The birds come our of hiding and again begin to sing,
the colors again warming, the sadness of darkness lifting.
Copyright November 6, 2002
So tired of the hurt and the pain,
wishing it would all just end.
Not wanting to die, yet not wanting to live,
how much more pain does life have to give?
One thing gets better, then something gets worse,
starting to wonder what's wrong, is this my curse?
I just want all of the pain to just go away,
dreaming of just one normal, pain free day.
The sleepless nights, the depression sets in,
will anyone ever help, or care to even begin?
My quiet suffering I bear all alone,
knowing that someday it might be gone.
I try to tuck it away and hide the pain,
but the tears begin again, falling like rain.
My strength is fading, my will is low,
wondering if anyone will ever really know.
I long for the day I am free of this burden,
to again soar high, just as the great falcon.
To you, I give my pain, as an offering,
hoping that you can end my Quiet Suffering.
Copyright December 22, 2002
Why does it seem sometimes, the people who mean the most,
are always the ones that hurt you the worst?
Am I such a hated person for being me,
or am I just straight out cursed?
You have said that you really do care,
but speaking those words, how could you dare.
The knife you just stabbed in, went straight to my heart,
tore it to shreds, into a million parts.
But, do not cry for me, for you don't care.
I will keep my tears hidden from your sight,
as hard as it is, with my heart I must fight.
You will never see the deep, dark fears,
but the end of what was, now nears.
If this is what loving someone should be,
then never again shall it be for me.
This hurt goes deep inside, leaving many scars,
as if my soul has been through many wars.
I will not seek comfort in your arms,
for tonight you killed your winning charms.
Back deep within myself I will go,
never again letting my true self show.
You have played with love, as if it's a toy,
I can see how little you care, just by your joy.
I wish you luck, love, and all the happiness,
but from you, I have only received sadness.
Never again, shall I open my heart to begin,
for there is no hiding, so much Pain Within.
Copyright September 5, 2002
