I can feel your eyes watching me,
wishing you would look close enough to see.
That what you are thinking is not true,
and that you are making me feel so blue.
Wishing that just once someone would trust me,
but knowing that will never be.
Wondering how many times I must get hurt,
before I learn how to protect my heart.
Wanting to hold you so very close,
but knowing with me, you have not chose.
You say I am a dream and out of reach,
but learning to love me, I want to teach.
No one will ever be strong enough to see,
who I really am and can be.
I will be lost and alone for the rest of time,
wondering what did I do to deserve this?
To the past I am looking for answers I seek,
hoping for love that forever I can keep.
I start getting close to you thinking maybe,
just to find out once again, it will not be.
It's time to lock away my heart,
so never again it can be broken apart.
Never again to trust anyone with my emotions.
COpyright March 12, 2002
I opened my life and heart to you in trust,
all I got in return where your lies.
I sit here now in such disgust of you,
for you cannot hear my lonely cries.
You took my love for nothing but a game,
how can I ever again be the same?
Trust is not given, it's something you earn,
asking myself, when will I ever learn?
My head tells me to forgive and forget,
how can I do that without the regret?
I want to trust myself in the choices I make,
who is truly real, and who is truly fake?
One lie leading to another, meant to deceive,
where do I find the truth I want to receive?
Wanting to escape from life that's real,
but not thinking how others might feel.
I let you into my once guarded heart,
you took advantage, from the very start.
How do I tell you that now it's too late,
what once was love has now become hate.
I hope you are happy, and can go on and live,
but for my and my heart, I shall Never Forgive!
Copyright September 2, 2002
You've made yourself too hard to hold,
turning around, and walking away I go.
I gave you my heart, along with my soul,
but it wasn't enough to thaw your heart, so cold.
Maybe someday you'll look back and you'll see,
that what you lost was very special, it was me.
I was within your reach, close enough to grasp,
but your tongue was barbed, it stung like a wasp.
I shall walk away with only one true regret,
you will always be in my heart, a lone silhouette.
To trust me, you could not do, not once, not ever,
you made your choice, and have lost me forever.
Never did you look inside to see the real me,
it was easier for you to believe the lies, then in me.
Forever I will think of you with such sorrow,
for you never looked forward to a good tomorrow.
I decided that I deserve better, and set you free,
for my heart always knew, we were Never Meant To Be.
Copyright September 8, 2002
