Range of
Friendship: Billy
By: TKStyles
Journal Entry 1232
It has crossed my mind that I have not written a new entry in about four
months; my "other life" has begun to make it increasingly harder to
do so. Much has happened during those four months: Three of my oldest friends
left and I gained three more in their place. I find myself thinking over my
relationships with my friends, both old and new. Zack was always full of energy
and never seen without a smile. He always went out of his way to cheer me and
any of his friends up. I will miss his carefree-ness and sense of humor. Then
there is Jason, my oldest friend. He will definitely be missed; he became like
the bigger brother I never had. Trini, what can I say about her. She was the
first person to truly understand me. We share a closeness that leaves many
people outside of our circle of friends amazed. Her leaving has prompted me to
try to express myself more clearly and plainly. Funny, it seems in my journal
entries I accomplished this quite well long ago. Now if I can just learn how to
bring that out in my verbal conversations.
My old friends may be gone but the new ones seem to have adequately filled
their void. Adam is the one out of the three who understands me the best. I can
tell he and I are going to gain almost as close a bond as I held with Trini.
Rocky fills Zack's shoes admirably in terms of the humor department. Aisha's
fierce loyalty and drive are second only to Tommy. While I'm on Tommy, I have
to say I'm glad he is back. There has never been a more self-sacrificing
friend. I know he would put himself in danger before he would ever let any of
his friends get hurt.
Out of the original five only Kim and I are left. Kim, my first crush, my
second oldest friend, and the one who gave me the idea to start a journal more
than three years ago. She has a kindness that is sometimes hard to believe. She
was always popular, even when we were young. She never let it go to her head
though, through all the years she has stayed one of my most steadfast friends.
Kim is the one who would never let me look down on myself. Mentally Trini and I
may have been closer, but Kim is the one I always go to for matters of the
heart. She has opened my eyes to the attention that it seems girls give me. I
never knew any of them saw me in that light before Kim pointed out the signs. I
wonder if Trini ever thought of me that way? More thoughts for me to ponder on
when next I have freedom to write.
Sincerely,
William Cranston