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My Mutual Friend
Tamara Shah
May 12, 2005

Forever we'll be mutual friends
Forever now until the end

The end of what no one really
Knows
Where and
Why and
When;

We met each other one strange day
When nothing seemed to block our way
Of all eventful deeds as much;
Invincible we were to touch;

We stood our ground without a fear
Never did we shed a tear;
Our youthful days that had become us
Seemed to be so full between us;

Life for me was grand with thought
Of husband, babies, house with lot,
While you were still in love with her
And hoping and praying for much greater;

I will never understand how this
Overcoming happiness and bliss
Could have taken the wrong turn
And been lost after we did earn;

I thought I had done nothing wrong
To take a friend in happy song;
You knew from words and in my eyes
That our friendship meant no lies;

You made me remember the happier times
From back home with the closer binds;
So I ran away with all I could
Thinking it the best I should;

But i say again in sorrow and pain
What did I gain?
For I stand alone now in my head
With every tear now I have shed;

But still the pain of losing you
Is in my head a fateful hue;
I try to brush the pain away
But somehow tears come back each day;

Did we ever mean to harm
With loving kindness, sometimes charm?
Or did we say a word in strife
That cut our hearts out with a knife?

Maybe we were blind.
Nothing comes to mind.

All I know is now I'm lost
And get back, I'm lost;

I hurt someone else important to me
The love of my life, so you can see;
He's always been there in the dark
To take my hand and hit the mark;

I guess I lost my grip one night
In anger, confusion, maybe fright;
But you were there to take my hand
So I took your hand and away i ran...

They say that humans make mistakes
But never thought I for goodness sakes!

So what's my gain?
I fear it to be pain;
The pain of losing your time,
The moments of a closer bind;

I now push on each hour
Trying to find the power
To take my lover's hand in mine
And tell him everything is fine;

I feel he knows it not to be
Even though he's still in love with me;
His patient eyes say he will wait
For me to come back, for it is fate;

But yet I feel something keeps me from it
And I hate to admit it...

He stripped my friend away from me
Without a chance to mend, you see...

Because...

Forever we'll be mutual friends
Forever now until the end
The end of what no one really
Knows
Where and
Why and
When...

So here we are again...
I know you understand...

to j.s.