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Dear Diary,

     Well, the wedding planning is off to a good start.  We've got our location, where we and the families are staying, our honeymoon, the florist, my dress, all taken care of.  My mom is picking up her new Toyota Crew Cab Tacoma  tomorrow!  I'm excited for her.  I go in for chest xrays tomorrow, I've been in a lot of pain on my left side for the past week and a half and finally decided to go in, only my doctor sent me to urgent care. 
     Joel's new job is going well, except for today a piece of foam flew off his truck and hit a car, no real damage was done though.  This job has been such a blessing to us.
     My mom and Holly are planning my bridal shower and are having a great time doing so.  I told them I didn't need to okay anything, and to suprise me, but I do know that the theme is a Garden tea party.

More later!  Sorry guys

   
March 29th, 2005
    Well, My holiday weekend was not that great.  NOrmally you should be focused on Jesus and the sacrifice He made for us, but instead Joel and I stpent the day disagreeing on who we should spend the day with.  We hurt each other's feelings and he hurt my mom's feelings as well, which in turn hurt me more.  We started off the weekend on the wrong foot on friday and it just got worse.  It all started when Connie decided she needed to lecture Joel about putting his foot down with me, since he told her they couldn't use my wood side boards to load her big screen t.v. onto the uhaul, because they were scratching them.  Instead of being mad at her and being normal with me, he had an attitude with me when I got home, and instead of me recognizing this pattern I got upset with him and complained about him to Connie.  We both messed up.  Anyways, little things happened that upset us on Saturday, and then Sunday the disagreeing started.  Monday I spent the day upset and emotional, and on top of all my personal feelings, my manager called me to let me know one of the babies had died in the hospital on Saturday.  Joel and I hit a point today where we both were just done and had to sit down and really talk.  I pray that God is with us and guides us, and that this whole relationship is His will.