5 - I am having a hard time with my emotions lately. I realized very soon after my surgery how much I used food for a crutch. I had no idea. Now that I can't go to food for comfort and I also can't drink (well, I can technically, but I am saving it for a special event in August.. my 6 month post op). One minute I am very happy, which is fine of course.. but its when I am down that it is really tough. I am having a hard time when I meet new people.. to them, I am still big and they judge me accordingly. They don't know how far I have come so thats a little frustrating. Also, juggling my credit card debt from this surgery is not "fun" either.. so that gets to me at times. Don't get me wrong.. I am still SOOOOOO happy I did this and wouldn't un-do it at all.
10 - MM#3 - I can stretch my leg straight up in the air without my knee bent at all. I can also pull my knee to my chest to do some lower back stretches that I have needed to do forever! One bad thing that is happening now though is I am losing a ton of hair. I hear that it is normal anytime someone loses weight fast through any means, and I know it will grow back.. I don't look like I am balding or anything... luckily, I have very thick hair so other than the annoying part of it, I could stand to lose some and be fine. I am also not sleeping well lately. I don't know if it is stress, depression, or what.. but lack of sleep is starting to make me a cranky-pants. :-(
20 - I am down 73 now.. yeah! I am really starting to notice changes in my body. Its weird re-discovering places I haven't seen in a while.. haha.
23 - Down 83! Ok, so I am shrinking and getting into smaller clothes, ya, ya, - its been fun, but I have dieted so many times in the past and lost weight and got into smaller things.. but it is REALLY weird to just get rid of clothes and KNOW I can because I won't be gaining the weight back and wearing them again. So far, I have been very happy to let them go. I make weekly trips to Opportunity Village, but can't afford to buy many new things. Saturday, I was at Walmart with my neice and I spotted a pair of size 18 jeans on sale for $5. I figured, its a good price and I will be in them soon, but I thought I would check and see "how far" off I am. I was thinking they would get stuck half way up my thighs. I pulled them up and was amazed. They didn't really come close to closing, but I thought.... what the heck.. so I sucked in some big air and buttoned and zipped them! I walked out to show my neice and started crying! I was soooo happy. I won't be able to "comfortably" wear them for a few weeks-to a month, but I got them on!
My wonderful uncle, Don, is in town tonight so am going to see him and then I am going to Portland this weekend and enjoying some sight-seeing and some R&R. I haven't posted a pic for this month yet. I will try to get a good one in Oregon so stay tuned!
31 - MM#4 & MM#5 - The first one happened when I put my seat belt on in the airplane. WOW, what a difference to not only wear it without an extender, but to pull the strap to tighten it.. what a neat feeling. The second one happened when my old neighbor in Portland didn't recognize me even after I spoke.. that was way cool. I am currently Down 80. Yup, I went on vacation and I gained a few pounds... yuck! I ate way too much! I didn't get any good pictures of me in Portland so I will be skipping this months picture update. I look pretty much the same as I am only down about 10 pounds from the last picture.
