| 12 Months On Testosterone (1 Year) September 20th 2002 Introduction: Wow, has it really been 1 year so far? Time can fly by very fast. I still remember the morning after my first shot. I woke up and jumped out of bed dancing and singing ‘’ I’m on T, it’s meant to be!’’… This last past year has been very good to me. Starting testosterone and having chest surgery are the 2 best and most rewarding things that I have done in all of my 20 years. I’ve come to the point where I don’t even realize that I have to go get shots of testosterone. It all feels so natural and like I am already producing this amount into my body. All of my testosterone results have been AMAZING. Words can’t even describe the happiness I have got from my physical transition. Everything feels so right. This is who I am meant to be and this is how I am happy. Before I started testosterone, I asked myself many deep questions to make sure I was more then 100% serious. I also educated myself on everything that could happen/will happen to me. My therapist said to me right before I started hormones, ‘’If this improves your life, then you know it is right for you’’ - I completely agree with her on this. Transitioning has changed my life around, for the best. Not only have I physically changed but mentally/emotionally I have changed as well. I think I have matured a lot and I am growing into the man that I am. Testosterone did not change my mental aspects but the results from it sure did help, the rest has been all on me. I have never felt more stronger, responsible, capable, positive minded, proud, happy and confident, as I do now. I know a lot of you visit my site. I want to thank everyone for all the feedback; it’s because of you that I have this site going. At first it was really hard for me to flat out expose myself to the World Wide Web, but I have gotten use to doing my updates and grown more comfortable as each one passes. As many of you know (but for the rest that do not), I do not identify as transgender, transsexual, tranny boy, ftm, etc. I will not tolerate someone labeling me as any of those either. One thing I would like to point out is: I don’t not identify as any of those just because I am on T, have had surgery and think im ''so cool and manly looking''! I don’t identify as any of those because those labels do nothing for me/do not justify who I am/do not fit me and I do not feel comfortable with them!!! Only I can identify myself and only I can live my life, which is exactly what I am doing… 1 Year on Testosterone Changes: I’m going to document from head to toe, what I have seen happen in the last year…I am writing this all off the top of my head. I am not going back to my earlier updates to compare anything… *Hair Changes* Hairline: My hairline has slightly started to recede. I have found my hairline hairs to be thinner. During the last couple of months, my hair has started to come out. I have noticed a lot of hair loss and it scared the hell out of me. As of September, I have started to use Rogaine. I will continue to use this in order to see results. I also got my testosterone level checked to make sure it was not up to high. I have been getting 150mg of T per shot. which is a 'normal' dosage for a guy my size. My test results came back. My liver is in perfect condition and my T level is at 'average male', therefore we are NOT lowering my dosage. I would alot like to make note that we changed my dosage from cipionate or enthanate because there has been a SHORTAGE of cipionate and i have switched clinics where i get my shots. IT will be alot easier for them to locate my T now. My endo asked me to see if i notice any difference between the two forms of testosterone. Cipionate will be on major back order until early 2003....Testosterone could NOT be the only reason causing my hair loss. Other reasons include: frequent dying of my hair, large amounts of styling products on my diva ass hair do, not enough vitamins and nutrition in my body, effects from my eating disorder, etc. Loosing hair unexpectedly is very scary though. Waking up with multiple hairs on your pillow, large amounts of hair at the bottom of your bathtub or fingers full of hair on your hands after you touch it, is not the best experience in the world. I would prefer to keep as much hair on my head as possible. *Facial Changes* Face Shape: My face shape has dramatically changed! My jaw line is a lot more masculine. My cheeks do not seem so plump anymore. My nose has grown from T. I was told ahead of time that this could/might happen. I didn’t believe it but its true. Bone growth in the nose can happen on T, I know from experience. The cartilage on the tip of my nose is also a lot fuller making it chubbier. Facial Hair: On to the good shit man, almost better then sex! Well not quite but I get just as happy seeing my facial hair as I do when I see a hot and hard Daddy type (don’t get my fag ass started)! The most facial hair has come in on my chin. I have a goatee that I wouldn’t shave for the world. My jaw line hair has started to come in but is not full. I still darken everything with mascara although it is long enough to dye with beard dye. My sideburns are taking their pretty little time on coming in. They are light colored and sparse. Hair grows down my neck too. My upper lip hair is sparse. The hair where a beard can form is also sparse. My soul patch (under my lip) is non-existent as of now. Some odd places I have formed peach fuzz from the neck up are: forehead, sides of temples, my eyebrows seem bushier, the sides of my ear (yuck) and up my nostrils (double yuck)! Ear/nose hair and all and I’m still very happy with my facial hair results! Boo ya! Facial Skin: Oil factory to the max… it’s pizza time kids and I’m not talking fresh baked out of the oven! My acne has never been worse. I have black heads, I have white heads, I have big red colored zit heads, I have a hot brunette head man in my bed waiting for me as I type this (I wish), I have cysts and bumpy oily skin! I have tried many things to help my acne. The only thing that seems to help (non prescription) is stuff that is oil free and contains sulfur or salicylic acid. The prescription I have been using on my face is Differin Gel. I have seen doctors regarding this issue. My therapist/endocrinologist also believes that if my T level bloods work test results come back and my T level is too high, that this is why I am getting such hardcore acne. So don’t be scared of T just because of my zitty results, there is hope for everyone! Also I have this acne trick (that DOES work) that I do with paper tape to help minimize my zits/heal them up. I posted this in my live journal but if you did not see it or would like to see it, then please email me for all the details! Testosterone Changes Page 2 |