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undone
09/28/00 10:04 PM
undone
the friendships
i've cultivated
fought so hard
to keep alive
in one simple
solitary moment
gone
undone
words spoken
in anger
imprinted
forever
on time's face
yet now
i wonder
why did i fight so hard?
what did i do it for?
i was the only one
who cared enough to try
and solve the problems
and now
i am blamed for
the very things
i fought against
so what did i do it for?
for me?
for them?
i wonder
why friendships
only yesterday
cast in stone
today
come so easily
undone
blue
Prayer
Posted on 09/30/00
09:50 AM
In RE this week we were told to write a prayer that
covers every aspect of life.
I'm not sure if I got it right, but here it is anyway.
Prayer
I pray for all the children
the future of our land
I pray that you will hold them
In the palm of your hand
When we find ourselves in trouble
and temptation comes to call
When our lives become a struggle
Dear Lord, help us though it all
I pray for all the lonely
That they might find above
What those on earth deny them
Unconditional love
I pray for all the sickly
the dying, and the dead
I pray that when they leave here
They find peace in heav'n instead
Dear Lord, please watch over us
as we journey from day to day
Love, keep and protect us
In each and every way
Mixed Emotions
Posted on 10/01/00 09:14 PM
This was written by a friend,
who has some sort of complex about her work. She insists
it is no good, but ever since I refused to let her throw
away her first poems, she has let me read it. I finally
got her permission to post this here, so enjoy!
Mixed Emotions
Worlds inside a dream that cries
Like life inside sad eyes
Dreams are gone from all emotions
With a world that never died
Inside the mind of lonely tears
And the fear of who we are
And we should live
Not to die
But only to live again
Prayer (rework)
Posted on 10/02/00 08:31 PM
I had to read this to my class, and a
few minutes beforehand,
I decided something was missing. So here's the revised
version....
Prayer
Dear Lord, you have blessed me
With a life that's filled with love
With happy friends and family
And many blessings from above
I know you're always there for me
I know your love is true
But there are just a few small things
I'd like to ask of you
I pray for all the chldren
The future of our land
I pray that you will hold them
In the palm of your hand
When we find ourselves in trouble
And temptation comes to call
When our lives become a struggle
Dear Lord, help us through it all
I pray for all the lonely
That they might find above
What those on earth deny them
Unconditional love
I pray for all the sickly
The dying and the dead
I pray that when they leave here
They find peace in heav'n instead
Dear Lord, please watch over us
As we journey from day to day
Love, keep and protect us
In each and every way
Amen
blue
Strange
posted on 10/12/2000
Strange
how when one is miserable
and finds no comfort
poetry
becomes the only option
the only way
to gain perspective
poetry
born of suffering
born of pain
born of anger
is very often
the best written
and yet
when one is happy
there is no need
for words
or analysis
one is just content
to be happy
and the pen lies
unused
on my desk
no words
flowing from it's tip
one day
i will write a poem
about just being happy
Annoying Things
11/08/00 09:19 PM
Finally, I got rid of my writer's block!!
This was a school asignment, but it turned out quite
funny, so here it is.
Annoying Things
There's the people who never stop smiling
The kind with their teeth sticking out
And those who, at 6 in the morning
Are always up and about
There's the people who stand at street corners
Selling 'three in one' superglue packs
Doors that never close properly
And the people who peep through the cracks
There's the people who never stop arguing
Even after you've proven them wrong
And the people who sing out of tune
And don't know the words to the song
There's the people, who, when reading a book
Spill coffee or tea on the page
And adults, whose favourite sentence
Begins with: 'When I was your age...!'
New . . . What?
posted on 11/26/00
he's new
he's different
he's annoying
he's sweet
he's obsessed
with me
i like him
i like the fact
that he likes me
i'm just not sure
if those are the right reasons
he asks for nothing more
than a quick
'i love u 2'
but for how long?
and when he finally asks
will i be able
to give him what he wants?
he's not like the other
a fact
which is
both for
and against him
i don't want
to lead him on
but i don't want
to reject him
either
but do i want him
or the other?
A Christmas Gift
12/25/00 00:49 AM
just a simple touch
in the small of my back
from my best friend's boyfriend
nothing sexual
just a kindly gesture
that lets me know he cares
up til now
i wasn't sure
if he resented me
for always being there
but now i know
he cares about me
and it makes all the difference
blue
2001
01/02/01
the world spins
ever closer
to the brink
of a new millennium
and within me
an enexplainable turmoil begins
this past year
has been a good one
but will the next
be as good?
I hope so
and while i deliberate
the world
spins on
blue
Venice
01/02/01
Venice
a city of beauty
that holds such magic
for me
Venice
the city that one day
will disappear
into the sea
Venice
the city of romance
where love stories
live and abound
Venice
the city of sunsets
where beauty unfolds
all around
when Venice
sinks into the ocean
all that will remain
for me
are the images
of the rose and gold sunsets
around the city
that floats on the sea
blue
Behind Closed Doors
01/03/01
behind closed eyes
where nothing
penetrates
the darkness
behind closed ears
where only
my beating heart
is heard
a place
of dark peace
and oppressive solitude
it is here
that i go
to shut out the pain
behind closed doors
i am falling
i sink downwards
tumbling
into the dark mists
of oblivion
behind closed doors
i am safe
it is here
i can shut out the pain
don't doubt
01/13/01
a new song i'm working on (any
volunteers to write the music?)
don't doubt
i see you wondering
if it's all worthwhile
if you should stay
or if you should go
i see you wondering
if he truly loves you
and if he's worth
what you have to go through
but i know how much he loves you
i see it in his eyes
i hear it in his voice
i know how much he loves you
i watch it everyday
and i know you know it too
i see him wondering
if it's all worthwhile
if he is hurting you
to keep you in his arms
i see him wondering
if you truly love him
and i see how much it hurts
to doubt you at all
but i know how much you love him
i see it in your eyes
i hear it in your voice
i know how much you love him
i watch it every day
and i know he knows it too
don't doubt each other
i know how much it hurts
just trust each other
and watch the magic
of love come true
you two belong together
i feel it in the air
i know how much he loves you
and i know you love him too
tomorrow
01/15/01
...and while i deliberate
the world
spins on....
tomorrow
my world changes
for good?
for bad?
i don't know
tomorrow
a new school
new friends
mingled
with old enemies
and as i try
desperately
to convince myself
that eveything will be alright
i fail
and i am afraid
of what?
i'm not sure
but i am afraid
and yet
i'm excited
tonight
i bid goodbye
to my old life
and tomorrow
my new life
begins
blue
The New Girl
(Reworked)
01/16/2001
standing alone in the corridor
not knowing quite what to do
no-one pays her any attention
because, after all, she's new
as yet, she has no place here
for who she is, or in future might be
but as everyone passes her by
they think 'i'm glad it's not me'
tomorrow - that new girl
it's going to be me
and I'm afraid, of how true
this poem might turn out to be
blue
Learn from yesterday's mistakes
Live for today's pain
Dream of tomorrow's wonders
Cold
01/20/01
strange hallways
cold
unfriendly
uninviting
even with a friend
standing by my side
i feel alone
lost in a multitude
of new faces
and new ideas
and silently
i cry for help
yet no one hears
Flight of Fantasy
01/20/01
in my dreams
where my world
of fantasy
is filled
with true friendship
and untouchable love
comes something new
a fiery darkness
enclosing me
in the safe folds
of imagined danger
and i soar
in ecstasy
on the wings of my dragons
and nothing can touch me
for i command
the darkness
these beasts
of fire and flight
hold no terror for me
and here
i am queen
of the night
and nothing
no pain
no suffering
no heartbreak
nothing
can touch me
high in the darkness
bourne
by this creature
of legends
i am free
someone new
01/28/01
someone new
i hardly know him
though we met
over a year ago
at first
i didn't even notice
that he was there
but lately
i see him
differently
i see him
as someone interesting
someone i would like
to get to know
but he doesn't see me
at least
i don't think so
he never notices me
or speak to me
the way he does
with the other girls
at first
he seemed distant
from everyone
but now
he only
seems distant
from me
and it hurts
i want him
to be my friend
and i have
the patience
to wait
for the time
when he will be
but in the meantime
it hurts
that he doesn't
even notice
that i am there
untitled
02/10/01
swirling water
drawing me
ever downwards
below the surface
maybe
i was never in danger
but i was afraid
and i am
afraid
to face
the waters
again
tomorrow
Cry
02/16/01
tonight i am going to cry
i can feel it building
just below the surface
an unending flood
of tears
threatening to break loose
i can't explain why i feel this way
but something has changed
something in the friendship we had
has changed
before, she was always there
ready with a joke and a smile
always by my side
ready to talk
but now
it's like i'm not there at all
she says she is not angry with me
but then why do i feel
as if i have done something wrong?
or is it just perhaps
that she grows tired of me?
I wish i knew
i hope it isn't true
but it is the uncertainty
that kills me
and tonight
i am going to cry
for what was
and what might be
up til now
i have been strong enough
to hold back
to keep the turmoil
under control
but tonight
i am simply too tired
to hold anything back
tonight i am going to cry
and i dread the darkness
blue
confused
02/19/01
i don't know which way i should turn
some tell me to give her space
others tell me to confront her
either way
i'm afraid of losing her
the first real friend
that i've had
for a long time
for the first time
that i can remember
i am just as happy
to see her succeed
as to succeed myself
when she was happy
i felt that i was part of it
that in some small way
she shared it with me
because we were friends
but now?
i know what i want to say
but i'm afraid
that when i try
i will simply
start to cry
and that i will not be able
to say it through my tears
they tell me that this is what she does
that i must just accept it
but i don't want to
i can't simply accept the loss
of a friendship
that has meant so much
to me and to my life
she's the first friend
i've ever had
whom i trusted completely
and now i have to wonder
if that trust has been betrayed
have i been foolish
to trust my heart to her?
i hope not
and i wish i knew
what to say to her
blue
Just Another Day
02/20/01
today was a day
like so many others
filled with hundreds of people
pushing, talking, laughing
never giving us a chance
to speak alone
today was a day
filled with hurt and pain
confusion
and bewilderment
today was a day
filled wih feverish thoughts
and worries
where everything was a blur
and nothing made sense
today was a day
much like those
that went before it
but today
there was no-one to share it with
and even while today
we laughed together
and this thing that threatens to consume me
was almost gone
it was still there beneath the surface
today
was just another day
Dream Tonight of Beautiful
Things
02/24/01
dream tonight of happiness
dream tonight of love
dream tonight of beautiful things
falling down to you from above
dream tonight of pain
dream tonight of sorrow
dream tonight of beautiful things
that will come to you tomorrow
dream tonight of sunsets
dream tonight of stars
dream tonight of beautiful things
bringing peace to all your wars
dream tonight of friendship
dream tonight of trust
dream tonight of beautiful things
in a world of love and lust
dream tonight of crying
dream tonight of tears
dream tonight of beautiful things
absolving all your fears
dream tonight of me my love
dream tonight of something true
dream tonight of beautiful things
like the love i have for you
blue
Scream
02/24/01
marble pillars rise
to a white black sky
and as the ravens fly
she screams
the harsh cry
of the insane
blue
If all is not lost - where did everything go?
Quiet
02/26/01
tonight i find
that i have no tears left
i find an empty peace
devoid of any emotion
the fears
and the sadness
are still there
but my mind
is too numb
to feel them
they lurk beneath the surface
but i have not
the strength to face them
tonight
there is simply
nothing
save a certainty
that when my tears return
there will be plenty
to cause them to fall
blue
Unfair
03/08/01
this isn't fair
it was supposed to be over
it's been nearly two years
is this just another cruel reminder
of what happened?
another way to invade my life?
all of today
i could feel my hands tremble
and while outside
i remain the same
inside
i am afraid
this isn't fair
it was supposed to be over
Flowers of Nightmares
03/26/01
the hills dusted
with flowers
of delicate pink and white
a dreamscape
painted below
an onimous sky
like frost
of gentle dewfall
on the harsh grounds
of a nightmare
a strange
muted beauty
smothered
by the weight
of the world's fears
and uplifted
by their own multitude
and in the sunlit
shadowy places
so recently disturbed
by the conflicting emotions
of a world torn by war
this surreal new beauty
unfolds
blue
Throwing Stones
03/27/01
once
i thought
i was in control
i could handle
whatever
they threw at me
but they're not
throwing
stones
any more
now
they're throwing boulders
tomorrow?
mountains?
how much more of this
can i take?
once i thought
i was in control
but now i see
that i am just
another victim
another person
to ruin
once i thought
i was in control
but now i see
that they are simply
playing games
with my life
and when they tire
of those games
it will be the end
for me
they're not
throwing
stones
any more
blue
If I should die tomorrow
04/24/01
if i should die tomorrow
and leave this world behind
here are just a few small things
for you to keep in mind
if i should die tomorrow
just know how much i care
remember the love and laughter
and the memories we share
if i should die tomorrow
remember all that's true
but most of all, remember
just how much i love you
if i should die tomorrow
don't cry too much for me
remember that my body's dead
but my spirit's flying free
if i should die tomorrow
the one thing i'll regret
is that i haven't said, 'i love you'
every chance i get
if i should die tomorrow
remember, in whatever you do
listen close, and you'll find me in your heart
whispering, 'i love you'
too afraid
04/28/01
i can't explain my fears
i don't know why they're there
i don't know why i can't trust you
even though i know you care
the only reason i have for myself
is i'm afraid, that if it's true
then someday, it may come to pass
that i'm the one hurting you
and even more, i am afraid
to say the things i feel
because, if i do, i am afraid
that it may not be truly real
too afraid to feel it
in case it isn't true
too afraid to say it
i can't say ....
Re: imaginary friend [re: warchild]
04/30/01
sometimes,
someone that does not exist
can become so very real
that it seems as if
you see them
hear, hold, feel
but always
as the illusions end
you're left with empty air
longing for an imaginary friend
who was never really there
lonliness can lead to things
becoming what they're not
and such a thing is always there
and cannot be forgot
and while an imaginary friend
gives comfort in your mind
once they're gone, you're left to search
for a peace you will not find
blue
Help with a title?
04/30/01
i'd give anything to tell you
everything i feel
but somehow i wonder
if all this is for real
i'd give anything to love you
freely, strong and true
but something keeps on telling me
to guard myself with you
my heart is saying yes
my head is saying no
it's tearing me apart
every high and low
every time i think of you
i feel like i could cry
i want so much to hold you
but i just don't know why
my head is saying no
my heart is saying yes
i don't know what to tell you
i couldn't even guess
everything inside me
is saying that it's right
but i am still afraid
as i lie awake at night
but somehow every hope and dream
all my love and fear
they all come together
whenever you are near
show the world
05/10/01
show the world a pretty picture
hide behind a false facade
keep your feelings in the darkness
and your colours in the shade
show the world a pretty picture
keep all love at bay
hide away behind your sorrow
and turn happiness away
show the world a pretty picture
and never show your fear
prevent the world from seeing it
a false laugh, a quiet tear
show the world a pretty picture
although it may be untrue
afraid that someone should ever see
the contradiction that is you
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