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let you know
05/14/01
I'll never let you
know how much you hurt me
with your careless words
and heartless, hateful teasing
Itold you something beautiful
something special to my heart
Iwanted to share the wonder of my happiness with you
but, in your thoughtless way
you twisted it
turned it into a joke
for everyone to ridicule
you think it's funny to hurt me
to make me cry
but you are only destroying
our friendship
Itold you something beautiful
and you turned it into a joke
but I'll never let you know
just how much you hurt me
borrowed angel
05/14/01
a friend was talking about borrowed
angels
and i think, in some strange way, you're mine
sent to be with me, because i needed you
but only here for a short space of time
lent to me, by God up in heaven
to help me through my darkest day
but, once that dark day is over
will you then be taken away?
i'm praying so hard that you won't be
that this won't turn out not to be true
because, no matter how hard i've tried not to
i can't help it, my angel, I Love You!
in the dark
05/18/01
so many things i wish i could tell you
so many dark things to hide
so many secrets to keep from you
so many feelings to keep locked inside
i refuse to let you see me surrounded
by the fears my emotions create
this uncertainty is what kills me
so much more than love, fear or hate
i've never felt quite so afraid
of the demons that come with the dark
but secrets are kept for a reason
and dark things belong in the dark
i've never felt quite so alone
locked away in my own private hell
walls of cold stone emotions
bars of secrets i never can tell
thank you
05/30/01
this is not a love poem
nor is it a hymn of praise
this is just a simple thank you
for what you did for me today
you will probably never read this
but at least i'll know it's there
testimonial to how happy it makes me
just knowing that you care
so many times i've realised
what nobody else seems to see
just how very special you are
and how mych you mean to me
i see how everyone looks up to you
i've watched the way you lead
gently solvng every problem
and meeting every need
i love your streangth and courage
i love to see your smile
i hope nothing ever hurts you
not even for a little while
you have no idea how much you do for me
how you abolish all my fear
it makes me feel so safe and loved
just knowing you are near
i'm proud to have you as my friend
blue
If all is not lost - where did everything go?
anger
05/31/01
tears of dark blood falling
staining innocent faces
true feelings, scared and hiding
in shadows and dark places
words of uncaring anger
ripping lives apart
daggers, thrown so carelessly
at happiness' fragile heart
be careful with your anger
there are better things to feel
hate and anger have the power to hurt
but love can always heal
blue
one day
one day
you're going to wake up
and find yourself alone
without friends
without love
without anyone
one day
when you realize
too late
what your 'friendship'
does to those
you pretend that you care about
do you know what your real problem is?
it's not
what you think
it's not
what others have done to you
how you have been hurt
it's what you
you, yourself
have done
the hurtful things you have said
the harmful things you have done
the thoughtless gossip and teasing
if it's about you,
it's important
you care nothing
for how others feel
for how i feel..
i stood in front of you
silently screaming for help
and you could not hear me
you weren't listening
i needed your help
but i wasn't concentrating on you
and so you punished me
by denying me
the words of comfort
i needed to hear
i am your friend
but i don't think you are mine
i don't think you know what friendship means
one day
you will wake up
and realise that
i only hope
it will not be too late
for you
be careful
you are losing friends
faster than you know
and one day
they will be gone
and you will be left
alone
i was the only one
prepared to be your friend
regardless
but you don't want me
you don't want my friendship
and i can only give
i cannot force you
to accept
that friendship
but i would give anything
for yours
if only
i felt that
you truly wanted to give it
blue
If all is not lost - where did everything go?
promises
i can't promise to love you forever
or until death do us part
but i can promise to love you today
and that you are the only one in my heart
i can't promise to give you forever
of that my heart will never stray
but i can promise to give you right now
this moment, this hour, this day
i can't promise a definite tomorrow
i don't know what our future will be
but i can promise you that today
i give you all that is me
i can't promise that i'll never hurt you
of that we won't end up lonely and sad
but i never want to hurt the one i love
and yours is the truest love i've ever had
i can't promise to be yours forever
i can't promise i won't find someone new
but i can promise that today, this moment
the only one that i love, is you
blue
If all is not lost - where did everything go?
Changing Seasons
One I wrote a while ago...
Changing seasons
I watch my autumn garden
where all is calm and still
while winter's filtered sunlight
falls across my windowsill
high in the changing season's air
a lonely swallow flies
while underneath the willow tree
a golden carpet lies
blue
If all is not lost - where did everything go?
i can hear...
i can hear you hurting
i can hear it in your voice
and i wish i could be there
to hold you
so that you'd feel how much i care
i can hear you hurting
and i don't know why
but i love you
and i wish i could help
i can hear you hurting
and even though i know
that i can't fix
what's wrong in your life
i just hope
that it helps
to know that i love you
blue
stardragon
just a chance encounter
with someone i don't know
but even though i don't know you
i didn't really want to go
for in that chance encounter
you did something worthwhile, you see
you did something really wonderful
you made me glad i was me
despite all the world has thrown at us
the heartache we both have gone through
by helping each other, we became friends
just by showing the other what's true
you made me feel glad to be me
and i hope that i did the same
because what you did for me tonight
made it worth asking your name
so now i know your name
i know your heart's hurting right now
but i hope that in some way, i helped you
to deal with the pain, somehow
just a chance encounter
which could have easily come to an end
but i think that this chance encounter
gave us both what we need, a friend
thank you
blue
If all is not lost - where did everything go?
perhaps
there are many things
that i want to tell you
many things that
perhaps
you don't want to hear
perhaps they should remain unsaid
because
despite everything
or perhaps because of it
you are still my friend
you have hurt me
i have hurt you
and for that i am sorry
perhaps,
we can start anew?
begin again?
i don't know
what you are going through
because
you refuse to tell me
i wish you would
but if you can't
i understand
i am your friend
and i will always be your friend
i'm here if you need me
and if you don't
but you must understand
that i am human
and that i need to be loved
just as much as you
perhaps the friendship
was never lost
but just in case it was...
this is to remind you
that it is there
now, and always
just accept it...
blue
If all is not lost - where did everything go?
too proud
all i want is for you to hold me
i wish that you would call
i want so much for you to be here
but i don't want you to see the tears fall
i'm too proud to ask you to come
even though i love you so much
i'm strong enough to do this alone
but i wish that i didn't have to be
i know all i have to do is call you
and that you would be here in an instant
if only i were not too proud to ask
i know i will be fine
there are people here who care
but they won't leave me alone
i don't need my father's joking
or my brother's childish play
i need you to be here, to hold me
but i am too proud
to let you see me cry
just knowing that you love me is enough
it has to be..
blue
i give up
i give up
i've tried too hard
for too long
but i don't even know
what i'm trying for
do i really want things to go back
to the way they were?
when you hurt me even more
because we were close?
Every day, brought some small reason
to doubt our friendship
to hate you for hurting me
small hurts, small hates,
but they add up
and yet i don't hate you
your friendship has not done much for me
it's has not made me happy
except for a few brief moments
you don't care to help me
with my problems
and i don't seem to be helping you
so what am i fighting for?
for the dubious comfort of speaking to you occasionally?
or being able to phone you?
i don't want to give up
i thought maybe
i could help you
but you live in your own world
only caring for yourself
and i can't reach you
even though i've tried
harder than most
all i'm doing is hurting myself
and letting you hurt me
so i give up
you don't want my help
so i give up
blue
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