Love's the Only House
7/3/00
A street child walks by
filthy, hungry and alone
sniffing glue, cursing the world
to hide his pain.
"Voertsek, menace !"
we scream.
Words can hurt more than we think!
A fat lady walks by
rejected, unfulfilled, alone
eating another icecream
to hide her pain.
"Look at her !"
we whisper.
Words can hurt more than we think!
Two gay lovers walk by
scoffed at, together but alone
fiddling with each other, kissing, giggling
to hide their pain.
"Queers!"
we say just loud enough so they can hear.
Words can hurt more than we think!
Love's the only house big enough for all the pain
in the world!
- Smile -
Abyss
7/3/00
Numbed by pain and confusion
too much to carry
I sink into an abyss
of nothingness
feeling nothing, doing nothing
being
nothing
No way out of this hotel!
Just carry on and take everything that comes your
way
doesn't matter if it's bad
it would eventually have happened anyway
No pain, no worries
Untill you came along
and shocked the life back into me.
Oh, please let me die of this pain
forcing its way through
the false calm of my survival
to the edge of living.
Feel the pain!
'Cause it's a luxury.
If you don't
nothingness will choke the life out of you.
- Smile -
Just Me
7/3/00
Each drop in the bucket
each pebble at my door
fills me with your
struggles
your choices
your dreams
And so I do the same
sharing
just me
looking for shelter at your door
'cause sometimes
caring is all we need
to go back and fill our own buckets
with lifes lived.
Untitled
7/3/00
You are a rooted tree
in the asylum of my mind
where storms and lightening brew
as a result of the havoc
sowed by lifes cruelty
Adoration
7/3/00
You've got a way with me
You make me smile a thousand times a day!
Your gentle teasing makes me want you more than
words can say...
Your understanding of good and bad sets me free;
Your calming presence lets me be.
And because of that
I've gotta tell you
that I adore you,
and cherish our moments together!
(Please let it be forever)
- Smile -
True Friendship
7/6/00
Once in a blue moon
clover so abundantly scattered
presents to us priceless friendship.
Once in a velvety blue
friendship turns to passion
(not asking who you are).
Please handle this with tenderness,
'cause this glass is easily shattered.
Choices
7/11/00
If you knew then
what you know now...
would you do the same things again?
Would you love (and hate) the same people?
Would you choose to walk along the same paths?
Someone once said:
"If I had my life to live over
I'd do it all the same."
Stop. Think.
Would you really?
Do the same things?
Love the same people?
Choose the same paths?
If I could...
I'd certainly change some of the above
to spare myself some pain
But then I wouldn't be the same
No strength and empathy gained...
I'd be a stranger
and not the me so dear to me!
And if that stranger could choose again
surely she'd choose differently
AGAIN
And then she too'd be a stranger
to the stranger in my dream!
So thank God
for not giving us that choice
of being someone else.
I choose to be me
in the here and now
and if my choices aren't so great...
well, Baby, that's too bad!
Next time
I'll open my eyes a little more,
say a prayer
and do what I do best:
be me!
- Smile -
full vs. empty
7/17/00
Here's my thoughts re. full vs.
empty:
Full are my thoughts of you
every day.
You fill me up with love
in every way!
Empty is my pockets at the mo'
Will soon be filled
with end-of-the-month dough!
Don't always have something worthwhile to say...
But I try to contribute
in any little way!
I hear you
8/1/00
Been there
done that
Got the pain
Worn the shame
of being violated
NO
of letting others violate me
To one day be an innocent child
and the next,
for years to come,
the one who was always different...
what a burden to wear
Dying bit by bit
every time
not able to heal alone
just surviving
each day
by breathing
by being
protecting the ones who hurt me...
dead inside
dead
Revenge?
What a sweet notion
But if it's your family
a friend
What do you do?
You do what you have to...
You forgive.
And you survive.
Lucky are the ones
who choose life!
Shines
8/1/00
And God wept
as He looked down
on His children,
His children,so angry, lonely and hurt.
For He had meant for us to rejoice
in the wonder of His creation
and life itself.
Instead
we see life as a threat
and protect ourselves by hurting others
'cause we've been hurt before:
a seemingly unbreakable cycle
of pain,
of creating Hell on earth.
And God wept
for He had meant for us to rejoice.
Crimson Rose
8/2/00
Seduction is a rose
dewdropped
with mornings desire
only for you
my love...
Passions overflowing.
Inhibition's just some word.
For you
I'll open the petals of promise...
For you
my every desire!
Because
8/22/00
Because everybody hurts sometimes.
Because nobody is perfect.
Because evil is sometimes the ones we love.
Because everyone is trying to survive in their
own jungle.
Because the sun shines every day.
Because happiness has to be found by oneself.
Because there's something good in every person.
Because God loves me.
That's who I am.
That's why I live.
That's how I survive.
- Smile -
Teddy Bear
8/2/00
Teddy Bear
one eyed and worn out
by many hugs
of solace
found
and
many happy dreams
dreamed by lovers
everywhere!
- Smile -
Clone
6/2/00
I am a clone of your will
neatly boxed in
Luckypackets
sold in the supermarket
of my life
as you brush my lips
with well-intentioned love.
For Gryg
You're stronger than you think!
I know it hurts like hell,
but you will survive this too!
One day you will find
that peace returned
to quitely fill your heart again.
Don't be too hard on yourself
for he who has made no mistake
have surely never lived before!
Strength will come
from God
and friends.
Only one favour I ask of you:
Don't do this unnecessarily...
You know what I mean!
(I know your gentle soul
only wants to protect...)
The one thing every human being
owes himself
is to be true to his nature;
himself.
So, think about this before you go to bed.
And promise me
that you'll be true to yourself
no matter what the mess.
You will probably protest to this...
Please take it from whom it comes
your friend.
Blessed day
8/3/00
It's raining in Somerset-West
today
just like it was raining there 27 years ago
on this day
when I was born.
That's what my mother said
when we talked on the phone this morn'n.
If you should ask what I got today
kisses is what I'll probably say...
wet nosed ones on bare legs from me dogs,
a passionate sleepy kiss from me hubby,
and lots of pecks & hugs
from family and colleagues all around!
How blessed I am
to be so loved!
- Smile -
Content (A love poem)
9/13/00
I'd like to share
this "feeling" with you, even though it
does not rhyme, not even a little bit; a love
poem from my heart:
When I chose you,
my love,
I knew that you were the one
and that our love was meant to be
from the days we were conceived.
Since then
many water flowed
over a few stubborn pebbles
causing more than a little confusion
and some painful moments of truth.
But now
I feel a calm content
just being with you
each night
each day
and sharing all the little things;
it warms my wooden heart.
And thus
I want to say this to you:
Baby,
you're still the one for me!
- Smile, 2000 -
Sardine reality.
9/13/00
You are the salt
of my canned sardine reality
and if you feel deficient,
I'll give my all,
abundantly,
unconditionally,
and even
at my expense,
to thee.
Untitled
9/13/00
If you live uncrushed
under everyday garbage
that life deals you,
you will survive
Just breath,
just be...
Eat sum more
10/24/00
Your hunger for perfection
eats me up inside
as I yearn for your
unconditional
love me as I am
but once again
you flip me inside out
and devour me
as I eat some more
of your criticism
sated to the brim
yet
starving
for your love.
- Smile, 2000 -
Tired
12/21/00
I feel so tired
of always trying
and always failing
and even though
I got something right
this time
of forgetting something else
of never being enough
and always saying something wrong
Why
does everything
have to be
perfect
?
Please just give me a break
or even
some love
if you can
.
New Year Resolution
01/02/01 03:34 PM
While reading some of
Wylde's recent poetry, some of his words stuck in
my head...and this is what I spit out:
The tears
that I've cried
are lepers
quilted into
the patchwork
in the real
of my head
screaming for release
so that I may be...
Decisiontime
starts today
Happy New Year
me
Some love will be gived
Some sins will be forgiven
Some wounds will be bled
Some wrongs I will forget
Some ties will be cut
Time to listen to my gut
No more guilt
No more crap.
The lepers
are screaming
for release
- Smile, 2001-
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