*December 19, 2007

Today, I was reading my old journals. Since, its Christmas break now, I had nothing better to do. I was reading a couple of entries. One was back in 5th grade. I remember when Kwon Ji Yong (many people call him G Dragon) the time me and him where going out, He was my first boyfriend. In my journal I wrote “During lunch today, G Dragon asked to talk to me, we were just looking at each other, and all of a sudden he went down on one knee and said ‘Will you be my girlfriend?’ My heart was beating so face, started to blush… Well, of course I said yes. Now I finally know how he truly feels about me, I was so confused because I wasn’t sure if he was just being flirty or if he liked me, because he didn’t say that he liked me. But, I’m so happy now that I have him all for myself.” I’m still unsure if he was my first love. He cared for me, he would say up all night when I couldn’t sleep, or when I needed someone to talk to. He would call me just to say hello, or say good night, or what am I doing. He was the sweetest guy. In 8th grade we just broke up. In beginning of 8th grade we broke up. Everyone was shocked because we made the perfect couple. We were the talk around the whole school. I was cried endlessly. The reason why he broke up with me was because he was going back and forth from Korea. He said he didn’t want me to feel lonely, and we won’t be seeing much of each other. I had about 10 journals just a bout G Dragon, from the first day met; we met back in 1st grade. That’s a lot huh? Then I read the first entry that changed my whole life. They day I met Kim Kibum, the love of my life. I’m so glad that he is apart of my life, he fixed my broken heart. He made my sadness go away. Every time I hear his voice, every time I see his face, I fell in love all over again. I still get butterflies in my stomach. I loved how he just trusted me right away. We would tell each other everything. We would talk every day and night, and talk about everything, sometimes we would sleep on the phone with each other. We would walk in the park together. Everyone thought we were together. Then he surprised me on the minute of my birthday! At 12:00am. That’s when I knew he was the one for me. When G Dragon found out, he got really jealous, He still tries to take me back. But, I don’t think that’s going to happen. G Dragon and me are still friends, he will still and always be a part of my life. But, the only GUY in my life for me is Kim Kibum.