Chapter 10
Friday, May 5, 2000
Okay, so what if he likes her too? I’m just praying that he doesn’t. I wouldn’t know what to do if she falls for Mark. I’ve got to act quickly. I’ve never been in love like this before. I’m really not sure if Mark likes her something. Maybe I was just jealous, coz he could talk to her and I couldn’t as much as blink my eyes when she’s around.
I’m just praying that Mark doesn’t want her. I’d be terribly gutted if he did. I mean, I wouldn’t let a girl destroy our friendship, as well as the band. We’ve worked too hard just to throw it all away. And I can’t afford to be blamed if the band breaks up. It’s like tearing the others’ hopes and dreams.
I’ll come over to her room to just say “hi”. I don’t know, the idea just popped into my head. Yeah, I’ll drag Nicky along with me just so that it wouldn’t be obvious. What the heck! I’ll drag everyone along!
Jenny’s diary
May 6, 2000
Dear Diary,
It’s already 4 in the morning, and I haven’t slept yet! Everyone just left my room a few minutes ago, and I just finished cleaning up. It’s a good thing Bryan offered to help. The others were all too tired to bother. He was extremely quiet though, so I was the one who did most of the talking. It surprised me really, coz from what I heard about him and read about him, he’s always talking and punching a few jokes. Maybe he was too tired. After all, he did work all the rest of the day, where as Tammy, Linda and I just went shopping.
Well, here’s the story. I was watching tv, actually, I wasn’t really. I was thinking of the big day tomorrow. We’ll be performing in front of thousands and I am a bit scared. Even if it’s only for 20 minutes I still am scared. A lot can go wrong in 20 minutes you know. Anyway, I got up, coz someone knocked on the door. I was surprised coz everyone was in front of my door! The girls were carrying pillows and most of the lads were carrying bags of crisps, cans of soda and other stuff. So, I let them in, coz they obviously wanted to hang out and get to know me better. Kian was the first one to come in, and he started teasing me in this little girlie voice. He said he had no idea I liked the Powerpuff girls. I was like, “What are you talking about?” and then I saw the tv was tuned in to Cartoon Network. Everyone started teasing me about it. I didn’t care really. I actually found it funny. Mark suddenly told them off in a mock teacher voice, saying that they should stop coz they used to watch cartoons when they were younger too. Shane suddenly accused him of watching cartoons as well at his age coz he sticked up for me and everyone started laughing at Mark! He looked so cute. I brought out my playstation, coz I really can’t live without it. Nah! Actually, my mum made me bring it. She said it would just accumulate dust in the house when I leave. All of us played a few games and pretty soon we got tired of it. Well, majority of us did anyway. We used it as a cd player instead. I brought out my cds (yeah, there were loads of Westlife cd singles, and the album was there too) and Mark gave out a cry of joy when he saw that I had Mariah’s Rainbow album. We all asked why he was so happy about it, and he said he missed listening to it. He broke his copy of the album in two when he accidentally sat on the cd when he was about to lie down in bed. So, I let him borrow it. All of us were sitting on my bed, some were sprawled all over the floor. We were just pigging out on junk food and they kept asking me a lot about the Philippines. They eventually asked what I was doing here. I explained to them that we had to move from London, England to her coz of my dad’s work. Well, I was just basically talking to Nicky, Mark and Bryan coz Tammy and Kian, Linda and Shane were all cuddled up in a world of their own. Eventually, Tammy felt kinda sleepy, so she said she’ll be returning to her room. Kian followed her, wanting to say goodnight I guess. After half an hour, Linda left too, coming back after a few seconds. She complained that Kian was already sound asleep beside Tammy, so she didn’t have anywhere to sleep at. They were sharing a room with one huge bed, coz there weren’t any more rooms in the hotel that had two beds in them. I was about to offer that she could sleep with me in my room, but Shane beat me to it. Since Kian and him were sharing, she could have Kian’s bed. After having that arranged, they left.
After staying for three more hours, the three other lads decided to go, coz they noticed I was already tired. I bet they would’ve stayed longer if I didn’t look sleepy! So, as I’ve said earlier, Bryan offered to stay for a while and clean up the room with me. Mark was supposed to say something but Nicky started dragging him towards the door. After a few minutes when we were done, Bry and I were standing at the doorway. I was about to lean in to kiss him on the cheek after I thanked him for being so sweet by offering to help. But he also leaned in, I dunno, maybe deciding to meet me halfway (he is tall after all), but we both moved too fast I almost kissed him on the lips! Well, at least it didn’t land on his lips, or else I wouldn’t know what to do! Although half of me does wish that I had kissed him!
I wonder what would’ve happened if we did accidentally kiss each other. Well, there’s always two outcomes! One is he’ll continue kissing me, and two is he’ll pull back and he’ll say he’s sorry! Duh! Well, I do go for number one! Who wouldn’t? You’d have to be crazy to chose the other. Just like me, for choosing not to get involved with either Mark or Bryan coz Linda and Tammy are already with Shane and Kian. I really am crazy aren’t I?