Chapter 4
Monday, May 1, 2000
It's really so hard keeping track with the time and dates! I mean, I need to call my mum or someone back at home just to know what bloody day it is! Well, we're at Hong Kong at the moment, and it's really so mad here in Asia. All the fans are just so lovely, but they can be a bit crazy though. But they're all so nice... ok, maybe I'm lying to myself. They can get quite annoying, screaming their heads off when they see us, flashing cameras in front of our faces and shoving pieces of paper to us for us to sign. But hey, it all comes with the work. I wanted this, and everything comes with a price. I just have to grin and bear it all. But sometimes, it is very flattering even if you're getting used to this fame and fortune thing. I mean, it can be a bit mind-blowing. Imagine, I was just someone who girls would just pass by, as if I weren't there. And now... look at me. I'm everywhere! Everywhere I look, I see pictures of the band or pictures of me. It's so crazy. Now I truly know what they mean when they say "When God doesn't give you something right away, it's because He has a much bigger surprise waiting for you. Going back to the fans bit, okay, I did make them sound a bit bad. I didn't even take the time to point out the nice things they do. They're very generous, that's one. They give you expensive presents and stuff and they go all out just to make sure you're comfortable and everything. Another is, they're so lively. They do have the tendency to get carried away but all in all they're pretty okay. It's around 3 in the morning, and I'm actually in the loo as I am writing this down. Yeah, funny you might think, but I'm doing nothing you know! I'm just writing. I don't want the lads to come barging into my room and seeing me writing in a journal. It's so unlike me you know and it can be a bit uncool. Let's face it, it's more of a girl thing right? Come to think of it, I really don't agree with that. If girls could wear pants like us do, and some guys wear nail polish like girls do, so why can't guys write in diaries? And this is really a great form of "therapy" for me, when things aren't going the way I want them to. Which isn't very often I should say. Writing isn't really my thing, but I am starting to enjoy this. Maybe when the band is over after a few years I would get a kick out of reading this thing. Yeah, I'll do just that. In just a few days we'll be going around Asia... again (Hong Kong, is the first spot we've started the concert tour)! But hey, there's some countries that we still haven't been to yet, so that would be exciting I guess... like, there's one, in fact, the next country we'll be going to. It's the Philippines, just two hours away from Hong Kong by plane. I've heard a lot about it through Ronan, and I am quite afraid to go there, just to tell the truth that is. It is quite scary. Well, I guess I'll just pray for the best then!