Journal Page 9

July 12th, 2004 - Today your recieved your 3,900th visitor. Today is also your fifteenth month of being gone. I visited you today as well. I had a special thing happen today. Mom, mom's friend Kate and me was looking for some places to move to when mom's car started acting up and she turned on Measley Ridge Road. I hate that road and have only been on that road twice since what happened. When we was going down the road, I held onto my necklace so tight and I have no idea why. It was not raining once we started down the road. When we got to the spot where you passed on, it came a down pour. It was so bad that you couldnt hardly see out the windshield. Right as soon as we turned off the road, the rained stopped and a beautiful rainbow was in the sky. It was like you was telling me it was alright. I just had this sense of ease when I seen the rainbow. I just want to thank you for all the memories you gave me Emily. I will cheerish them for all times.

July 13th, 2004 - Today my email friend Mystic sent me a tag that has our prom picture together that has lyrics to Puff Daddy's song "Missing You". It's really pretty. Should be adding it to the pictures made for you soon.

July 16th, 2004 - Today your memorial site celebrates it's first year running. Thank you to all who have visited and contributed to the site. It means a lot to me, Emily, Emily's family and friends.

July 18th, 2004 - Today you recieved your 4,000th visitor!

July 19th, 2004 - Today you recieved your 4,100th visitor. A hundred visitors within a day is really good. Thank you to all of the visitors.

July 20th, 2004 - Today I added Mystic's graphic that she made for you and some new Graphics that Louise made for you as well on your Pictures Made for You page. They are all so beautiful. Thank you Mystic and Louise.

July 28th, 2004 - Today you recieved your 4,200th visitor. Casie left me an offline telling me that your memorial garden at Cedar Works is almost done. They havent finished with your "Sadness" poem yet but they have the flowers and a bench with an angel sitting on it already finished. I went by it today to see it and it is beautiful. It's where everybody can see it. I was going to take pictures of it but it's was getting dark out so I probably couldn't have got a real good picture of it but next time I go down there, I will take a picture of it for sure. You would love it Emmy.

August 8th, 2004 - Today you recieved your 4,300th visitor.

August 10th, 2004 - Today I added the Heaven's Angels webring on your vote page.

Auguest 18th, 2004 - Today you recieved your 4,400th visitor.

August 24th, 2004 - Today you recieved an award from Chrissy for your site. It's a beautiful award. Thank you so much Chrissy. Today was also Mary's first day of her senior year. Good Luck Mary with everything you do in life. Have a wonderful senior year and cherish it forever.

August 27th, 2004 - Today your mom emailed asking if I was available for September 4th, for Channel 12 news is doing a documentary on you and wanted to know if I would like to be apart of it. I accepted and felt so honored that Maria asked me to be involved. Thank you so much Maria. I know you will be right there with me Emily, guiding me threw every second like you have in the past.

August 28th, 2004 - Today you recieved your 4,500th visitor.

September 2nd, 2004 - Today I added a page I title "My Reason Why". It's my statement why I have started this website for you and shared the rest of my memories that I didn't state on the front page. I also added some pictures to your scrapbook.

September 4th, 2004 - Today was your documentary filmed. I finally met Casie and she is so nice. She makes you feel so comfortable to be around. Michael was putting on a rock show for us to the White Stripes song "Hardest Button...". He so cute. Catherine was singing to us a Dixie Chicks song "Long Time Gone".  She is so funny. Michael and Catherine both are. Michelle reminds me so much of myself. She loves the same music I do and quiet. We both love to keep to ourselves. Mary reminds me of my sister. The whole documentary turned out great. There was not a dry eye there. They talked to me about the website and about my memories of you and it was so hard for me to talk without tears forming in my eyes. I just kept telling myself "Don't cry, you are doing this for Emmy". I seen some new pictures of you that I haven't seen and there where all so beautiful. Your mom let me bring some home to put up and let me have one. She also said once they find the portrait you painted of Leo, I get to have that. I am going to frame it and keep it forever. I still remember what that painting looks like. I remember the background being blue and the portrait of Leo was so beautiful. Everybody was sharing their memories about you and they brought back some memories of you that I had forget about. I kept telling myself, "How on Earth did you forget about that" but I am so glad I got those back. Michael and me played with his fort in the barn and then cars in his room. He looks so much like you. I just want to thank everybody, Maria, Mary, Michelle, Catherine, Michael, Casie, your Grandma Jansen and Mike for making me and mom so comfortable like we was part of the family. Thank you guys so much for inviting me as well. It meant the world to me to be there for Emily as well as you all. I added more pictures as well today.