I saw a beautiful sunrise while waiting for my flight at Hartsfield Airport. The sun was an orange ball, and the light played with the clouds. And I wondered when was the last time I truly looked at a sunrise. My meditation has improved tremendously. After the analytical process in dealing with personal issues, I suddenly had an insight. No matter who's right or wrong, in order to advance, you have to be free from all attachments. That is, all love, all hate. It is that simple, and yet, that difficult. But that's how you become a master. You must be in control of your thoughts, your emotions. It doesn't mean you become void of feelings. Be aware of them, but be in control. Lu the dog was thrilled that I'm home. Mom said the day after I left he just lied in one place, sad. The first night in Georgia, I dreamed that Lu came to my room there, jumped on my bed, wagging his tail. Sweet dog!
October 2001
One more week until the Vo Vi gathering and miraculously, peace has come back to me. Two nights ago, I meditated and felt such calmness. My breathing slowed down. The cool night air evoked memories of time past. This morning, I read Chapter 14 of Autobiography of a Yogi, the part when Sri Yukteswar bestowed an experience in cosmic consciousness to his pupil Yogananda. It touched me deeply and gave me such strange peace for a long while. The state of God-union, samadhi, is only for the true seekers. God keeps his promise, but you have to keep your appointments with God. thai ta