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| Sunday, July 13, 2003 So how do I feel? Danny’s posted quite a bit on his website. His interpretation of what I’ve said. What everyone’s telling him. How he’s feeling… I don't want to post all of my thoughts or what people have been saying but I feel a bit guilty that I'm leaving this stuff out while you're reading this site and thinking that you know what's going on with me. So here's an idea... I've been feeling flashes of lots of different things but here's what I'm going through today. I’m teetering between emotional mess and apathy. I can’t be apathetic because he’s such a nice guy and I don’t want things to be more ugly or painful than necessary. Combine that with what I'm already feeling and that makes me an emotional mess. At some point, I realize I'm an emotional mess so I reason with myself that it's self-destructive to nurture this so I try to become apathetic. Repeat. Things at work are proving to be a good distraction. Tomorrow, I'm talking to Amy, Angie and DeAnna about what they can do to help me. Working with them should prove to be... interesting. With their help, I'll hopefully get a little breathing room so that I can develop a compliance plan just for this little project. That’s a totally new arena for me so it’ll be interesting. |