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| Saturday, July 26, 2003 Happy belated birthday to me! I hit 27 as of Monday and, as Dave put it, I've officially entered the late 20s. Suck. At least I finished off 26 with some fun. On Friday, I had dinner with Salina, Dino, Danny and Dave at Mambo Cafe. Didn't care much for the food or mojitos but you live and learn. Pirates of the Caribbean was a fun movie. Johnny Depp was fabulous and Orlando Bloom wasn't bad either. I found myself identifying with the girl in the movie but I'm over it now. Saturday was all-day fun at Six Flags Great America. I really had no intention of going but Charlie didn't get discouraged by my vague "I'll call you back"s. Well, it worked and I found myself in a two-hour line suppressing a gag reflex because Leonard decided to share a story about a kid who slurped up someone else's phlegm for $5. It's making my stomach turn even now. That was an evil day because I had Wendy's for lunch, Burger King for dinner and a funnel cake with ice cream. I felt disgusting. Sunday was a nice and mellow night with the girls at Schuba's. We went to see Edie Carey, Andrew Kerr, Sam Schaber and another chick perform. They were all excellent and it was a good time hanging out with the girls. Monday night was dinner at Chilpancingo with Dave. Yummy! I highly recommend this place for its food, ambience and service - the whole package! It's not in the most convenient location but, if you drive, you're all good. They have an amazing tequila collection but I decided to restrain myself and opted for dessert instead. Actually, I was going to be "good" but I decided to change my mind and get a margarita. Dave teased me about my weak will power and you can't tease a stubborn person about weak will power so I stayed strong. Although he can be my biggest critic at times, I don't mind because he doesn't do it to hurt me. It's kind of cute actually that the little brother is trying to look out for me. Overall, I say that good food + good company = good time. This was probably the best birthday weekend I've ever had... based on all of the above. It was my birthday night that gave my 26th year a bittersweet ending. I can't remember why but Danny came over. Things were nice and friendly at first and then we talked about "us". For two months, things have been in flux. It was a transition period where each of us had different visions of possible endings. Danny's birthday gift to me was giving in to my idea. I suppose he got tired of me crying. Joking aside, it was a relief because it meant some sort of closure for us both... but it was gut wrenching at the same time. The throat feels tight and dry, your stomach is balled up into knots, your brain jumps from past, present to future in a matter of seconds, and you wonder how the heart can tolerate so much pain and yet continue to function. You hope that the morning will bring some relief but there's always an aftermath. Puffy eyes are tricky when applying eyeliner but sunglasses can't be worn indoors so funky glasses are a girl's best friend. Now that it's the end of the week, I feel a little more settled down. Friendster has been a great distraction. I found one of my younger cousins but I didn't add her to my list because I'm afraid of what I'd read. I like my memories of her as a cute little kid. Maybe I'll add her but not until I've accepted that she's an adult now. Upgrading to Windows XP has been another good thing, too. Danny came over on Thursday to help me recover some files. If they weren't all of the emails I've been saving for the past couple of years, I would've blown them off as a casualty but I couldn't turn my back on all of those memories. He actually called me on Wednesday night to see if I needed some help but my phone was on vibrate so I didn't get his message. I think that played a big part in why I'm feeling okay. It's giving me hope that it is possible to switch gears and re-develop a friendship. |